Venting Procrastination and bad job performance

[middlelord]

I just can't do my job bro. It sucks and i suck at it. Realistically speaking, the job is easy and simple. Yet, I just can't bring myself to do it.

I keep on procrastinating, and getting the job delayed so much. Holy shit. I hope i don't get fired for it.

My supervisor is a super nice person too, yet why the fuck am i scared of em. Or perhaps scared of disappointing em. Or even worse, afraid of being thought of as a fraud.

Each day of going to work makes me passively thinking I should ctb. Each step feels heavy. Each thought feels blurry.

 

[death_by_life]

What would it take for you to be able to do you job? What would it look like if it were going well? I ask because I often have the same problem, and I'm self-employed so I literally created my job and I love it, but I'm often in the position of trying to figure out how to make things better so I can survive. Because you're right: it really can feel like ctb is a better option, if nothing is ever going to change. And when you have nice/understanding people working with you, it can sometimes make it worse because you don't feel like you deserve that understanding, and also that at some point that understanding will go away and so will your job and reputation. So, if that's the inevitable end, it doesn't hurt to think about what it would be like if it were easy, and sometimes that thought experiment can lead to something that makes it easier to deal with. At least for a while.

 

[Electra]

Do you know why you keep procastinating? Are you perfectionistic? I'd say try doing extremely tiny segments of work without expecting to do everything instantly. I'm not sure if that's gonna help, but you can always try and see. I know how difficult it is to get out of procastination.

 

[CapitánBeto]

I just can't do my job bro. It sucks and i suck at it. Realistically speaking, the job is easy and simple. Yet, I just can't bring myself to do it.

I keep on procrastinating, and getting the job delayed so much. Holy shit. I hope i don't get fired for it.

My supervisor is a super nice person too, yet why the fuck am i scared of em. Or perhaps scared of disappointing em. Or even worse, afraid of being thought of as a fraud.

Each day of going to work makes me passively thinking I should ctb. Each step feels heavy. Each thought feels blurry.

I share your pain.
I'm a procrastinator as well.

Is it an option to tell your supervisor about what your going through?
They might be able to help you if they know about your struggles.

I did this at my job and they were quite supportive, actually.
I know this is not the case for everyone and that I was fortunate like that.

I'd suggest you start thinking of what you're going through as an illness or a disability, and be more open about it.
It took me 10+ years to do so, and I've finally started therapy this new year... It helps a whole lot.

Do you know why you keep procastinating? Are you perfectionistic? I'd say try doing extremely tiny segments of work without expecting to do everything instantly. I'm not sure if that's gonna help, but you can always try and see. I know how difficult it is to get out of procastination.

I can relate to this.

I would advice you to organize your work into smaller, more manageable tasks.
Don't think about getting everything done, think about getting the very first thing done.

So you take it step by step.

And if something doesn't come up as expected, you iterate, you try again.
The world is not perfect, neither is your work.

If you are a perfectionist, you'll need to come to terms with this.
I am one myself, and it is a daily struggle.

So, allow yourself to be imperfect and embrace imperfection as an inevitable aspect of life.