Please support me

[Starylain001]

Please help me to get through this day. I suffer immeneously from incurable illness. Its autoimmune. On monday im getting to the pharmacy for the tools for ctb method. My hands are literally burning now. I have nerve damage and my joints are being eaten.

Every day is so hard for me. Please support.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I'm sorry anybody has to go through this. This world is full of all kinds of suffering. Even innocent babies come into this world with birth defects, cancers, other diseases. This is the main reason I can't believe in a higher power. What kind of higher power would let this shit go on? Does thinking about a better time in your life distract even just a little from your pain? Is there anything that ever worked just a little? You don't deserve this. I'm not sure if anything I could say could be of any comfort. I can't imagine what it's like to be in such agony. My heart breaks for you.

 

[Starylain001]

Agony of depression makes everything so much harder. But I have to go and buy those things.

I fear every day.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I know. It affects everything we do and how we see the world. It affects our relationships, our jobs, our outlook. It robs us of the things we used to love to do, and the things we would like to do. Life is already hard and it does make it so much harder. I feel it every day. It's like an immense weight that gets heavier as more time goes by. I don't know how to shake it. I would if I could. Getting to the end is sustaining me right now.

 

[Riddle]

Please help me to get through this day. I suffer immeneously from incurable illness. Its autoimmune. On monday im getting to the pharmacy for the tools for ctb method. My hands are literally burning now. I have nerve damage and my joints are being eaten.

Every day is so hard for me. Please support.

That sounds truly awful Stary, I am so sorry. I don't have any advice other to echo what was said above me. Try to distract yourself any way you can and make it through the day, maybe even pop in chat to pass some time. I hope tomorrow is better for you

What are you going to get at the pharmacy?

 

[Starylain001]

Meto and antiacid. I lack of sn only.

 

[Glowarm]

Sorry to hear that you're in so much pain. I'm at a loss for words. Just know that we're here and we do support you.

 

[Starylain001]

Thanks. I just push it through every day. Some are better than ones. Today is a bad one. I love my family, but i was always weak psychically (like many of you) and then I got this.

That is ctb for sure. Im impressed for how long i was able to handling it. Long enough to find non-violent mean. Im so much relieved for now.

There is a real way out. I just need to do it one day at a time till getting everything I need.

 

[Cathy Ames]

I am so sorry that you are going through this horrible experience. I wish I had advice or another way to offer actual support. It's so unfair and frustrating that the medical profession cannot do anything to lower the amount of pain you are in.

 

[AnneRee]

Please help me to get through this day. I suffer immeneously from incurable illness. Its autoimmune. On monday im getting to the pharmacy for the tools for ctb method. My hands are literally burning now. I have nerve damage and my joints are being eaten.

Every day is so hard for me. Please support.

Hello , I really feel for you do you have peripheral neuropathy or something else? I have peripheral neuropathy and a lot of other stuff so can relate - I really feel for your suffering and hope you can find some relief soon ! Like you I love my family and don't want to hurt them but can relate to desperately wanting to go to sleep permanently and be free of the torment - all the best to you

 

[Starylain001]

Even family wont stop me. Its a torture chamber, not a body anymore.

 

[DerTod]

Please help me to get through this day. I suffer immeneously from incurable illness. Its autoimmune. On monday im getting to the pharmacy for the tools for ctb method. My hands are literally burning now. I have nerve damage and my joints are being eaten.

Every day is so hard for me. Please support.

Whenever i'm in pain( daily) what i do to cope with it and with life is to bodyrock on music. It might be strange to you but it's actually a form of meditation. It connects you deeply with music and the movement of the brain releases endorphins. All children do it until an adult schools them that it is not appropriate.It will be strange at the beginning but the more you do it-the more you will like it. You'll start to catch the flow and the rhythm of music and will make sense to you the more you practice.Of course i should note that it is an addiction so...keep that in mind. But since you say you'll CTB anyway...it might help you in your last period on this earth.

 

[AnneRee]

Whenever i'm in pain( daily) what i do to cope with it and with life is to bodyrock on music. It might be strange to you but it's actually a form of meditation. It connects you deeply with music and the movement of the brain releases endorphins. All children do it until an adult schools them that it is not appropriate.It will be strange at the beginning but the more you do it-the more you will like it. You'll start to catch the flow and the rhythm of music and will make sense to you the more you practice.Of course i should note that it is an addiction so...keep that in mind. But since you say you'll CTB anyway...it might help you in your last period on this earth.

That's a lovely practical suggestion

Even family wont stop me. Its a torture chamber, not a body anymore.

You poor soul - I really understand you - I hope you get peace & relief very soon

 

[Starylain001]

Im not handling the pain anymore. Its a hell, I swear. I want to live but I just dont know, how.

 

[quix77]

Im not handling the pain anymore. Its a hell, I swear. I want to live but I just dont know, how.

I am so sorry to hear the pain you are going through! I hope the pain ends and you find peace one way or another

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so unbearable what you are going through, to me it is horrifying that so many health conditions exist in the first place and that our bodies are capable of torturing us. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens, I'm sorry that you are in this awful situation. I wish you the best.