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esoterispeec

esoterispeec

Student
Nov 20, 2020
130
experiencing racism growing up in the UK has murdered my self esteem and confidence, I find it impossible to talk to women. Loneliness is a major factor in me wanting to kill myself, I also have other mental heath issues, but the Lonelinessis and lack of love is like 40% of why I want to die.
 
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absolute

Member
May 7, 2022
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experiencing racism growing up in the UK has murdered my self esteem and confidence, I find it impossible to talk to women. Loneliness is a major factor in me wanting to kill myself, I also have other mental heath issues, but the Lonelinessis and lack of love is like 40% of why I want to die.
Racist people are sick fucks. They are the ones who should kill themselves not you.
 
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SFB123

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Apr 5, 2021
49
experiencing racism growing up in the UK has murdered my self esteem and confidence, I find it impossible to talk to women. Loneliness is a major factor in me wanting to kill myself, I also have other mental heath issues, but the Lonelinessis and lack of love is like 40% of why I want to die.
Sorry to hear that man, what ethnicity are you?
 
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jemetire

oh well
Jun 11, 2023
154
Racism made me even more suicidal
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
669
You realise racism is everywhere right and most people experience it at least once in their life time - personally it's not something I would choose to ctb over but it's up to you.

Even in 100 years racism will still exist, you can never change how other people view other people based on skin colour no matter what. However, having said that I know that the younger generation is more open minded and accepting to be honest than the older generation.

If you live in cities like London you won't experience it that much except here and there but it's part of life. I wish you healing from whatever you have gone through and I wish you the best with whatever decision you end up taking.
 
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jemetire

oh well
Jun 11, 2023
154
You realise racism is everywhere right and most people experience it at least once in their life time - personally it's not something I would choose to ctb over but it's up to you.

Even in 100 years racism will still exist, you can never change how other people view other people based on skin colour no matter what. However, having said that I know that the younger generation is more open minded and accepting to be honest than the older generation.

If you live in cities like London you won't experience it that much except here and there but it's part of life. I wish you healing from whatever you have gone through and I wish you the best with whatever decision you end up taking.
Well, it's one of the reasons I got suicidal, because almost everyday I go to school (young) people shout annoying racist comments about me, making me insecure and giving me a negative self image. I know that it is part of society that will never completely disappear, but that's why I hate this society and I feel like I don't belong here. I live in a relatively small town, so obviously I experience more racism here than in the bigger cities, which is unfair but it is what it is. Over time I've come to accept my unfair disadvantage in this world, but of course there are other reasons for me to CTB, so it's not only racism. I hope my SN arrives soon, so that I at least get more comfortable, knowing that I have a way out.
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

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May 27, 2023
669
Well, it's one of the reasons I got suicidal, because almost everyday I go to school (young) people shout annoying racist comments about me, making me insecure and giving me a negative self image. I know that it is part of society that will never completely disappear, but that's why I hate this society and I feel like I don't belong here. I live in a relatively small town, so obviously I experience more racism here than in the bigger cities, which is unfair but it is what it is. Over time I've come to accept my unfair disadvantage in this world, but of course there are other reasons for me to CTB, so it's not only racism. I hope my SN arrives soon, so that I at least get more comfortable, knowing that I have a way out.

Yeah I know I have had two people being racist to this guy unprovoked that I know by comparing his looks to animals but then he also compared others looks to animals so it's just a cycle of life.

He was so Hurt by what one of the people said and contacted the guy she liked behind her back saying bad things about her and then lied on my name saying it was me when it was indeed him.

Well in my case anyone feeling comfortable saying racist things about me it would be coming from the guy who other people said looked like an animal and it starts with him and it has always been him.

All the best with your method
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
i dont see race i see character.
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
669
i dont see race i see character.

Yeah I suppose you won't be one of the people that will stay this race is full of "snitches" and please don't trust them as they are the biggest snitches in the world when someone or some people of a certain race snitches on you, right ?

"facade character" or the "real character"

I have mentioned on the big lies and things someone does and hides.

My mum doesn't know majority of the things he is and has been doing but has called him all sorts of names over the years and I can imagine what she will say if his "real character" was to be revealed. My mum said she hated seeing anything with him and his family and she will scream because she said his name alone gives her so much headache and she doesn't even know all of the things he has done because he presents her with a facade and she still secretly hates him and called him sorts of names.

The lies and the constant manipulations whilst bragging about winning for being evil says a lot about someone's character.

Hiding all the evil things and everything he has done and my mum still called him a devil and sorts of things and sometimes she would bring him up ( a few years ago without me prompting her) saying all sorts about him!! Ahahah…

He was right about a snitch though as his supposed best mate who was part of the mess called me in September 2018 urging me to go into war with him and saying why I didn't report him to the police like I did to him and even mentioning what some of my so called friends had been saying about me and even laughing saying please don't ever share any friends with that "ugly c?nt" whilst urging me to get new friends. I guess they are all two faced and he was even blaming these people for ruining my relationship with him because according to him it was all lies what this guy and his wife had told me about what he had said.

I suppose he was at Least honest when he said he was also involved and even mentioned some of my Instagram messages I had been messaging people and told me that this guy had made me the most hated person in London and he even mentioned on how he regretted me saying anything about any of my "mates" to him and he even said "this is f?cked up" and he even called me when I was in it he hospital on my Facebook page in December that year 2018 and fake apologised but they didn't stop at least him he apologised but that didn't stop him from helping this guy he would swear was an ugly c?nt and continue to terrorise me saying oh I reported him to the police of course I did because he was threatening to release a video of me that he took without my knowledge but then you see the thing is everyone was two faced especially the main people doing all this because I know what all of them have said about one another behind one other's back ( I'm not even talking about pretending hate here) I wish I had been more ruthless before everything went the way it did with the exposing of how they used to talking bad about one another with even recording their lies (one of them told me about the council and it was confirmed and I knew it was true because someone at that council had told me about it before everything blew over)

This guy had been on some bs before the false rape accusations and immigration thing. For me to even do the immigration thing it was because someone (hahah) one of the closest yeah right told me he (contacted the council) I wonder if he knows that and when I found out I lost it and was urged to call immigration on him I guess that other person was so angry at him that they started to expose one another ( that phone call was legendary and I wish I had recorded it and I would have exposed everyone and their two faced lying character) they are all big liars who will deny what they did and some of the things they have said because it will make them look bad now so I guess denying will be the best option).. That racist man, the gang leader as mum would call him (and his stupid wife or mupengo as he would call her, avatar as he would call her and Mararas as he would call them have lied and covered lies with lies). None of them are innocent and my mum was even blaming me for inviting them into our house.

The racist man also mentioned on how mupengo was even worse than the ugly c?nt as he called him ( all of this shows people who they truly are ) but then they are in this together….. because the wife even messaged me on what's app before saying oh your ex is hacking you but he is blaming D or S whatever his name is. The thing the racist man never denied being involved he told me on my Instagram video call(s) with him but he also mentioned some of the things that were being done and said by the other people and not only that he also mentioned things he himself had posted or said in that group. He even said keep on talking and people will keep on listening and talking about it . He even said have you heard about this, did someone mention about this and then he would laugh. Total caricature, messy and crazy at the same time.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
Racism is the stupidest of human behaviors and disqualifies the human as an evolved or good species. Period.
 
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