Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,740
love (1)
i've had one gf in 37 years for 2 and half years
family (2)
my mum and dad got divorce when i was 2 my mum was the worst parent
work (0)
i've never had a job
home (3)
luckily i was able to live at my dad house into i was 23 and ive got my own flat now
friends (1)
i've had a few friends during my lifetime but none for the last 10 years
money (3)
i've beed on welfare all my life
health (1)
my health as been terrible got a brain injury decay teeth distlocated shoulder damgae stomca linging and a brain injury

1+2+0+3+1+3+1 / 7 = 1.57 overall rating happiness with life out of 10
 
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logout_how_do

logout_how_do

Member
Dec 8, 2023
11
love (1) -> currently trying to leave an abusive relationship
family (4) -> parents are abusive but i love my siblings and my second set of parents (my paternal grandparents) a lot
work (6)
home (2) -> abusive home; so very glad that my siblings don't live here fulltime anymore
friends (7) -> have some very good friends who love me despite me being genderqueer and not being good at communicating šŸ„°
money (3)
health (0) -> have chronic pain since i was six and the condition that caused this while being quite disabling for me and people like me is neither well-known nor considered to be something diabling or something that even will have lasting consequences after surgery/healing where i'm from; add lyme and the aftereffects of covid and the mix is perfectly bad šŸ« 

over all: 3.28
 
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Burden_Bailey

Burden_Bailey

A lonely lesbian
Dec 9, 2023
122
Love (2)
Family(1) If I could I would rate this a negative ten.
Work(5) I love the place I'm at. It lets me escape from my horrible home life. The people there are really kind and accepting of me being lesbian.
home(4)
friends(2) The only reason it's not a one is because of the members on Sanctioned Suicide. I'm friends with some of them.
money(4)
health(2) Still recovering from my hanging attempt.

overall: 2.5
 
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breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
Love(3) Other then family Im not sure i understand what love even is.

Family(7) Im blessed to have a really good family overall. It hurts me knowing the pain I'll have to cause them.

Work(0) Don't work. Quit my pathetic job because i just couldn't stand to drag myself there another day when all i want is to die.

Home(3) Series of bad events led me to being carless and living with my mom. Could be homeless i guess which I personally wouldn't mind.

Friends(2) I've had a couple good friends but overall I've only had acquaintances in my life. I can't stand people for the most part

Money(1) Im broke. Planning on using tax refund to fund my ctb plan.

Health(7) Overall I'm a 22 yo m in good health besides I'm recovering from a car accident where I broke my foot in 3 spots and my clavicle.

Overall- 3.29
 
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Finalnight

Finalnight

Cbting 07/03/24, love you all.
Aug 16, 2023
214
love (0)
family (6)
work (0)
home (10)
friends (0)
money (10)
health (0)
over all: 3.7

Does having a home and money really make me happy? No, they're not even mineā€¦
 
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underscore_nine

underscore_nine

the sweet release
Feb 17, 2023
149
love (1)
i've had one gf in 37 years for 2 and half years
family (2)
my mum and dad got divorce when i was 2 my mum was the worst parent
work (0)
i've never had a job
home (3)
luckily i was able to live at my dad house into i was 23 and ive got my own flat now
friends (1)
i've had a few friends during my lifetime but none for the last 10 years
money (3)
i've beed on welfare all my life
health (1)
my health as been terrible got a brain injury decay teeth distlocated shoulder damgae stomca linging and a brain injury

1+2+0+3+1+3+1 / 7 = 1.57 overall rating happiness with life out of 10
love (0)
every romantic partner has abused and left me
family (1)
my family hates me, I have one cousin who I love
work (7)
I have employment opportunities but currently am in school
home (3)
live with my family, not much to be said
friends (0)
they abused the fuck out of me
money (10)
never really had a concern for it
health (9)
I'm in good shape, I still work out and im in perfect health.

0 + 1 + 7 + 3 + 0 + 10 + 9 = 4.2
 
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Brokensaddle

Brokensaddle

Student
Sep 28, 2020
179
love (3)
family (-billion) who never enemies when you our family hates you
work (1)
home (1)
friends (7)
money (5)
health (5)
 
depthss

depthss

wikihow
Dec 12, 2023
182
Love (0)
Never been in a relationship
Family (3)
Points bc dad's girlfriend is alright
Work (6)
Love my job but it doesn't pay a whole lot. Not many hours either
Home (5)
Neutral
Friends (0)
I haven't had any friends for years, the ones I used to have sucked
Money (4)
Not too bad I guess
Health (8)
Got a cracked tooth and I need to get a root canal done, but other than that I'm pretty healthy
=3.7
 
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isthisit?

isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
137
love (0)
Never had a girlfriend
family (10)
A good stable family, 2 sibling
work (0)
Nope
home (10)
I have only lived in 1 house all my life, its good and spacious
friends (4)
Couple of friends here and there but my friend group kinda forgot about me. Been paranoid ever since
money (2)
Dad ususlly bought me stuff like my pc
health (3)
Slightly fat I think. Everyone keeps telling me different things so Im not sure if Im fat or not.
Overall score of 4. Being born into a rich family really isnt all that good.
 
