Sounds ironic considering the site we're on now, but i'm not going to recommend you an eating disorder forum and I don't think anyone should. Of course they exist, but their entire rhetoric is almost cult-like, and they're designed to warp you into their way of thinking - Almost the opposite of what we stand for here. If you were asking for a way to starve yourself to die, perhaps my advice would be different. But if your goal is to lose weight and feel happier in your body, anorexia absolutely is not the way. Once your body realises you're starving yourself, it'll hold on to every ounce of fat you have. You'll be so hungry, which will lead to binging, guilt, etc etc. The best and only real way to lose weight is being in a calorie deficit, you don't need need to go to the gym at all as long as you're burning more than you consume. There's calculators online to work out your minimum healthy intake, which will allow you to lose weight in a way that's maintainable. Of course, the choice is yours, but if your goal is to lose weight - This is the only way I would recommend.