Probably a mix of these 3 pictures.
I just feel like I'm suffocating or drowning a lot of times. I try to make out things, I try to interact with the world, but there's something stopping me. Like a bag around my head, or an ocean.
At the same time, it's like everytime I struggle, I find it hard to breathe and cope more and more.
Addition with the drowning picture, sometimes it feels like I'm not even existing ... like I'm just floating, or bobbing around an empty world. I just go where life takes me, and it's probably always bad. It's like I'm floating through my head and thoughts.
It's complicated to explain, but I try.