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i am so lainpilled :3 (? days left)
- Apr 15, 2023
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If I were to be put in a psych ward again, I swear I'd actually go insane and suddenly become incapable of feeling anything other than wanting to die. Like I would literally turn into a robot programmed to terminate itself. The public mental health system is genuinely so dehumanising and humiliating. You ever have to be wheeled to the mental health unit despite being fully capable of bipedal locomotion (aka bloody walking)? Or what about having two cops grab your arms forcefully and make you sit in the back of a chilly paddy wagon as you await transportation to a crappy psych ward? Best part is being stuck in a fairly crowded co-ed, adult ward as a teenager and constantly feeling afraid for your safety (and also not being able to sleep all that well). To me, psych wards are the scariest places imaginable because what's stopping a staff member from abusing you and then attributing your claims to "delusions" because who's everyone gonna believe: the well-respected nurse or the mentally unstable psych ward patient? Fuck these places honestly. Bad enough for me but can't even how much worse it is for people in their 30s or 40s with families and careers to have to go through the system being treated like a mischievious 5-year-old or something. Going numb and dissociating from reality would genuinely be the only way I could survive through any of that. Plus being threatened with restraints or solitary confinement over something little is just so insanely fucked and also incredibly traumatising.