@Quarky00 I'm quoting from the failed attempts in the document you're referencing, the user Mystic said "It was as if I dropped a hot coal into my stomach and it was just there and there was nothing I could do it about it."
Sorry you quoted APharmaDestroyedLife .Yes that is one account of many. It is not to be dismissed but also does not represent. Need to read the entire description because everything has a context. Obviously
hot coal is a figure of speech (though I believe she felt tremendous burning), would
hot chili make a difference? So lets take the time to read it all:
After making my thread and going to sleep to fast I woke up on time. After waking up I ate two tylenol and then 30 minutes later I ate one tums. 30 minutes after that I said my supposedly possibly final words then poured and drank my SN. Not an exact time frame as it took me about 10 minutes to pour it and get to drinking it finally. It tasted like pool water. I mean like if you have ever accidentally got pool water in your mouth it's like swallowing multiple swallows of that. It was awful, like insanely bad. The taste still haunts me so yeah. Pinching my nose helped me get it down though so for anyone having trouble with the taste try that I guess. A few seconds later after drinking it my stomach started to hurt like hell. It was as if I dropped a hot coal into my stomach and it was just there and there was nothing I could do it about it. Oddly enough I waited while doubling over in pain and talking to @Jean4 and @Kirbster and kept thinking I'll throw it up I'll throw it up then I'll drink more if I have to. I did not throw up. I didn't throw up, instead I got extremely dizzy. I then panicked because I realized I'm clearly not ready yet(thanks Kirbster) and decided to call 911 while dizzy. I told them where I live and they picked me up and took my SN away with them. I told them what it was what I had drinken said I had tried to kill myself over the phone and in person confirmed what I said and then while they were taking me away in the ambulance I promptly passed out.
It was nothing. It was pure pitch black nothingness. The closest thing to oblivion a complete black out with no thoughts or feelings. It's as if time had stopped yet I hadn't realized it anyway. I felt nothing, I thought nothing, it was actually fairly peaceful. Then I woke up clearly in the ICU surrounded by my family who kept batting away my hand as I tried to reach for the mask that had tubes going down my throat. Being in the ICU was horrible not gonna lie. Luckily I soon after got a room and was able to think things through properly and say I need help/want help to the psychiatrist assigned to me. I told them all about my gamble(I in fact had to repeat this countless times) I admitted to buying SN before as a back up plan in case everything goes to hell, a last resort if you will. Luckily they believed me as I was telling the truth and thought hiding things would just overly complicate the help I needed. I was in the hospital for about 5 days then I was moved to a psychiatric hospital/ward whatever you get it. I was brought at night so it was actually hell. There was nothing to do, there was one tv and it was off and I had two roommates that were already asleep and one of them snored so loud I thought he was going to rob me of all possible sleep. Luckily after that hellish nightmare everything was fine. I made some friends, got some medication, and while I was bored I was still in an infinitely better spot compared to before. It's amazing what a little medication and time away from everything can do for someone who has never bothered to even try in the past.
@MysticPerception had an extremely awful experience with panic and it should not be discount it. She said it tasted like pool water yet described it as "insanely bad. The taste still haunts me". I tasted pool water and I don't think it's insanely haunting. I think SN is worse than pool water. But you can figure out Mystic's figures of speech. It is also clear
@MysticPerception sensations were extremely strong. Panic and sensory sensitivity naturally makes things awful. This is one of the worst accounts, so it's like taking a car accident and saying all cars are dangerous. Cars carry risks but not each and every drive. That experience is a possibility, but almost all other SN cases were not as terrible as that. They weren't totally peaceful of course.
Now this is 1 out of 100 accounts, and there is no reason we should focus only on that one and discount others. There are more awefull accounts similar to that but that means the remaining 95% of SN intakes were with mild to moderate discomfort , rather than huge pain. We shall see example of those.
1. I took the whole cup and didn't find it unpleasant, just like sea water
2. I did not throw up altho I tried like hell
3. It kicked in fast, last time I ate was probably 6 hours prior, but I collapsed and my heart was racing sooo bad. But no respiratory problems
I didn't have physical symptoms apart from rapid heartbeat. I was dizzy but not nauseous for example.
No AE, just tums. After a couple gulps, SI kicked in and I realized that I wasn't ready. Dumped the rest of the cup (was a whole lot still in there) and went to the bathroom. At this point, I figured that I didn't take enough of it and I could sleep it off. I wasn't feeling anything after about 10 mins so I though I'd be ok.
Absolutely wrong. While sitting on the toilet, I started to feel my pulse in my head. Like BOOM BOOM BOOM. I got up from the toilet and the whole apartment started spinning. I was sweating like crazy. I thought I could make it to my bed...i didn't even make it past the living room. I don't remember anything past this. My roommate apparently found me and called 911.
No pain. No serious nausea. Just discomfort from sweating and not being able to hold my own body weight. It never dawned on me that I was dying.
I only felt the effects of the SN for a couple of minutes from what I remember. It felt like less than 2 before I blacked out.
I took SN around 3 pm, a very very small quantity and i drink only half of it too. Was very very salty but manageable. Nothing happened to me for the next 30 minutes so i thought it was also fake one. But after 30 - 40 minutes my heart started to beat so heavily and i was laying down that time and tried to walk but all of a sudden i began to feel like i am going to black out. i cant even walk an inch. even if i stand up it felt like i will fall down. My parents were watching me and asked me what happnd and i told them i have severe headache and they noted a change in my lip color and asked what happnd. i gave some lame excuses.
And indeed I have addressed that previously . This is exactly what I wrote . Do not reach conclusions base on one or two cases , but also do not dismiss those . The discomfort of SN was
never downplayed and it was
excruciatingly detailed . There is discomfort and it changes between people . There are more than 100 cases to read . What has been downplayed is the group effort to document it -- the big picture . One case rules them all , that is a very limited perspective .
Final words : SN has discomfort . Even the chances of vomiting are deterring . People do their own assessment . Like you and the OP I am very worried about vomiting , I don't want to end my life with such discomfort . Others however say that life is so painful that vomiting a tiny amount for a couple of minutes is not that bad considering . Some people are not worried about vomiting at all but strong fast heartbeat . That can drive some people crazy . As you can see I'm not taking a position -- I'm bringing you all perspectives .
Read read read :)
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I have been planning to do SN statistics for a long time and I see it is really needed . People take one sentence , or even one expression (two words) and label SN as such , which is wrong . So a table or a graph with the occurrence and severity of discomfort would perhaps help people see the big picture . SN is not entirely peaceful . But neither is life , nor some of the other options . There is not "better ctb method" -- It is up to each and every one to decide their method . But I don't like it when it's misrepresented .