Discussion Psychedelics and drugs- share your experience

[Yomyom]

Please Describe what has led you to try Psychedelics/other drugs, and what was the amount you took (if you still remember)

If you tried DMT please describe specifically what you saw and felt

If you tried mushrooms describe how the journey was and if the mushrooms gave you any advices

If you tried ketamine- did you remember anything? How it's felt to be disconnected


For years I wanted to try drugs, especially mushrooms, I wanted to meet god, and ask him for miracle, but it didn't worked as I planned....

when I got 18 I tried for the first time weed, with a friend (we smoked it) and nothing really happened, I was so disappointed, couple of months later I bought a vaporizer and in the one night I enter the weed into the vaporizer and took a couple of full big inhale, and lay down on the bed, I watched comedy show and suddenly I started noticed that my Awareness comes and goes (I don't know exactly how to explain it) I was so scared, so freaked out I started jumping on the floor just to kept my Awareness, it was so traumatic, in the end I gave up on trying keep my awareness and went to sleep.

After some time I wanted to try again, I thought that maybe if I just give up to the feeling and let the awareness go the experience will be amazing.
It wasn't amazing, but when I tried it again it was fine, same feeling but with out the freak out.

After that i tried it again couple of times, for me it wasn't really worth trying it, and its only got my Derealization worse
maybe it just me but I don't understand why people want to smoke that crup and it taste worse than nembutal (my assumption)


After the weed I wanted to try Psychedelic drugs, so I bought DMT, changa and mushrooms.
I wanted to try the mushrooms but the effects going too long, so I took DMT 10 minutes and it's over.
I bought 0.5 gram, but I don't remember how much I put in my vaporizer I think around 0.2 gram.
I took half big inhale and I felt that my throat are clutching, it was like I in a Roller Coaster, that moment was the scariest in my life, I was so afraid to lose my reality, to lose my personality, so I turned off the vaporizer drank a lot of tea and water and all the effects stopped
At no point were there hallucinations or illuminations!

After that bad experience I threw out to the Garbage all my drugs (mushrooms changa and the DMT)


I thought about trying legal drugs because my sleeping problems
I bought wild dagga, blue lotus, canna and lucid dream tea. ‏
the blue lotus and the lucid dream tea was in some point very helpful for a short time. ‏couple of weeks ago I mixed up all this drugs and put out some weed (don't remember the amount), I felt so Light fluent
And I was so scared because I have a huge height fear, I held so much in my mattress because I was sure I was dropping from a plane

my last try was diazepam 5 mg, took it to fall asleep, and for one day all my problems Gone, my sleep was fine but nothing more, my Derealization got worse and my breath got slower (probably because my sleep apnea).
After two days that I stopped using it I felt so worthless

My only conclusion from those experiences is that if you're not a stable person your experience will be one big shit

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I don't dare to try psychodelics because I am too anxious and will definitely would be a bad trip.
Especially now with all that depression and suicidal attempts.
I recently started to smoke a little bit of weed again, I feel very different than before, there's is practically no lift in the mood, only feeling of high.
I would like to try MDMA but I don't have the right person for this. And maybe cocaine.
What was your experience with dagga, blue lotus, canna and lucid dream tea. How did they help?

 

[Yomyom]

I don't dare to try psychodelics because I am too anxious and will definitely would be a bad trip.
Especially now with all that depression and suicidal attempts.
I recently started to smoke a little bit of weed again, I feel very different than before, there's is practically no lift in the mood, only feeling of high.
I would like to try MDMA but I don't have the right person for this. And maybe cocaine.
What was your experience with dagga, blue lotus, canna and lucid dream tea. How did they help?

