I don't think the quarantine is ill intended. It's just the only way to control this... not that it matters anymore. We are all gonna die.
But yes, I would love to be off the grid right now. I told my mom back in January we should leave. She has worked with many isolated communities doing charity, perhaps small farming communities or native peoples. I told her if we could go with them. She refused, no less cause my grandparents still live and she wants them to be close to hospitals.
I won't abandon her. She worked relentlessly after my birth, I was born after 6 months rather than 9, and with 900 grams, at the brink of death, and it took years of countless doctor's work to save me. She did that for me, last I could do now is... being with her, on her stubborness of staying in this city, until it becomes engulfed in darkness from the blackouts, the water runs out, we have no gas, and we starve as food vanishes and riots fill the streets.
I don't say I would survive out there but... at least I wish I could see more green, and find some peace, in my last weeks or months of life, rather than still being here. But I won't abandon her. So I will stay. I am sure there is only a few weeks left for us before this existence becomes a living hell. Before she gets infected and dies, or perhaps her body simply gives up. It's a shame... she did so much, so much good for so many people. She was gonna retire this year, y'know? to have more free time for charity. Such a shame.
Yeah, I wish I lived on a farm now.