I keep wondering why it's illegal. If someone doesn't want to be on earth anymore why should they continue to suffer? Apparently according to that article the government, and church restricts that decision. But they don't help you anyway? They don't care about people suffering, they just make rules, and you are forced to follow them.
We all can't afford to fly out to Switzerland. They'd rather people die in pain, than allowing them to have a peaceful death. I'm not crazy, I know what I want. What those government/church people need to know is, if someone wants to die, nothing will change that. You can lock people up, and claim they are mentally ill, but it won't change how they feel on the inside.
I keep saying to myself, keep strong, go forward, KEEP MOVING... and then suddenly it all goes downhill and I can't go on. I'm not happy, and never will be. If I weren't here anymore, I think it'd all go away. I'm serious...
I don't know what I am doing anymore. Everything around me is upsetting, I learned I'll NEVER learn from my mistakes. I'll always be that envious outcast in the background. Envy runs in my blood, always has, always will.
I think I'm also starting to suffer from paranoia. Due to certain circumstances, can't people let others REST, specially in their own homes. Too much antisocial behavior as of 2017. And no, it's not just ONE person, it's more than one. Even if you go out, someone's bound to make your day crappy. Then someone brightened up my day, but NEVER truly understood what I'm going through.
She was like KEEP STRONG, KEEP GOING FORWARD, STAY STRONG. Her words had an affect on me, then later brushed off, because I realized, said person doesn't understand what I am going through. It doesn't matter where I go, or where I am in time, it's always the same. I'll never change as a person, I've tried, it doesn't work. I've tried to settle down but no... it seems nothing about me will ever settle and I'm living a LIE. I hate living a lie. I'll never be that bright shining star, I dreamed of being. And I'll continue to be scum on the bottom of someone's shoe. Everyone has thrown me in the garbage pail, and I don't blame them.
I know what I want, but it's so hard to obtain. I've wanted this "on and off" for years. But as of late 2017, I made up my mind, but it's really hard to achieve. So in order to get what I want... I've got to "maim" myself?
I'm not a subscriber (for the same reasons you're not) and don't usually read the NYT. I just found the article when googling "rational suicide", skimmed the shitty article and went straight to the "comments". They were so great! Until taken down by the NYT assholes.........
NYT what's that?
