The people here in the forum only know me by my threads but some people recommended me to become a ghostwriter due to my ability to post this much and due to my eloquence. Although I think my German sounds way better than my English. I don't know enough technical terms on English and this is why it might sound repetitive.
Honestly I doubt I will ever be able to hold a job. Especially not 9 to 5. I am not resilient enough and when I hate the job I develop extremely crippling depression which let to being fired. (in the past)
Journalist - I don't know whether I am enough stress resistent for that. Maybe only as a freelancer. Though my mainstream centrist positions are already way too present on the news. I had to betray my political values (I am a leftwinger) and either write rightwing populist or leftwing populist articles. (I think the most money lies in right wing content - but I would hate myself for that). Moreover I cannot imagine investigative reporting.
Columnist - would be an easy way - but who would actually pay me for that?
SaSu should pay me - well it is a joke but seemingly posting myriads of threads is sort of my mental illness superpower and I wish I could turn that into money
Scientist - not sure whether I am smart enough for that and the working conditions in Germany seem to be horrendous. I only study part-time it would take way too long.
Teacher - I am scared the kids could start bullying me because I am so insecure and neurotic
Gig economy - I hate the notion of doing that. But maybe I had to find the right field I don't know
YouTuber- it is a gamble whether that works. I had to put so much work into that with no guarantee to make money
Ghost writer - seems interesting I am good at writing. I doubt I could write a whole book. But 10-30 pages why not. But not fictional stories. I have heard academical papers are a good way to earn money. But such ghost writer usually have to cover many subjects and I am not sure whether I could do that. I don't think it is illegal but to a certain extent immoral. Further it would feel bad to help rich students to rig the game in favor for them even more. Still better than suicide still I guess.
Author - I would use a pseudonym I have the feeling I might be better as an author about mental illness than about politics or the society. But I had to distort my story though. I think noone wants to read a self-help author who sees no other option than suicide eventually. I would feel bad about lying. Moreover people might identify me from this forum if my story is the same. I am scared about that - maybe there would be boycotts not to support a SaSu member.
I am not sure whether I could marry such an old grandma. I think I am not good at lying and maybe I would prefer to kill myself over starting to choose such morally questionable road. I think I might would feel disgusted by myself.
If you have a better job for me please write it as a comment!
Honestly I doubt I will ever be able to hold a job. Especially not 9 to 5. I am not resilient enough and when I hate the job I develop extremely crippling depression which let to being fired. (in the past)
Journalist - I don't know whether I am enough stress resistent for that. Maybe only as a freelancer. Though my mainstream centrist positions are already way too present on the news. I had to betray my political values (I am a leftwinger) and either write rightwing populist or leftwing populist articles. (I think the most money lies in right wing content - but I would hate myself for that). Moreover I cannot imagine investigative reporting.
Columnist - would be an easy way - but who would actually pay me for that?
SaSu should pay me - well it is a joke but seemingly posting myriads of threads is sort of my mental illness superpower and I wish I could turn that into money
Scientist - not sure whether I am smart enough for that and the working conditions in Germany seem to be horrendous. I only study part-time it would take way too long.
Teacher - I am scared the kids could start bullying me because I am so insecure and neurotic
Gig economy - I hate the notion of doing that. But maybe I had to find the right field I don't know
YouTuber- it is a gamble whether that works. I had to put so much work into that with no guarantee to make money
Ghost writer - seems interesting I am good at writing. I doubt I could write a whole book. But 10-30 pages why not. But not fictional stories. I have heard academical papers are a good way to earn money. But such ghost writer usually have to cover many subjects and I am not sure whether I could do that. I don't think it is illegal but to a certain extent immoral. Further it would feel bad to help rich students to rig the game in favor for them even more. Still better than suicide still I guess.
Author - I would use a pseudonym I have the feeling I might be better as an author about mental illness than about politics or the society. But I had to distort my story though. I think noone wants to read a self-help author who sees no other option than suicide eventually. I would feel bad about lying. Moreover people might identify me from this forum if my story is the same. I am scared about that - maybe there would be boycotts not to support a SaSu member.
I am not sure whether I could marry such an old grandma. I think I am not good at lying and maybe I would prefer to kill myself over starting to choose such morally questionable road. I think I might would feel disgusted by myself.
If you have a better job for me please write it as a comment!
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