suffocatingseraphim
⸙𖦹killing the self as to protect it from harm𖦹⸙
- Feb 6, 2020
- 105
Hi there, I posted a few months ago regarding my friend who had passed from SN. I'm trying to find some closure on his final moments.
For some background:
We used to be best friends since childhood but had a very very bad falling out, we had lived together and then split harshly.
He moved in with two roomates after, I lost contact with him, but an old mutual friend contacted me after he died.
After putting some puzzle pieces together I found out he had used SN, as he purchased it when we still lived together, he showed me, and had talked me through his method for a few hours.
Police ruled it as an accidental choking as far as I heard, but only his parents got the toxicology report and they've kept it to themselves for obvious reasons. However he was suicidal most of his life, had multiple near death experiences and seemed to be done with life.
I'm 100% positive it was SN, given our mutual friend told me he found the bottle I described in his room, alongside a scale, a spoon, and a glass, all covered with bits of white powder.
He had thrown up throughout the night before his death and was found in a choking position on the floor. He was found 2 days after his death.
I guess what I'm wondering is if anyone has a link to the symptoms of SN up to death, like vomiting or seizures, as well as how the body looks and seems postmortem after SN? I tried to find some on here but it got garbled through all the other SN posts.
Since I never got to see his body, and we knew each other 10+ years, I suppose my grief is wanting to put sensations and visuals to his final moments so I can understand what he went through.
Thanks to those who read this far and thank you if you're able to find anything. Take care
For some background:
We used to be best friends since childhood but had a very very bad falling out, we had lived together and then split harshly.
He moved in with two roomates after, I lost contact with him, but an old mutual friend contacted me after he died.
After putting some puzzle pieces together I found out he had used SN, as he purchased it when we still lived together, he showed me, and had talked me through his method for a few hours.
Police ruled it as an accidental choking as far as I heard, but only his parents got the toxicology report and they've kept it to themselves for obvious reasons. However he was suicidal most of his life, had multiple near death experiences and seemed to be done with life.
I'm 100% positive it was SN, given our mutual friend told me he found the bottle I described in his room, alongside a scale, a spoon, and a glass, all covered with bits of white powder.
He had thrown up throughout the night before his death and was found in a choking position on the floor. He was found 2 days after his death.
I guess what I'm wondering is if anyone has a link to the symptoms of SN up to death, like vomiting or seizures, as well as how the body looks and seems postmortem after SN? I tried to find some on here but it got garbled through all the other SN posts.
Since I never got to see his body, and we knew each other 10+ years, I suppose my grief is wanting to put sensations and visuals to his final moments so I can understand what he went through.
Thanks to those who read this far and thank you if you're able to find anything. Take care