unalive.
Each day is torture.
- Dec 12, 2024
- 11
im pretty young but im really struggling and i dont know what to do. Im planning for march 12th 2025 and im scared of what people will think of me if i commit suicide. will i be known as the selfish bitch who left everyone to suffer? Im planing to take a hoodie string into a forest by my house because i love nature, and id choke myself in the deep woods. Im on meds not to kill myself but i haven't taken them in months, my parents dont know but ive been more and more determined to do it. the thought of nobody caring about me and my head telling me i shouldn't be here and im not enough is just too much pressure. on top of school, with homework and friend problem and anxiety attacks at school. I suffer with self harm i have done it 2 times at school and the rest at home. My self harm methods were, a glass shard, a lighter, scissors, knives. i am just lost and I think im done with the world. i just wish i wasn't even here in the first place. I could have been replaced with somebody who loves life and friends and enjoys every second of who they are but instead they got me; a self conscious, suicidal, mental person who is so sensitive that when people scream she starts to cry. Im lost.