I put one A spoon from the lucid dream tea and A quarter teaspoon of blue lotus,
The taste was fine (I assume because of the mint).
If you like feel Floated, you will love it
Here is the Component of the lucid dream tea


It's mostly for sleep, I could feel my Eyes and my sleep was fine, it was very useful for my sleep apnea but I don't like The intoxication it brings

Wild dagga should be similar to weed, but with less effects, it's legal here it was nice nothing really more

Canna is come in powder form, I put it with a tea (half a spoon) and it was kind of relaxing

I think weed is Psychedelic Admission Test, if you feel nice with it you can try slowly to enter,
I think the easiest Psychedelic is LSD, in very low dose

I do thought to try MDMA or 2cb it's sound very nice thing, but I gave up on trying new drugs

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I put one A spoon from the lucid dream tea and A quarter teaspoon of blue lotus,
The taste was fine (I assume because of the mint).
If you like feel Floated, you will love it
Here is the Component of the lucid dream tea
View attachment 31850

It's mostly for sleep, I could feel my Eyes and my sleep was fine, it was very useful for my sleep apnea but I don't like The intoxication it brings

Wild dagga should be similar to weed, but with less effects, it's legal here it was nice nothing really more

Canna is come in powder form, I put it with a tea (half a spoon) and it was kind of relaxing

I think weed is Psychedelic Admission Test, if you feel nice with it you can try slowly to enter,
I think the easiest Psychedelic is LSD, in very low dose

I do thought to try MDMA or 2cb it's sound very nice thing, but I gave up on trying new drugs

Thank you, very interesting
I doubt drugs can help, just looking for temporary relief. I want to feel good again even for a short time

 

[lotus11]

I took all sorts when I was younger coke, MDMA, ecstasy,MCAT, opium, ketamine. Most of the time I loved being on drugs, I didn't have many bad experiences. Luckily I was quite young so I got out of the 'phase' of taking drugs all the time. Now even though I have taken a lot of things in the past I am these days very very cautious of them as I know how powerful they are. They can take you to heaven or hell. You mention ketamine specifically in your question, honestly, for me, this was always a very very addictive drug, you really are disconnected, the world is the same but somehow different. like time and space are not relevant or something like that...idk, it been a long time since I took it.

 

[Yomyom]

I took all sorts when I was younger coke, MDMA, ecstasy,MCAT, opium, ketamine. Most of the time I loved being on drugs, I didn't have many bad experiences. Luckily I was quite young so I got out of the 'phase' of taking drugs all the time. Now even though I have taken a lot of things in the past I am these days very very cautious of them as I know how powerful they are. They can take you to heaven or hell. You mention ketamine specifically in your question, honestly, for me, this was always a very very addictive drug, you really are disconnected, the world is the same but somehow different. like time and space are not relevant or something like that...idk, it been a long time since I took it.

Thanks for your sharing, that's a lot of drugs to try, I hope that most of your experiences was good
Would you say the ketamine is similar to Derealization?

Derealization - Wikipedia

en.m.wikipedia.org

 

[oneess]

I took almost every drug that I could get my hands on, I'm pretty much the average Poly-addict.

The journey started with weed when I was 16 because my codependent and abusive gf of the time made me, really liked it because it made the world less boring and dark, I don't want to say that weed is a gateway drug because weed has wonderful medical benefits, but for people with extreme addictive tendencies it can be, and that's what it was for me. Life was shit, and my relationship with that girl made my life even worse(she was really obsessed, and I was too), so it wasn't long until I started abusing kpins as well, then alcohol, percs, almost every downer there is, every benzo and every opioid (except H). I'm still struggling right now with addiction, last relapse I had was surprisingly with weed nonetheless, I could function with K2(called nice guy in my country) but weed is just making me the laziest and most depressed more than every downer I took. I'm clean from weed and opioids right now for 63 days, but have relapsed on benzos. As an addict I took psychedelics like an addict too, even tho psychedelics are not something I of others feel that you can be addicted too. LSD was bad for me, just made me anxious. don't remember much from my DMT trips. MDMA was the bomb, I'm happy I didn't do too much of it because it's probably my poison of choice, it was so good, but the depression that comes after a roll just isn't worth it.. I had experiences with DPH and promethazine (deliriant as high dose) as well, wouldn't recommend at all, not even if someone is really curious, the thing you experience and see on those kind of substances are unspeakable. I think that's pretty much sums it up, I think haha

 

[lotus11]

