Discussion "Preparing the Body"

[Lunaemoth]

Anyone who has at least started planning how they'll CTB..

Have you given any thought to "preparing the body"? Like... how you'll be found, what you want your body to look like when you go? I can't change the fact that I'm overweight and ugly, obviously. But I want to look nice and peaceful when I go, because it will be the last thing I ever do. It's a bit silly to be vain as I'm dying, and if I were rushed or didn't have the chance to look nice, I'd be okay with dying in old sweats, having not showered or anything. But since I have the time, why not?

My method is SN, so I'm aware it will discolor my skin. I'm hoping a 24 hour fast, along with my Primperan and Tagamet, will help me avoid some of the grosser potential side effects, like vomiting and diarrhea.

There are days I don't really care what my body looks like, but I'm also aware my corpse will be the last my family sees of me.

Has anyone else given any thought to "preparing the body"?

 

[Smilla]

I don't think anyone will necessarily have to view your corpse if you don't want them to; I plan on leaving a note to the coroner and my drivers license.

Is "viewing the body" for ID purposes really necessary?

And if your body is viewed at the morgue I am sure there are procedures in place to make it less traumatic for loved ones—they will no doubt clean your corpse of vomit etc.

My plan is to trim nails, bathe, etc.

 

[Lunaemoth]

I don't think anyone will necessarily have to view your corpse if you don't want them to; I plan on leaving a note to the coroner and my drivers license.

Is "viewing the body" for ID purposes really necessary?

No, but I kind of think my family will insist, coz they won't believe it otherwise. I've had so many unsuccessful attempts, and I've made sure they think I've been 'so much better'. If I actually succeed I think they'll be in shock.

Regardless, my corpse is all that will be left until they burn it. Honestly, it's 90% boredom. All I can think about it CTB, and wasting time until then is a chore. Nothing else interests me anymore.

 

[Eden2k]

I shower 6-10 times a day, so I'll do that on my final day.

I'll do everything that I do on a normal day.

Want to wear comfy clothes, so probably a pair of jogging bottoms (sweat pants) and a t-shirt.

Apart from that, again just what I do on a normal day. Oh and leave ID on the table next to me.

 

[Kingkelly]

No, but I kind of think my family will insist, coz they won't believe it otherwise. I've had so many unsuccessful attempts, and I've made sure they think I've been 'so much better'. If I actually succeed I think they'll be in shock.

Regardless, my corpse is all that will be left until they burn it. Honestly, it's 90% boredom. All I can think about it CTB, and wasting time until then is a chore. Nothing else interests me anymore.

I've thought about this too. I hope I can even get it together to shower. I might not be able to its pretty bad for me. But I'll be dead so what does it matter. I'll prob just be in sweats lol

 

[anelakapu]

I just think about how the emt/coroner will pick me up, I know theyll probably cut off the clothes and ill want to be comfortable while catching the bus, so simple comfort clothes- big tshirt and leggings and maybe a snug tanktop rather than a bra so its easier to cut......ive even considered shaving so they dont have to deal with all that o___o if u know what i mean. Other than that, my family does cremation so my appearance doesnt matter.

 

[dyingtodie]

I've been laundryless for 2 months now. Yes, 60 days ago I reached a point where I said, enough is enough, this stink can not go on, I must wash my clothes, blanket, everything, about 7 loads to clean it all up. But, then I'd think, well I'm probably going to be dead tomorrow, or at most in a week, so why the hell would I go through all the hassle of laundry? Sure it's fun and easy to do if you have a washer, and has always helped my depression in that it's an important and easy thing to accomplish, but without one, and with electrical and chemical sensitivity, I'm not stepping foot in a laundromat. So, I'm embarassingly stinky, my blankets have mold, I've been drying myself with a t-shirt, that was dirty before I started using it to dry myself. It's been a vicious cycle, where I'm too depressed to do laundry, and the grossness and stink of my situation just makes me more suicidal. Kinda hilarious, at least to me. If anyone wonders what depression looks like...

Maybe I'll wrap myself in paper towels. So to at least be clean. Ah, the price of dignity. Actually, my diets really clean, so I doubt I stink as bad as I suspect. (But I probably do!)

I really want to put some special stones around my body, secured with micro-pore tape, and be ceremonial about it...but I'll probably be so damned depressed I won't have the interest to. I will put a note (if I remember) from the Exit book, saying my decision was made in a rational state of mind, blah blah blah, and DO NOT RESUSCITATE ME, BITCH!

The rocks, besides being powerful gateways into other dimensions, will make me look like even more of a wierdo, which I imagine/hope will make it easier for people to forget about me.

