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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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So I recently just got a boyfriend <3<3<3<3 It's almost been a month. And I feel so amazing when I'm with him. Like I feel so great. I love him so much to no end.

But I crash so fucking hard when I whenever he leaves. And I don't know. It just makes me want to kill myself even more??? It's like good things never last forever. He's gonna drop me eventually and when he does I'm gonna kill myself, so why bother waiting until he drops me? Why not just kill myself now? Even though things are all fine and dandy. Yeah, it's just I know I'm gonna kill myself when he drops me and he has to drop me, like there's no way he's gonna love me forever and ever and ever. Yeah, I don't know.

Good things never last and I'm just tempted to quit while I'm ahead.
 
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SASU-KE

Anhedonic Elementalist
Nov 26, 2025
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You have a good thing going. Enjoy it while it lasts. You're not necessarily wrong in thinking it won't last forever. Most relationships don't.

But see the relationship through.I hope it's long and fruitful.Some of them do end up that way as well.
 
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Knives_14

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May 8, 2026
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I'm happy for you! I think you're thinking too much ahead, although i understand why you would do so.
When we are aware of all the bullshit we carry we tend to give the future outcome for granted but… it's not always like that!

Enjoy your new relationship and try keep composure when he's gone, you are in the most beautiful moment of a relationship and you deserve to enjoy it as much as you can =]

Congratz op! =]

Edit: typo, english is not my first language sry =p
 
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webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
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Love is worth experiencing all the way <3<3<3 experience as much of it as you can 🤗🤗

you're gonna look back on this and be glad for every moment of it that you tasted 🤗❤️ love is great!!! and sweet :). enjoy it all you can, friend; you got this! 🤗🫂

It's like good things never last forever.
Read this statement the other way around. Things that last forever are not good. The vacuum of space is one such thing; it's nothing compared to sweet cheesecake, or a beloved kiss, or a hug from your beloved; any of these lovely such things!!!! <3<3

He's gonna drop me eventually and when he does I'm gonna kill myself, so why bother waiting until he drops me? Why not just kill myself now?
Here is why: because he may very well come back again <3<3. You may misunderstand his intentions, and commit suicide on impulse, and miss out on tons of love you could have enjoyed from him. Even if you focus completely on yourself, it is the best move to stay alive if there is ANY chance of receiving that love again. A healthy and thriving relationship is an excellent antidote to suicidal ideation. (Even if I sincerely encourage everyone to foster MULTIPLE antidotes in their own lives, so that they have multiple sources of support they can pivot from.)

Please read every word you wrote of this post again, immediately after you experience a lovely day again.

Please don't kill yourself on impulse if you ever have a slow period in your relationship. This is a really beautiful thing you have here and you should enjoy it as much as you can <3<3<3.

The REALITY of the LOVE you FEEL with him is way more important than any far off dream/nightmare of "what if what if what if". Please don't kill yourself "what ifs", instead, realize what is. He loves you. I bet he would be willing to die for you. I bet he would be willing to actually take a bullet for you. Please bear this in mind. Please bare this in mind.

And if you ever worry about "oh I just have him what if I can't do without him"; know you CAN also grow while in a relationship too <3. You can use all the love and peace you get from him to build a healthier, more serene, and more peaceful life :).

Lemme know your thoughts on my words. All critiques open!!! Take care forumsibling 🤗.

Don't quit while you're ahead. Our view of "what is ahead" is so easily distorted severely.

You may very well be enticed to quit Pleasure itself, to miss out on awesoaked transcending transpiring love—I encourage you to remind yourself of the insane depths of this love and how it has so lovingly coloured life and air itself 🤗.

Do not give up reality for a distant fear: Instead, take it as it comes; and enjoy what you know to be, far above whatever fears may suggest themselves to us. Let us love, in place of fear: for it is far better to love than to fear.

Play this song:

Take it easy, baby
Take it as it comes
Don't move too fast
If you want your love to last
Oh, you've been moving much too fast

Go real slow
You'll like it more and more
Take it as it comes
Specialize in having fun

Take it easy, baby
Take it as it comes
Don't move too fast
If you want your love to last
Oh, you've been moving much too fast
Moving much too fast
Moving much too fast

Take It as It Comes, The Doors.

Here is a classic poem for us to meditate on <3.

Ask not ('tis forbidden knowledge), what our destined term of years,
Mine and yours; nor scan the tables of your Babylonish seers.
Better far to bear the future, my Leuconoe, like the past,
Whether Jove has many winters yet to give, or this our last;
This, that makes the Tyrrhene billows spend their strength against the shore.
Strain your wine and prove your wisdom; life is short; should hope be more?
In the moment of our talking, envious time has ebb'd away.
Seize the day; trust tomorrow e'en as little as you may.
 

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