I mean...sort of. Its not so much like you are hallucinating, more like you see everything the same but somehow something will be different about it, distorted in some way, yes sure, like bigger or smaller or strange looking, definitely. But your not gonna suddenly see a dragon breathing fire or something. It's hard to explain WHAT exactly is different, as i said before, its like time as space are no longer relevant. When you take a very high dose you can go into a K hole which is kind of like a trip inside your head and often a negative thing. Personally most of the times i tried ket i loved it, although it is definitely a love it or hate it drug. If you are going to get hold of some I highly recommend getting it from a good source. These days there are many fake versions of ket, which are, on paper, a very similar experience to ketamine, however, they dont exactly take you to 'ket world' something about the experience feels fake. But tbh the only reason I could tell was because I took the real thing so many times, if not I wouldn't know it

 

[Yomyom]

I took almost every drug that I could get my hands on, I'm pretty much the average Poly-addict.

The journey started with weed when I was 16 because my codependent and abusive gf of the time made me, really liked it because it made the world less boring and dark, I don't want to say that weed is a gateway drug because weed has wonderful medical benefits, but for people with extreme addictive tendencies it can be, and that's what it was for me. Life was shit, and my relationship with that girl made my life even worse(she was really obsessed, and I was too), so it wasn't long until I started abusing kpins as well, then alcohol, percs, almost every downer there is, every benzo and every opioid (except H). I'm still struggling right now with addiction, last relapse I had was surprisingly with weed nonetheless, I could function with K2(called nice guy in my country) but weed is just making me the laziest and most depressed more than every downer I took. I'm clean from weed and opioids right now for 63 days, but have relapsed on benzos. As an addict I took psychedelics like an addict too, even tho psychedelics are not something I of others feel that you can be addicted too. LSD was bad for me, just made me anxious. don't remember much from my DMT trips. MDMA was the bomb, I'm happy I didn't do too much of it because it's probably my poison of choice, it was so good, but the depression that comes after a roll just isn't worth it.. I had experiences with DPH and promethazine (deliriant as high dose) as well, wouldn't recommend at all, not even if someone is really curious, the thing you experience and see on those kind of substances are unspeakable. I think that's pretty much sums it up, I think haha

Thanks for the share
Do you think that methadone or weed can help you in the addition to the drugs?

Your LSD experience was in Cartons or drops?, I think that most of the LSD in the country is mixed up and barley have LSD

I mean...sort of. Its not so much like you are hallucinating, more like you see everything the same but somehow something will be different about it, distorted in some way, yes sure, like bigger or smaller or strange looking, definitely. But your not gonna suddenly see a dragon breathing fire or something. It's hard to explain WHAT exactly is different, as i said before, its like time as space are no longer relevant. When you take a very high dose you can go into a K hole which is kind of like a trip inside your head and often a negative thing. Personally most of the times i tried ket i loved it, although it is definitely a love it or hate it drug. If you are going to get hold of some I highly recommend getting it from a good source. These days there are many fake versions of ket, which are, on paper, a very similar experience to ketamine, however, they dont exactly take you to 'ket world' something about the experience feels fake. But tbh the only reason I could tell was because I took the real thing so many times, if not I wouldn't know it

I don't think you understood me, in Derealization there is no hallucination at all, you just disconnected from the reality and see things very differently, you stop understanding who you are and what you see and hear.
According your Description ketamine is very similar to my Derealization

 

[oneess]

Thanks for the share
Do you think that methadone or weed can help you in the addition to the drugs?

Your LSD experience was in Cartons or drops?, I think that most of the LSD in the country is mixed up and barley have LSD

Methadone is a no, it's given to people with opioid withdrawal syndrome, I'm right now beyond the withdrawal symptoms and the tapering down from it is not simple because it's a synthetic opioid.

Weed is just bad for me, I don't have enough money for it and it makes me impulsive, most of the time I relapsed on some of the "harder" drugs is was when I was high on weed. You probably know it's cost effective in our country as well, and I'm receiving a disability aid and not working currently so I can't really buy enough that would last me for balancing my depression.

I tried both cartons on drops, but I think I always got 1P-LSD which is common in my area, it's a research chemical and not on the mimicks real LSD(so I heard)

NA is what helped my sobriety and addiction in the last year, but because of the covid19 situation we had to move to zoom meetings, and it's really not the same thing. NA helped not only my addiction problem but my life problem as a whole, so I was less depressed and suicidal, I had company and never was alone, it's really different and difficult these days :(

 

[Yomyom]

Methadone is a no, it's given to people with opioid withdrawal syndrome, I'm right now beyond the withdrawal symptoms and the tapering down from it is not simple because it's a synthetic opioid.

