Help Question about ECT ( Electroconvulsive Therapy )

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I have an inquiry about ECT if anyone here has ever tried it as I might be getting it in the near future. I'll be sure fighting for it. What did it do for you ? For context ECT is recommended for major depressive disorder and I reckon implied treatment resistant depression ( I've already tried 2 antidepressants with no success )

And then a bit of a rant I did to ChatGPT but I felt like posting it for those who can relate:
I'm a druggie, an addict. Not matter what I do or who I try to be I go for the quickest route to satisfaction, because nothing else provides me any feeling or sensation or emotion, I have anhedonia and alexythimia and drugs are the only reason I'm still alive, they're the only thing that makes me feel alive. And I think that's partially because I hate reality so I want to escape to different perceptions. Do you think ECT ( electro convulsive therapy ) that I'm planning on doing while in clinic while help me experience things and finally reduce this depression that has been accumulating and worsening for decades ?

 

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I don't know, I never really think about therapy. I remember that after I tried to Kill Myself a year and a half ago, they put me in a therapeutic commune, but it was awful. Everyone there was a bunch of kids who just cried because their boyfriend dumped them or because a family member died. In the end, I was about to be diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder, but I finally quit that shitty therapy. A few months ago, I stopped therapy and psychiatrists altogether. Thank God none of my psychiatrists diagnosed me with some stupid disorder