MOROK
Member
- Aug 15, 2024
- 31
(TW: Bad humor, optimism and delulu)
Hello lovely people of SaSu! This is my goodbye thread, as I have acquired my Sodium Nitrite and will be drinking my death juice tomorrow. I am going out with a bang, prepared and ready to reincarnate in Runeterra (League of Legends). I don't know if my death will get covered by the news in my city or country, because when people CTB they usually do, so I don't really give a flying dang if I get my personal info gets leaked and shown for the world to see. But I have a few things to cover for why I'm doing it.
First of all, I would like to blame League of Legends for saving my life on multiple occasions. Why blame and not thank? Because I wouldn't need to suffer as much as I do now. Back in 2018 I fell in love with this game, its characters and world-building. I wasted my money, time and love on it, and I don't regret a thing. I still love it, but I hate the current lore of the game and personally would do better job and creating new characters than whatever the fuck Riot is doing. Everything started going downhill on December 7th, 2023 - when Hwei was released, and everybody started shipping Jhin with him. I SHIP JHIN + PYKE, God damn it! Imagine how hurt I was to learn that?! I shipped them for 6 years and will continue shipping them in my afterlife. JhinPyke for the win! And I also believe that when the day I die I will reincarnate in Runeterra, so I personally can't wait. END OF DELULU!
From 2018 I had suicide attempts back to back, some being almost successful if I lived alone, since I was underage and lived with my mother who was always finding me in different scenarios of self-harm. Medicine overdose, partial hanging, full suspension, wrist cutting, drowning, SN - I have tried it all. I would not recommend anything other than SN, since it's pretty easy to find on the internet marketplaces, since it works just fine, won't damage your liver or stomach and overall a pretty painless way to go.
I chose tomorrow because it will be 9th of December, the "nine" representing my final attempt and December being my least favorite month. I hate cold, and living in Russia we have winter 24/7.
My main reason to go is because I was never happy in this world, always depressed with severe OCD, schizophrenia and autism. All diagnosed. I have a few friends, good job, apartment and no lover (I'm aromantic asexual so it's not the case), so I'm grateful for everything I have, but I wouldn't want to burden my single mom with my crazy shit and honestly - I couldn't bear the look of pain in her eyes every time I mention that I don't belong on Earth.
I'm giving away my League of Legends account, so if someone wants it, I will gladly provide.
Hello lovely people of SaSu! This is my goodbye thread, as I have acquired my Sodium Nitrite and will be drinking my death juice tomorrow. I am going out with a bang, prepared and ready to reincarnate in Runeterra (League of Legends). I don't know if my death will get covered by the news in my city or country, because when people CTB they usually do, so I don't really give a flying dang if I get my personal info gets leaked and shown for the world to see. But I have a few things to cover for why I'm doing it.
First of all, I would like to blame League of Legends for saving my life on multiple occasions. Why blame and not thank? Because I wouldn't need to suffer as much as I do now. Back in 2018 I fell in love with this game, its characters and world-building. I wasted my money, time and love on it, and I don't regret a thing. I still love it, but I hate the current lore of the game and personally would do better job and creating new characters than whatever the fuck Riot is doing. Everything started going downhill on December 7th, 2023 - when Hwei was released, and everybody started shipping Jhin with him. I SHIP JHIN + PYKE, God damn it! Imagine how hurt I was to learn that?! I shipped them for 6 years and will continue shipping them in my afterlife. JhinPyke for the win! And I also believe that when the day I die I will reincarnate in Runeterra, so I personally can't wait. END OF DELULU!
From 2018 I had suicide attempts back to back, some being almost successful if I lived alone, since I was underage and lived with my mother who was always finding me in different scenarios of self-harm. Medicine overdose, partial hanging, full suspension, wrist cutting, drowning, SN - I have tried it all. I would not recommend anything other than SN, since it's pretty easy to find on the internet marketplaces, since it works just fine, won't damage your liver or stomach and overall a pretty painless way to go.
I chose tomorrow because it will be 9th of December, the "nine" representing my final attempt and December being my least favorite month. I hate cold, and living in Russia we have winter 24/7.
My main reason to go is because I was never happy in this world, always depressed with severe OCD, schizophrenia and autism. All diagnosed. I have a few friends, good job, apartment and no lover (I'm aromantic asexual so it's not the case), so I'm grateful for everything I have, but I wouldn't want to burden my single mom with my crazy shit and honestly - I couldn't bear the look of pain in her eyes every time I mention that I don't belong on Earth.
I'm giving away my League of Legends account, so if someone wants it, I will gladly provide.
