The_screaming_dawn
Member
- Dec 12, 2023
- 15
I am in a monogamous relationship. I love him he's great, fantastic even. This is the one relationship I haven't cheated. The sole reason? I actually like him.
Of course you'd think that liking someone would mean being able to be loyal right? Why is it every three months I get another crush on someone than him? You'd think you could Pavlov yourself, condition yourself to be mentally loyal but you can't. After five years of trying through various relationships you just can't.
The newest crush I began developing has cut contact with me since his friends don't like him. I don't believe he suspected anything (thank god). But I have not stopped thinking about this for four full days. I hate getting new attachments. I feel guilt eating at me every damn day. It's so suffocating. The only way I can tolerate the guilt is to be higher than shit. I hate this.
Of course you'd think that liking someone would mean being able to be loyal right? Why is it every three months I get another crush on someone than him? You'd think you could Pavlov yourself, condition yourself to be mentally loyal but you can't. After five years of trying through various relationships you just can't.
The newest crush I began developing has cut contact with me since his friends don't like him. I don't believe he suspected anything (thank god). But I have not stopped thinking about this for four full days. I hate getting new attachments. I feel guilt eating at me every damn day. It's so suffocating. The only way I can tolerate the guilt is to be higher than shit. I hate this.