Besides that... I don't really care.

 

[SiArc]

Hopefully my corpse will be burnt so it doesn't matter but the two serious attempts I had I did dress nicely. It is more for my peace of mind than anyone elses. Part of the dying ritual. I don't have anyone that I care if they see me mangled or not. Now whatever I do is purely for me.

 

[TAW122]

My corpse will be rather messy, particularly my head, but I'm rather ugly IRL so perhaps being a dullahan is still far better aesthetically imho lol. As far as the surrounding area, well it'll be covered in blood and brain matter but hey, I've no qualms about that because if society and government want to make it so hard and even punish suicidal people, this is the end result of not having easy means to an peaceful method like inert gases, N, and what not (at least those are inaccessible for me or just too difficult to procure and what not).

Mentally, well I've given up on recovery, I've decided that my life just sucks and I'm just drifting through life going through the motions, everything is just mundane and shit. When things get to be too much for me, well that'll be when I check out.

 

[Thoughtforms]

I've thought about this.

I want to look like the most typical me. So I wil wear my everyday makeup which is usually lots of eyeliner and something kinda nice but comfty like leggings. Not pyjamas. Especially if I end up in hospital.

I want to do SN. If it makes me unrecognisable Or vomit all over myself then I can't do anything about that but I want to die with a bit of dignity and as me. I will only get one chance and I wan't to die feeling at one with myself and close to my true self

 

[LongSeason]

I'm planning on full suspension so I guess I'll go to the bathroom, I don't really want to shit my pants

 

[bigj75]

Ill shit and piss before i go so i don't stink shit up.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

Part of me realizes that this is a little trivial, even silly, but yes, I do think about it. Haircut, nice fingernails, that sort of thing.

 

[Tncfef]

i simply want to be found clean.

1-get a haircut
2-shave ( face ,armpit and genital area)
2- take a bath
3- cut fingernails
4- wear some clean and decent clothes

 

[Jiva]

I plan a long hunger before my CTB only. My way is hanging. So the empty belly is recommended. But i don´t plan nothing more.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

you will probably shit and piss yourself unless you decide not eat/drink 2 days before ctb


death never comes with dignity

 

[Smilla]

you will probably shit and piss yourself unless you decide not eat/drink 2 days before ctb


death never comes with dignity

Adult diaper

 

[bigj75]

Adult diaper

 

[peachesNpoison]

i'll probably just bring a large tarp to the hotel so I don't fuck up the carpet and give the cleaner an even worse night. I also plan to tip big.

 

[bigj75]

i'll probably just bring a large tarp to the hotel so I don't fuck up the carpet and give the cleaner an even worse night. I also plan to tip big.

good idea. What is your method btw?

 

[peachesNpoison]

NfromA

 

[Jiva]

you will probably shit and piss yourself unless you decide not eat/drink 2 days before ctb


death never comes with dignity

I will not eat. Urine will dry up, i think.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

I will not eat. Urine will dry up, i think.

the smell though

 

[Jiva]

the smell though

I will do it outside, in a woods. I can´t being two days without water.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

I will do it outside, in a woods. I can´t being two days without water.

honestly i will eat like a pig before i die


i dont care how they find me...this is life...when we get born there is blood, shit and various other bodyfluids around us and it wont be different when we die

 

[Pulpit2018]

The dead have no use for beauty.
Necrophiliacs however....

 

[Anubis901]

My corpse will be rather messy, particularly my head, but I'm rather ugly IRL so perhaps being a dullahan is still far better aesthetically imho lol. As far as the surrounding area, well it'll be covered in blood and brain matter but hey, I've no qualms about that...

Same here! I live alone and have no family nearby, so I will be found by law enforcement. They've seen this type of things many times before, so it's no big deal to them. The house will be locked and my ID will be on the counter - not that they'll be able to use that as a positive identification! I'll go straight to the funeral home, then to cremation. Nothing to see here folks, move along.

 

[TiredHorse]

They've seen this type of things many times before, so it's no big deal to them.

Actually, it does weigh on the first responders/LEOs. You never really "get used to" seeing dead people; it's always a bit of a downer. You accept it as part of your job, but it adds up. As an FF/EMT I can assure you that we're human too --even the cops.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I will not eat. Urine will dry up, i think.

Someone I was very close to that passed away hadn't eaten or drank anything in idk how long. She had a feeding tube and wasn't even getting formula . Just water. 2 ml an hour. Still after she passed there was a huge mess. So.... yeah.

 

[Jiva]

Is it so important? I think that no. If i will piss during my suicide, it is normal. I will be happy, if i die quickly, painless and also a little dirty.