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greatgooglymoogly

greatgooglymoogly

Member
Dec 1, 2023
79
love (7)
girlfriend is the best thing i've ever had
family (5)
good and supportive but not much real connection
work (3)
had some nice high school jobs but finding anything more than that has been very hard where i live
home (9)
always had a place to stay so can't complain
friends (3)
my gf is my only friend i've ever had and at this point i don't talk to anyone other than my her unless i have to
money (6)
i'm lucky to have parents that have supported me this long
health (9)
never had any issues

self (0)
i still hate myself; I'm killing myself because of myself not because of other people or my circumstances
 
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just_a_guy

just_a_guy

thispersondoesnotexist
Oct 27, 2023
141
Love (7)
I've been loved and I have loved
Family (3)
No father, bad relationship with siblings
Work (9)
I have a good job without too much stress
Home (7)
Not perfect but I live alone and I have space
Friends (2)
I tend to push people away.
Money (7)
I earn decent money
Health (8)
No serious physical conditions. A couple of minor issues

Overall 6.1
 
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kettlevinbarq

kettlevinbarq

I'm Tired
Dec 12, 2023
100
Love (8)
Almost every relationship partner was very good to me and I am now married to my best friend but before I had a lot of BPD issues with it
Family (2)
I don't even want to get into it
Work (3)
I was unemployed for a really long time and it triggered me to attempt ctb and it was really hard to find a job but when I did it was great and I got paid so much money for a super easy job but now I'm getting laid off after just 6 months
Home (8)
Just bought a house
Friends (5)
I make a lot of friends but I've lost best friends and don't have that many people I'm truly close with
Money (5)
I have money now but not when I am unemployed again
Health (5)
meh

overall 5.14
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,322
Love (2) only 1 girlfriend i felt in love but lasted many years. But my self confidence was destroyed by the lack of of father figure , and my mom was insane mentally.

Family(1) materially was good, never lack of anything but totally destroyed me mentally

Work(9) the only good thing about my life , always had great job with very nice boss, nice challenging job.

Home (8) cannot complain , i bought my first condo at 29 and sold it for a nice profit, right now i live in a so so apartment, low rent, low noise , i get along with my neighbors

Friends (8) always had friends , very good friends that i can count on when im in trouble.

Money (7) im not rich but i have enough saved for hard days.

Health (2) that's one of the reason i want to ctb , im trying to recuperate from an operation right now but at 43, life was hard on me , too much drugs, alcool and junk food.

Healthy i wouldn't be here but thats a good things , i need to go before it gets out of hand and i know after 50 I will have very low quality of life so i got 6 years max to beat SI.

Overall : 5.28
 
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DEATH IS FREEDOM

DEATH IS FREEDOM

Death is the solution to unsolvable problems.
Sep 13, 2023
607
Love in the past: 10. Love in the present: 0.
Family in the past: 3. Family in the present: 0.
Work in the past: 5. Work in the present: 0.
Home in the past: 9. Home in the present: 2.
Friends in the past: 5. Friends in the present: 0.
Money in the past: 9. Money in the present: 2.
Health in the past: 5. Health in the present: 0.

The most intelligent people seem to be the unhappiest. The stupid donĀ“t worry. An intelligent person sees more possibilities in a situation than a less intelligent person and therefore the intelligent may be more vulnerable. The smarter, the unhappier.

We will lose everything in life if we live long enough. The average life expectancy is too high. My relatives ruined my life and they talk shit behind my back. To continue living means they win over me. I have no reasons to live, only reasons to die. All the future has to offer is a slow death by the ailments of age with chronic health problems. Suicide shouldnĀ“t be difficult to perform for me. I canĀ“t wait for the introduction of euthanasia. I am in the hell of life.
 
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Morte

Morte

Specialist
Nov 23, 2023
371
Love 0
Money 6
Family 1
Home 6
Friends 0
Work 0
Health 5
 
enstarve

enstarve

Louelle
Dec 11, 2023
20
love (2) Things ended with someone i really loved not so long ago. Trying to patch things up but its really not looking too good for me LOL.
family (1) Would rate lower if possible.
work (3) Not perfect, but its the best i can do for a while
home (6) Snug apartment that three generations of my family already lived in before me. Very comfortable.
friends (1.5) Cut off a lot of people due to my plans on CTB earlier last November, I failed but i still dont want to go back to them. I now only have three people that i talk to regularly and im happier.
money (5) Could be better. Im alright with my income and i can occasionally treat myself.
health (2) Im very chronically ill (physically) and my mental health can be simply explained just by me being on this forum i guess.
 
Final_Choice

Final_Choice

Mage
Aug 3, 2023
544
love(0) - Never been in a relationship
family(4) - I like my mom a lot but due to trauma she's sometimes abusive and manipulative, but I can't blame her
work(6) - I'm in college which I hate but it helped me get my part time job which I like
home(5) - Not great, but I only visit on breaks and hopefully will be able to afford my own place after college
friends(8) - Friends are pretty good
money(2) - I'm poor
health(2) - absolutely horrible but my health expectancy is much lower than average and it might end up assisting my CTB attempt so it's not all bad
Overall - 3.9
 

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