Poison

[lostmywhimsy]

Recently, I've been seeing news about people killing themselves. Where do they even get poison? I searched google for answers and came to know that most people use rat poison. But I tried killing myself with rat poison with three times, it all ended up being a failed attempt, i.e., I threw up everything within an hour. But I see people who die using rat poison all the time. How do they do it, do they mix it with food or something?

I don't know what to do. All I want is to not exist at all. I was so close to death but I got scared at the last minute (train track attempt). I wish someone would kill me.