There's no point in writing anything, but I still do. There's no point in doing anything. I'm blindsided from every direction. Since I have health problems, i need to spend money on it. When i spend money on it, i can't make more money, since i only have one way of doing it that requires capital. In the end I can't fix my endless health problems, can't pay my taxes, can't make more money, can't buy drugs for my addiction and i'm stuck in a loop of being broke in pain and spiraling to hell.
There's just no point in continuing this any longer. All I will witness is more and more unbearable pain, nothing will change for the better. I'm tired of this shit. I have no plan for tomorrow because there is no tomorrow and wasn't any for a long time.
I wish I could at least lose all my feelings, i don't need them anymore. And the pain doesn't change anything at all.
There's just no point in continuing this any longer. All I will witness is more and more unbearable pain, nothing will change for the better. I'm tired of this shit. I have no plan for tomorrow because there is no tomorrow and wasn't any for a long time.
I wish I could at least lose all my feelings, i don't need them anymore. And the pain doesn't change anything at all.