Weed is just bad for me, I don't have enough money for it and it makes me impulsive, most of the time I relapsed on some of the "harder" drugs is was when I was high on weed. You probably know it's cost effective in our country as well, and I'm receiving a disability aid and not working currently so I can't really buy enough that would last me for balancing my depression.

I tried both cartons on drops, but I think I always got 1P-LSD which is common in my area, it's a research chemical and not on the mimicks real LSD(so I heard)

NA is what helped my sobriety and addiction in the last year, but because of the covid19 situation we had to move to zoom meetings, and it's really not the same thing. NA helped not only my addiction problem but my life problem as a whole, so I was less depressed and suicidal, I had company and never was alone, it's really different and difficult these days :(

That's really sucks, I hope you'll Get Well, אני די גרוע בביטויים באנגלית- תרגיש טוב! אם אתה רוצה לדבר אני בדרך כלל 24/7 כאן

 

[Soul]

I had a very good relationship with LSD when I was a student. It started recreationally but became an educational endeavor that I treated very carefully. I wasn't always sure what I was taking (I'm sure both mescaline and strychnine were involved at times) but psychedelics were generally decent in those days. I had a few anxious trips, but only a few, and they were my fault, not the drugs'.

I'd like to try microdosing but have no access. Maybe someday.

 

[oneess]

That's really sucks, I hope you'll Get Well, אני די גרוע בביטויים באנגלית- תרגיש טוב! אם אתה רוצה לדבר אני בדרך כלל 24/7 כאן

Many thanks, וזה הדדי, אני זמין גם רוב היום :)

 

[Yomyom]

I had a very good relationship with LSD when I was a student. It started recreationally but became an educational endeavor that I treated very carefully. I wasn't always sure what I was taking (I'm sure both mescaline and strychnine were involved at times) but psychedelics were generally decent in those days. I had a few anxious trips, but only a few, and they were my fault, not the drugs'.

I'd like to try microdosing but have no access. Maybe someday.

Did you have a journey in your trips? I guess it's more to mushrooms but still.

I looked everywhere for mescaline in my country (more in form of Peyote) but I couldn't find it anywhere
I wanted my journey will be like this


They made it sound so wonderful

 

[terry_a_davis]

Op ive only tried weed and benzo's from your list. Weed didn't do anything really, i tried it a few times and was disappointed. Benzo's i liked, addictive, obviously relaxing. Not tried shrooms or dmt. Have taken lsd twice and the second trip was horrific. I've tried various stimulants which are useful for being productive but can lead to problems. Mdma i adored but i overdid it and damaged myself. I agree some drugs, especially the psychedelics, might be a bit risky for those with a current or latent mental health problem

 

[Squiddy]

I tried 1P-LSD, but my meds counteracted the effects so I experienced nothing. I want to try again, but will have to be off all my meds which I'm not ready for yet. Only other drug I've tried is weed which is great.

 

[Soul]

Did you have a journey in your trips? I guess it's more to mushrooms but still.

Nope, no journeys per se - there were times when I was elsewhere, though: all my senses blending together, experiencing things that had very little to do with my physical environment, an "instant Zen" state. I learned a lot from it.

 

[Yomyom]

I forgot to add one-
Hawaiian Baby Woodrose Madagascar
Tried them two times in 2018
It's totally legal in my country, I ordered from a website in my country, after couple of days I went to the post office in my city, paid for the package and took it home

The taste of the seeds its terrible, and its stuck in the throat, so you feel this taste for hours, up until now I can remember how Not tasty and bitter it was.

In The first experience- I felt so light, and back than it was so nice, I felt so okay with myself, like there is a Solution to every problem, and just felt fine (it's very rare)

On the second experience- it was about a week after the first one.
Like the first time the taste was just Horrible, in the beginning I felt so light, so fun.
Couple of hours later I started to feel so crap with myself, so lonely, so afraid, a man that suicide its is only option
The feeling was so strong

After that I threw in the trash the remain seeds
This is how it's look-

 

[Oyoy]

I've done everything except shoot anything. K was the most psychodelic experience. When I looked at myself I saw a very emasheated woman. I hear k ruins men's weiner. X and shrooms were a complete body high. I puked on x.

