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Teardrop2021
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- Aug 14, 2021
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I'm trying to have a rational discussion about euthanasia, but everyone freaks out about it and automatically thinks that it is "not the solution." So I will describe my situation here. I've struggled with mental health since I was in college (depression and severe panic attacks), but I was able to recover from my episodes in a decent amount of time with meds and behavioral changes. Prior to the pandemic I hadn't had an episode since 2006. However, when the pandemic struck I ended up having the worst episode of my life. Horrible panic attacks, a feeling of being stuck in fight or flight, feeling trapped and in despair. My psychiatrist put me on different meds, but nothing worked. We ended up moving back to where I grew up to be close to my family so they could help me out. I am 45 and needed to be cared for by my mother. Things improved slightly but then I relapsed and things went downhill again. More meds, more therapies and treatments, no improvement at all. That's when I came to SS and started planning my exit just in case. I was able to obtain N and Meto. It's stored in a secure place under lock and key. Honestly, if it were just me I'd do it, but my main reason for wanting to stay alive is my husband. I don't think he'd do well without me, and I wouldn't want him to do it if the tables were turned. On the other hand, I'm suffering so much and I feel like if people loved me, they would want me to be put out of my misery. Anyway, I am in a mental institution now giving it one last try to get better. My question is, how long should one be expected to suffer for the sake of someone else? I feel like either way, one of us has to suffer. I don't know what to do.