Mircea
Member
- Apr 15, 2019
- 83
Greetings everyone. I've come to this forum to seek out your help. Unfortunately I don't plan on chancing my mind about ending my life, which will depend solely on factors beyond my control. At the moment I'm only doing the preparations for when the time might come later this year.
I've looked into various methods of suicide over the course of the past years. Almost all of them are either painful, either carry a high risk of failure. There seems to be only one exception I could find, which has been presented as a painless method that does not risk severe permanent damage in the rare case of failure: Barbiturate overdose... namely Pentobarbital / Nembutal. I understand they work by shutting down the body's nervous system, essentially putting you to sleep, causing death once your brain "forgets" to make you breathe. I would very much prefer this method... but of course I face a major problem: This is a controlled drug thus difficult to find, whereas I'd also need to purchase it without my family finding out.
My initial goal was to buy at least one lethal dose (12 grams) of Pentobarbital, as ingestable pills that can be swallowed with water, in a sealed box to be sure it hasn't been tampered with. However I worry my idea was a bit too pretensions and a luxury suicide I might be unable to afford; For one thing, I can't afford to travel outside of my city, thus I'd need a dealer in my area to meet up and sell them to me. I couldn't take a delivery to my home either... since apart from not putting myself at risk by offering my address to people I don't know, I live with my family which I obviously don't want finding out about my plan until it happens. I'm already nervous that I might have to meet potentially dangerous people, who might sell me a false or poor quality version of the drug which could fail; There are the notorious drug stores on the deep web, on which I'm well aware there's a high risk of encountering some terrifying people. To top it all, the price for the drug appears to be sky high... going over 400$ which is far beyond the 100$ I could spare.
Since I read that it's against the rules to buy or sell drugs on this forum, I won't ask anyone here for the substance or a seller. I only wish to know if from your knowledge, it's possible to buy Nembutal (or other Barbiturate) pills at an acceptable price, ideally without risking to run into dangerous people or being scammed. Thank you.
I've looked into various methods of suicide over the course of the past years. Almost all of them are either painful, either carry a high risk of failure. There seems to be only one exception I could find, which has been presented as a painless method that does not risk severe permanent damage in the rare case of failure: Barbiturate overdose... namely Pentobarbital / Nembutal. I understand they work by shutting down the body's nervous system, essentially putting you to sleep, causing death once your brain "forgets" to make you breathe. I would very much prefer this method... but of course I face a major problem: This is a controlled drug thus difficult to find, whereas I'd also need to purchase it without my family finding out.
My initial goal was to buy at least one lethal dose (12 grams) of Pentobarbital, as ingestable pills that can be swallowed with water, in a sealed box to be sure it hasn't been tampered with. However I worry my idea was a bit too pretensions and a luxury suicide I might be unable to afford; For one thing, I can't afford to travel outside of my city, thus I'd need a dealer in my area to meet up and sell them to me. I couldn't take a delivery to my home either... since apart from not putting myself at risk by offering my address to people I don't know, I live with my family which I obviously don't want finding out about my plan until it happens. I'm already nervous that I might have to meet potentially dangerous people, who might sell me a false or poor quality version of the drug which could fail; There are the notorious drug stores on the deep web, on which I'm well aware there's a high risk of encountering some terrifying people. To top it all, the price for the drug appears to be sky high... going over 400$ which is far beyond the 100$ I could spare.
Since I read that it's against the rules to buy or sell drugs on this forum, I won't ask anyone here for the substance or a seller. I only wish to know if from your knowledge, it's possible to buy Nembutal (or other Barbiturate) pills at an acceptable price, ideally without risking to run into dangerous people or being scammed. Thank you.