 

[Yomyom]

I've done everything except shoot anything. K was the most psychodelic experience. When I looked at myself I saw a very emasheated woman. I hear k ruins men's weiner. X and shrooms were a complete body high. I puked on x.

Did you get some advices from the mushrooms? There was a journey?

 

[Oyoy]

I used drugs to escape pain. My brain wasn't developed enough. It was a very phisysical experience. Using drugs out of self hatred isn't very enlightening.

 

[Nuclear Gandhi]

I have tried psychedelics (LSD and shrooms specifically) and I think they are great tools for self-reflection when used in right headspace. Both LSD and psilocybin affect serotoninergic neurons as opposed to many other drugs, that are affecting dopamine levels. This makes the experience not just a pleasant high, but an actual possibility to connect with some unconscious parts of you.
If I could sum up all my trips without giving any specifics, I would describe it as feeling of unity with Universe. In my everyday day sober life I usually draw a line between my inner world ande outside world. During trip I was able to see myself as part of life, with all my faults and issues. It's an enlightening experience.
There is, of course, other side of coin. As any drugs, the experience they are giving is only temporary. Your perspective of reality can be shifted, but you still have to make changes yourself. Also very important to use psychedelics in right place, right time and right mindset - otherwise they could be damaging.

 

[Yomyom]

I have tried psychedelics (LSD and shrooms specifically) and I think they are great tools for self-reflection when used in right headspace. Both LSD and psilocybin affect serotoninergic neurons as opposed to many other drugs, that are affecting dopamine levels. This makes the experience not just a pleasant high, but an actual possibility to connect with some unconscious parts of you.
If I could sum up all my trips without giving any specifics, I would describe it as feeling of unity with Universe. In my everyday day sober life I usually draw a line between my inner world ande outside world. During trip I was able to see myself as part of life, with all my faults and issues. It's an enlightening experience.
There is, of course, other side of coin. As any drugs, the experience they are giving is only temporary. Your perspective of reality can be shifted, but you still have to make changes yourself. Also very important to use psychedelics in right place, right time and right mindset - otherwise they could be damaging.

Did you had a journey or a teaching moments on the mushrooms?

 

[Nuclear Gandhi]

Did you had a journey or a teaching moments on the mushrooms?

Yes, a lot of introspection. Shrooms were my first psychedelic experience and I remember after two grams completely loosing control over my physical body. Yet my consciousness was clear. Many thoughts went through my head, memories, abstract situations. It was always a problem for me to identify myself with body, but this experience made me realize that there is no truth in identifying myself as my thinking either. I started observing my thoughts and my physical reactions. I became an Observer and it brought me peace.
My ego was crushed and it was painful. The hardest thing is to let go at moments like that, otherwise it's easy to succumb to bad trip. It was my second lesson - importance of letting go, no matter how painful it is.
I am socially anxious person, I love overthinking and analysing other people reaction to me, which makes me paranoid. During the trip I realized that there not much point in this and a lot of my fears are projections. Other person is an entirely different world, it's naive to think you can predict opinions that they can form and affect them. I felt liberated, like I could finally be honest about who I am and not be afraid.
Sorry if it's so messy, it's hard to explain experiences like that and it happened long time ago. I have read about your trips and I am sorry you went through a bad one. Bad trips can be crushing.

 

[SpareWheel]

Had LSD about ten times as a teen, 9 of them were the usually trippy type experiences, hallucinations, lots of laughing etc. The 10th one was a killer though, and I never took one again after it and I've avoided all hallucinogens since. It's also the same time I stopped smoking weed, cos it'd bring flashbacks of the bad trip.

