Discussion Professionally incompetant

[Fadeawaaaay]

I have only really recently completely realized how professionally incompetent I am.
Other people work so much harder and what they create is so much better quality. I have been fooling myself for decades that the right opportunity would arise and everything would work out. But I suddenly woke up and realized I've completely screwed myself.
I've had a bad attitude going back to high school where I seemed to think the world was there for my amusement. If I was bad at some subjects like math… screw it I don't need to learn it. If something was difficult, I simply quit.
I thought I had some destiny for achievement going to happen to me one way or another. I would find my passion and then everything would be effortless.
Every time I failed at something I would rationalize away the situation figuring it didn't really matter. I never took life seriously enough. But it's dead serious. It's a matter of life and death quite literally.
Even now just laying on my couch all day doing nothing, I somehow believe it's all gonna work out. I'm not facing the fact that I'm going to end up a homeless person on the street unless I get my shit together. But I wouldn't even know how to get my shit together at this point. I've never gone out "looking for a job." I'm just living off savings. I'm not even really depressed or mentally ill. I'm just stupid. Sorry for wasting everybodys time with this venting. But I'm all alone and I have no one to talk to.

 

[GentleJerk]

The society is very badly designed, the so called 'civilisation' is inherently selfish, flawed and corrupted by the financial mafias and ruling classes, so it plays like a game of musical chairs. There's not enough for everyone due to deliberate scarcity and tight controls, and when the music stops, someone is always left out. People are expected to constantly perform and compete in order to survive, perpetually in debt and forced to work often menial nd pointless jobs just to eat and afford a roof over one's head.

TVP and the proposal of a Resource Based Economy would work in favour of a system that is truly fair and equitable, a high standard of living and abundance for all. Once all our basic needs are met free of cost, and we no longer need to spend all of our time earning a wage, we can finally all go forward and achieve great things without artificial constraints.

People aren't taught things like taxes and the way money works in school, and are often trying to create memories and enjoy a childhood- so they are often unprepared when the system spits them out into the real world. Especially the poorer ones who cant be supported by their family and bailed out if things become difficult.

9 out of 10 people in the world struggle to survive and live in abject poverty. Even smart people.

I hope you can enjoy your life free of worries and things go the right way for you. In our day and age a person shouldn't have to be smart to not be homeless and starving!

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

I'm in a somewhat similar situation and wish I had some good advice, but struggling to find direction myself. The difference would be it sounds like you are on the younger end compared to me as I have spent about 30 years as a wage slave for a small company that was recently dissolved after the owner died and his wife inherited it. Faced with the prospect of starting over at 50+ with no on paper skills pretty much just leaves me wanting to just find a peaceful way to end it. My cat compels me to try to soldier on so that I may at least continue to take care of her.

You do not seem stupid to me and even though you haven't found a direction or passion yet, it doesn't mean there isn't still time. Please don't discount yourself just because you didn't excel academically. There is more value to a life than grades or the profit that can be extracted from it. I hope you can find something that works for you and brings you some enjoyment. I suspect my words may seem a little strange considering the nature of this forum and I will always support a persons right to choose, but I would hope one would exhaust all their options before settling on that choice.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm in a somewhat similar situation and wish I had some good advice, but struggling to find direction myself. The difference would be it sounds like you are on the younger end compared to me as I have spent about 30 years as a wage slave for a small company that was recently dissolved after the owner died and his wife inherited it. Faced with the prospect of starting over at 50+ with no on paper skills pretty much just leaves me wanting to just find a peaceful way to end it. My cat compels me to try to soldier on so that I may at least continue to take care of her.

You do not seem stupid to me and even though you haven't found a direction or passion yet, it doesn't mean there isn't still time. Please don't discount yourself just because you didn't excel academically. There is more value to a life than grades or the profit that can be extracted from it. I hope you can find something that works for you and brings you some enjoyment. I suspect my words may seem a little strange considering the nature of this forum and I will always support a persons right to choose, but I would hope one would exhaust all their options before settling on that choice.

Thank you for your kind words… I'm actually 55 and somehow got this far stumbling along before the gas ran out… I'm not exactly stupid… I just was raised with some misplaced priorities… I've always been financially illiterate with a scarcity mentality… Money issues were simply never discussed at all… And I've always been fairly impractical with a pie in the sky mentality… If I had been independently wealthy none of this would've been a problem… I don't blame society… I blame myself for willful ignorance… There's definitely some compensation for childhood trauma… Always trying to stay positive to reduce anxiety… Even now I have my head buried in the sand… Reality is just too much

 

[Smart No More]

Bless you for your honest self analysis.

Do you have any natural talents you can capitalise on. Artistic or analytical skills or anything like that? Maybe do some trading or crypto short selling. Obviously don't risk large amounts of cash or anything you can't afford to lose. Youtube tutorials are your friend. Actually making them is a potential source of semi passive income. I dunno, just thinking of things you could do from your sofa.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Bless you for your honest self analysis.

Do you have any natural talents you can capitalise on. Artistic or analytical skills or anything like that? Maybe do some trading or crypto short selling. Obviously don't risk large amounts of cash or anything you can't afford to lose. Youtube tutorials are your friend. Actually making them is a potential source of semi passive income. I dunno, just thinking of things you could do from your sofa.

I think I'm too afraid to do crypto trading but thanks for the suggestion

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation. This life really can be so stressful and tiring. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are struggling. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.