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ijustwishtodie
death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
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I hate it. I was okay with rotting in bed and doing absolutely nothing but my family aren't okay with this at all. They want me to be productive and to get a job as well as to stop me from rotting in my room all the time. They don't like seeing me in this way and they want me to "do something with [my] life". My family asked me "what do you want to do in life" and I stayed silent. I want to say to them that I don't want a life at all and that I never wanted a life to begin with but obviously I can't say that to them as they just wouldn't understand. Pretending to be somebody who I'm not is incredibly difficult. I wish I could just say the truth to them and that they'd understand me instantly but they won't. They'll see me as a lunatic when, in actuality, I know that I'm rational in my views.
It's things like this which make me want to stop fantasising about my death and to start in actually obtaining my death as early as possible. I'm not compatible for life and I never wanted to be a human in the first place. Dealing with life is exhausting. Pretending that I want a life is even more exhausting. If only they could understand me, I could tell them the truth. But normies can't comprehend somebody who doesn't want life because, in their view, everybody wants life.
The only people who can actually understand me are on this site which is why I'm venting about it here instead. I'm so frustrated at pretending to be a normie. I'm so frustrated at life itself. I'm so frustrated that I still am alive. I'm just... so frustrated overall
It's things like this which make me want to stop fantasising about my death and to start in actually obtaining my death as early as possible. I'm not compatible for life and I never wanted to be a human in the first place. Dealing with life is exhausting. Pretending that I want a life is even more exhausting. If only they could understand me, I could tell them the truth. But normies can't comprehend somebody who doesn't want life because, in their view, everybody wants life.
The only people who can actually understand me are on this site which is why I'm venting about it here instead. I'm so frustrated at pretending to be a normie. I'm so frustrated at life itself. I'm so frustrated that I still am alive. I'm just... so frustrated overall