 

[Yomyom]

I really want to try again with Psychedelic, but I don't have the courage to go through out all of this again.
If I was a little more stable person I was do so many Psychedelic (but mostly mushrooms)

 

[HelensNepenthe]

My first trip was earlier this year with psilocybin. I had no expectations going into my trip besides all the negative comments how mushrooms may make you feel when you ingest them. Overall my experience with shrooms was okay. It certainly was not bad. I was amazed that some of the effects I had with psilocybin were HD vision, colors that were overly vibrant, and the sense to feel each individual particle of something. An example is eating M&M's and noticing the amount of chocolate in your mouth. it's almost that you could count each crumb that swirled across your tongue while chewing.

I am not surprised the amount of startups in the bay area looking at microdosing with LSD or psilocybin to get work done. There are a lot of advantanges, perhaps as equal disadvantages too. While tripping I had an interest in understanding. I could easily study something and understand the intricacies in the material if my headspace were right. The attention to detail amazes me.

 

[NightmareTour]

Personally, not a massive fan of psychedelics. For some reason I'm particularly sensitive to the psychedelic properties of weed. Used to be fine with it, but I can't seem to keep a positive mindset on it recently, so I just end up being paranoid and anxious. Any effect it has on my perception of reality is usually small things like seeing people's mouths moving when they're not talking, or moving figures at the edges of my vision. The main effect is mental, I usually go very inward with my thought and am prone to thought loops, however I rarely remember any deep realizations I have or anything. Don't know how to explain a thought loop to someone who hasn't experienced it, but they are terrifying.

I've tried acid a handful of time. First time I noticeably tripped was unintentionally on an ecstasy pill (or two, can't remember how much I took) containing high amounts of acid, just got some patterns on things, a few distortions of reality like a curtain rail looking 2D, and every time I closed my eyes, it felt like I was in a totally different environment.

As for full on acid trips, I've had two. First one, I was tripping with a bunch of other people, most of which were pretty experienced. The main thing of this was just patterns. Patterns everywhere. Every surface I looked at, mostly geometric but some fractals and some more abstract. It was incredibly overwhelming, and at points people had to "pull me in" to their trips to give me a break. I wasn't able to do much self exploration because of the environment, but one thing I do remember is that at one point when I let my mind wander, I felt this deep, crushing terror coming from some corner of my consciousness, and it was trying to pull me in. I had to actually leave the room I was in to escape it because I definitely DID NOT want to explore it. Later on in the night I could see unique patterns embossed onto people I was with's skin.

Second time, I "sober tripped" myself (basically, a trip where you convince yourself that you're not tripping), as did everyone I was with. My ex got pissed off about it and stormed out to go huff deodorant, me and my remaining friends tried to kick our trips off with lights and music. I ended up spending a long time locked in the bathroom, deep in thought. During that time I started seeing fractals creeping out across the floor from the door, except they were just kind of, off. Like, one arm branching off wouldn't be symmetrical. Later ended up laying on the floor in the hallway, and the design on the carpet looked like it was raised out of it. Long story short, ended up having a "realization" that my brain's innate need for order and patterns is rooted in my need to believe that life and the universe have some kind of order to them, and that things will work out in the end, and that the fact that I'm feeling more and more need for it in my actual life is my brain's way of clinging to the very last scraps of that, because it's pretty much the only thing keeping me from being completely, without a doubt suicidal. When I expressed this, my ex went on a massive lecture to us all about how life clearly did have meaning, because we had all gotten to the point where we should have died or crossed the point of no return in some way, but had been pulled away from it at the last second.

As someone who has been clinically dead 3 times, one of which I was gone longer than I should have been able to come back from without far more serious damage, and has survived attempts on my own life just by pure chance on 3 separate occasions, one of which was so insanely unlikely that I still can't understand how it happened, I'm still very conflicted on the two sides of that argument.


Other drugs have less interesting stories. MDMA makes you feel incredibly happy, makes you want to talk to people and feel close to them, and makes everything from cuddling to sex feel absolutely amazing. Basically, everything just feels better for a while. Overdosing on it, however, is truly awful.

If you're the kind of person who would just try cocaine, you probably shouldn't try cocaine. It gives you a massive hit of energy, you feel like you're on top of the world, and you can do anything. But only for a short while, maybe 20 minutes at most. Then you want more. You always want more, and it gets worse the more you take it. Oh, and the more you take it, the less it does, so you need more at once. I manage to limit myself to weekends only, but I'm not going to lie to myself, I'm an addict.