Psychotic depression?

[ShatteredSoul]

Does anyone here have a diagnosis of psychotic depression? If so would you mind answering some questions?
Does it start with depression and slowly develop in to psychosis?
How long did it take for the psychosis to begin?
We're the depressive symptoms of psychotic depression in any way different to depression alone?
Did you have hallucinations?Either visual/auditory etc.
Did you experience delusions? If so what kind of delusions were they?
Is there anything else I haven't asked that you'd kindly add?
I've been progressively getting worse with my severe depression and some new symptoms are concerning me. I've been referred back to psychiatry so hopefully I can get more answers there but I'd love to be able to speak to any of you suffering similar.
Thank you.

 

[chiaseedd]

For me it's depression, then when the depression is at its worst, I start to get psychotic symptoms.

Depression turns into severely crying over and over, can't eat, can't sleep (vs before where I just have some standard depression symptoms like loss of interest and decreased motivation).

Yes. People speaking to me who aren't there. Demons in my room.

Delusion that I am chosen by god.

Don't be scared my friend. It's scary. I'm scared. But it will be ok. It always is.

 

[ShatteredSoul]

For me it's depression, then when the depression is at its worst, I start to get psychotic symptoms.

Depression turns into severely crying over and over, can't eat, can't sleep (vs before where I just have some standard depression symptoms like loss of interest and decreased motivation).

Yes. People speaking to me who aren't there. Demons in my room.

Delusion that I am chosen by god.

Don't be scared my friend. It's scary. I'm scared. But it will be ok. It always is.

Thank you for your reply.
Do you have delusions? Especially paranoid ones? I've been convinced other have been talking about me, that my neighbours hate me even though they've been nice to me, thinking everyone is having bad thoughts about me.
Also on and off voices but nothing severe.
I can barely leave the house due to the paranoia about what others are thinking. It's slowly getting worse and worse.
If I hear a bang coming from next door I get angry because I think it's aimed at me. It's getting ridiculous. I can barely do anything due to the lack of motivation.

 

[tinyghost]

i dont have psychotic depression specifically but i do have schizoaffective which psychotic depression its a subtype of i believe. i have the bipolar kind instead of the depression kind, but it comes with depression. with schizoaffective you have psychosis all the time (its having schizophrenia + a mood disorder such as bipolar or delusional), but during an episode the psychosis gets worse. for me i hear and see things much more and get delusional thoughts and basically start to shut down. i dont feel any joy or hope at all. i have zero motivation and i just want to it all to end. typical depression lol. my most common delusion is that if i kill myself i will return to my home plant that i was abducted from by aliens when i was 7 years old. for me i tend to have more manic or mixed episodes and then have severe depression but without too much psychosis because my antipsychotics make me very lethargic and depressed.

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

Hey, I've been diagnosed a few years ago. Relapses mostly begin with worsening self hatred and thats where delusions come from. Therefore, I would say that psychotic depression episode begins with both depressive and psychotic symptoms.

At first they diagnosed me with depression. When I get only depressive symptoms, they are not nearly as bad as with the psychotic one. They're mild, you could even say. Lethargy, insomnia and anhedonia are worse with simple depression. With psychotic one, self hatred, delusions and paranoia make things barely fine. That's mostly how they differ in my case.

I have auditory hallucinations whenever shit hits the fan, they got really bad only a few times during my lifetime. During the best days of so called relapse these voices just fuel my self hatred with unstoppable "lazy waste of space unworthy of love & of life" shit that they repeat nonstop. During bad days I can be found sitting on my bed with unseeing eyes speaking to myself out loud agreeing that I should quit it all. Once I agreed not only with words, but also with my actions. I barely remember what I was doing, only that "I must". Like a drugged or hypnotised person.

Delusions are mostly related to what the voices say. I also believe that I'm hated by everyone, that I'll make everyone happy by ctb, that I should suffer (I don't deserve a quick ending). Of course, I get too paranoid around my family, friends and psychiatric circles way too much during these times (they wanna hurt me, they wanna take me away, i will be rotting in a mental institution if i say anything related to how i feel), this doesn't make it any better.

 

[asian.neet]

Psych ward doctors diagnosed me with psychotic depression. I dont go into psychosis or see or hear anything. I just get violent sometimes especially lately because my life sucks, apparently that's grounds for being diagnosed with psychotic depression.

 

[tinyghost]

Psych ward doctors diagnosed me with psychotic depression. I dont go into psychosis or see or hear anything. I just get violent sometimes especially lately because my life sucks, apparently that's grounds for being diagnosed with psychotic depression.

psych ward drs will throw a psychosis diagnosis on everyone. they barely have enough time to even know your symptoms less enough to diagnose. they just see us all in there as crazy psychos

 

[ShatteredSoul]

i dont have psychotic depression specifically but i do have schizoaffective which psychotic depression its a subtype of i believe. i have the bipolar kind instead of the depression kind, but it comes with depression. with schizoaffective you have psychosis all the time (its having schizophrenia + a mood disorder such as bipolar or delusional), but during an episode the psychosis gets worse. for me i hear and see things much more and get delusional thoughts and basically start to shut down. i dont feel any joy or hope at all. i have zero motivation and i just want to it all to end. typical depression lol. my most common delusion is that if i kill myself i will return to my home plant that i was abducted from by aliens when i was 7 years old. for me i tend to have more manic or mixed episodes and then have severe depression but without too much psychosis because my antipsychotics make me very lethargic and depressed.

I'm really sorry. I know how severely ill those with schizoeffective disorder get as my brother has it! I think it's one of the worst mental illnesses you can have. I really feel for you!

Hey, I've been diagnosed a few years ago. Relapses mostly begin with worsening self hatred and thats where delusions come from. Therefore, I would say that psychotic depression episode begins with both depressive and psychotic symptoms.

At first they diagnosed me with depression. When I get only depressive symptoms, they are not nearly as bad as with the psychotic one. They're mild, you could even say. Lethargy, insomnia and anhedonia are worse with simple depression. With psychotic one, self hatred, delusions and paranoia make things barely fine. That's mostly how they differ in my case.

I have auditory hallucinations whenever shit hits the fan, they got really bad only a few times during my lifetime. During the best days of so called relapse these voices just fuel my self hatred with unstoppable "lazy waste of space unworthy of love & of life" shit that they repeat nonstop. During bad days I can be found sitting on my bed with unseeing eyes speaking to myself out loud agreeing that I should quit it all. Once I agreed not only with words, but also with my actions. I barely remember what I was doing, only that "I must". Like a drugged or hypnotised person.

Delusions are mostly related to what the voices say. I also believe that I'm hated by everyone, that I'll make everyone happy by ctb, that I should suffer (I don't deserve a quick ending). Of course, I get too paranoid around my family, friends and psychiatric circles way too much during these times (they wanna hurt me, they wanna take me away, i will be rotting in a mental institution if i say anything related to how i feel), this doesn't make it any better.

This made me tear up as I can relate to a lot of that, the voices I get are very rare fortunately but I'm scared they'll get more frequent. I've never felt so much self hate,paranoia,low self esteem and low motivation as I do now. I'm scared to speak to the psychiatrist I've been referred back to, I'm worried they'll judge and hate me before I even enter the room.
I hate this existence. Ssri anti depressants aren't doing anything for me now and I don't know what kind of medication I need instead?
I'm so sorry you're suffering so badly with all this.