Discussion Poll: What makes you suicidal?

[Crono]

What makes you suicidal and how long have you been dealing with it? Let me know your thoughts.

You can choose multiple options in the poll!

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself of course, I see the existence of life as being an unnecessary, horrific mistake and it disgusts me how existence has caused so much suffering to be experienced. Existing is completely unappealing and undesirable in every way, it's just waiting around to die where one is destined for nothing but to suffer and decay. Only nothingness is acceptable for me, the only relief lies in non-existence where everything is permanently forgotten about.

 

[Nephis]

I love the world for many of it's gifts to me, however, the vain of man that exists on it, seeks to crush me under it's weight, to impale me on a spire.

 

[letsalllovelain]

I don't believe humans were meant to live like how they are in modern society. As a modern person you are not in control of your source of food, housing, clean water etc. These ideas are expanded upon in the manifesto "Industrial Society and it's Future" by Ted Kaczynski (I do not endorse his actions but I do support the message)

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

• Neurodivergence (Autism, Depression, Anxiety)
• Money problems
• Loneliness

 

[Crono]

I don't believe humans were meant to live like how they are in modern society. As a modern person you are not in control of your source of food, housing, clean water etc. These ideas are expanded upon in the manifesto "Industrial Society and it's Future" by Ted Kaczynski (I do not endorse his actions but I do support the message)

Humans changed the world so fast that there was no time for biological evolution to happen. Modern food causes illness, overwork, etc.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Gender dysphoria. I hate being born male and absolutely detest it.

 

[Jule_from_Germany]

MS, causing irreparable brain damage

 

[CigaretteAesthetics]

because i have nothing to look forwards to

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I have goals/ambitions/dreams but absolutely no way to feasibly reach them. I'm in a perpetual state of limbo right now. I don't really want to die, but I do want to leave this state of existence i find myself in. It's exhausting slogging through each day when there's nothing you're working towards.

 

[Jolene79]

Severe neuropathy including in my entire face, trigeminal nerve, head, neck, spine. Multiple shitty autoimmune diseases. Inability to eat solid food due to complications with stoma.

The pain and weakness and lying down watching life happen all around me every day with no hope now but gaslighting from the medical profession brings me here.

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

Abuse

 

[day]

Life itself is so unappealing I find it hard to believe anyone enjoys it here. People trick themselves into thinking things are going well but the world truly seems horrible and cruel to everyone in my eyes.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I just really don't like life, humans, or the world around me.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

i dont like this world explains it perfectly
the concept of modern life, hell just life in general, fucking disgusts me i hate it
its just not fun man its not worth bothering with and putting my time and energy into

 

[MrDarkness]

Being lonely is like hell, your alone, you can't fight loneliness, sure you can make an effort to get a partner or friends, but you can only try so many times before you give up, I just wanna be loved, but that won't ever happen Lmao

 

[dogtired]

My reason is ME/CFS, an incurable illness that stops me doing most of the things that make life worth living. I'd rather die than keep watching the life I could have had pass me by.

 

[mkmk_1]

Truth be told,I just don't like this world. I, and I suspect most people, can endure a lot if the result is something they think is worth it.

I can't see a worthwhile reason to endure life as we currently live it. I know it'll get better, but I can't see it getting good enough to make the journey worthwhile. The world doesn't revolve around me, any progress will be made by my efforts alone. Yet I'm only human, and no matter how much effort I put in, I can clearly see where I'll end up, and it's still nowhere near where I wished I could be. I get my expectations are impossibly high for life, but knowing what's realistic and what's fantasy only adds to the disappointment. As someone already posted, I don't have anything in life to look forward to, to make the journey worth it. If I even make it to the end. Sometime people just fail despite their efforts, and every failure puts you further and further away from any end that was obtainable and worth while.

 

[jaxxon_sunn]

being neurodivergent makes it so hard for me to do normal things and I fall behind in life and don't have any accomplishments or friends. I can't go to college or travel because of money and I can't work on my skills because I don't have the energy. I can't explain to therapists my feelings so I don't get any help. Its hard for me to connect to others and I don't go outside or to social places much so I don't make friends easily. I have body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria which adds more suffering. Always feel like the ugliest and worst person alive. If I had money I would still have the other problems but maybe less time to think about them because then I could get help from a therapist I select (the ones under my insurance are horrible) and I could go to college and travel. Also get plastic surgery or something idk

 

[Crono]

being neurodivergent makes it so hard for me to do normal things and I fall behind in life

Me too! I feel that if I didn't have autism I would probably be happy and enjoy life. I am tormented by things that are not a problem for other people. Such as sensory overload and enormous difficulty in social interaction.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Humans changed the world so fast that there was no time for biological evolution to happen. Modern food causes illness, overwork, etc.

That is indeed a major issue for so many mental problems in our society. I have the same thoughts about it.

 

[chahan.trading]

I want peace

 

[Ambivalent1]

Humans are demons.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Truth be told,I just don't like this world. I, and I suspect most people, can endure a lot if the result is something they think is worth it.

I can't see a worthwhile reason to endure life as we currently live it. I know it'll get better, but I can't see it getting good enough to make the journey worthwhile. The world doesn't revolve around me, any progress will be made by my efforts alone. Yet I'm only human, and no matter how much effort I put in, I can clearly see where I'll end up, and it's still nowhere near where I wished I could be. I get my expectations are impossibly high for life, but knowing what's realistic and what's fantasy only adds to the disappointment. As someone already posted, I don't have anything in life to look forward to, to make the journey worth it. If I even make it to the end. Sometime people just fail despite their efforts, and every failure puts you further and further away from any end that was obtainable and worth while.

This.

 

[Crono]

Humans are demons.

Humans are worse than 'demons'. Human cruelty is one of the reasons that led many here to want ctb.

'Traumatic event' has more votes than 'chronic pain, illness, disability'

 

[Jolene79]

My reason is ME/CFS, an incurable illness that stops me doing most of the things that make life worth living. I'd rather die than keep watching the life I could have had pass me by.

And you have the double whammy of medical gaslighting,no understanding from most the general public and no hope of help because no one has a clue what is behind it with real options for treatment

 

[suicidalloser]

December 4 2053. i hope i don't live that long!

 

[Catloaf]

My fucked up crooked spine that has robbed me of health and every milestone in life.

 

[dogtired]

And you have the double whammy of medical gaslighting,no understanding from most the general public and no hope of help because no one has a clue what is behind it with real options for treatment

Hit the nail on the head there :/