Please help -suicide attack-

[Foreversad]

Im just inpatient to go .it may beed moths for me to go. I have to plan it well and then the suicide attack comes .i just wanna go so badly that i want to go in the strrets yell .i likw really want it RIGHT NOW . JESUS I WANNA GO SO BADLY. I dont wanna wake up again i cant carry on anymore .and i know i have to gather strength move on in order to plan it keep it firm organise it and do it .i have to stay focused every day for it but i can't .feels like im losing my mind . please help what do i do?

 

[S like Siren]

I know you are suffering so much right now.I know very well this feeling of desperation...what i can tell you is this moment will pass You have to bear it in some way. take a pillow and hit it,scream out all the anger and frustrations,cry if you feel the need to do it.You need to give yourself time to better organize yourself for a safe ctb plan if that is what you have decided and right now you are not lucid enough....just breath slowly and lay in bed and try to sleep if you can...you are not alone

 

[Foreversad]

I know you are suffering so much right now.I know very well this feeling of desperation...what i can tell you is this moment will pass You have to bear it in some way. take a pillow and hit it,scream out all the anger and frustrations,cry if you feel the need to do it.You need to give yourself time to better organize yourself for a safe ctb plan if that is what you have decided and right now you are not lucid enough....just breath slowly and lay in bed and try to sleep if you can...you are not alone

Thank you so much .im crying like an idiot .im sick for more than 3y .i even had people telling me lies they would help me die and when i severely insisted I want to die they left .they disappeared ..and note they have organised their ctb and even called me crazy .i just wanna sleep .i cant sleep anymore im dying alive

 

[Foogs]

I know this feeling well. If it helps, in this moment, if you pay attention and try not to get lost in thought, you are bearing it. You can bear it in the next moment too, and eventually it will fade. Everything you've ever experienced has come and gone. So will this

 

[Foreversad]

I know this feeling well. If it helps, in this moment, if you pay attention and try not to get lost in thought, you are bearing it. You can bear it in the next moment too, and eventually it will fade. Everything you've ever experienced has come and gone. So will this

I feel like going to get in the sea.i know no swimming but im desperate.i dont have patience and i dont want to exist anymore

 

[S like Siren]

Thank you so much .im crying like an idiot .im sick for more than 3y .i even had people telling me lies they would help me die and when i severely insisted I want to die they left .they disappeared ..and note they have organised their ctb and even called me crazy .i just wanna sleep .i cant sleep anymore im dying alive

It's ok crying...don't be shamed of this.Cry helps realase tension and frustrations so it's ok.i feel you...being sick for so long is so fucking exhausting!!Do you mean people here,on SS?It's happen sometimes,there are a lot of people from all the world here...and i'm so sorry some people treated bad.Why can't you sleep anymore?do you have problems in sleeping?rest and sleep really help most of the time

I feel like going to get in the sea.i know no swimming but im desperate.i dont have patience and i dont want to exist anymore

Don't be impulsive please...please try something to calm...i know you feel so bad right now but please don't do this

 

[Foreversad]

It's ok crying...don't be shamed of this.Cry helps realase tension and frustrations so it's ok.i feel you...being sick for so long is so fucking exhausting!!Do you mean people here,on SS?It's happen sometimes,there are a lot of people from all the world here...and i'm so sorry some people treated bad.Why can't you sleep anymore?do you have problems in sleeping?rest and sleep really help most of the time

Don't be impulsive please...please try something to calm...i know you feel so bad right now but please don't do thie

Except from very sick im insomniac and constant panic attacks .i need to go so much.there was a person doctor Friend i thought .not here .he told me we could give me the meds combo to go .he was reassuring me the end is near he said he sent it wrong to another person called ne crazy and since then wont reply on fb .i have no idea why he did that.but only bad peoole do this

 

[motel rooms]

Have you tried all the meds that they give people for insomnia?

 

[S like Siren]

Except from very sick im insomniac and constant panic attacks .i need to go so much.there was a person doctor Friend i thought .not here .he told me we could give me the meds combo to go .he was reassuring me the end is near he said he sent it wrong to another person called ne crazy and since then wont reply on fb .i have no idea why he did that.but only bad peoole do this

Oh i see...Insomnia and panic attacks how awful they are!!!!!:( i understand you...i know it's so much suffering to endure but you have to find ways to calm down first and act lucidly not to do things impulsively.And as for that person ... just fuck him...you don't deserve this

 

[motel rooms]

Oh i see...Insomnia and panic attacks how awful they are!!!!!:( i understand you...i know it's so much suffering to endure but you have to find ways to calm down first and act lucidly not to do things impulsively.

Have you read the list of physical illnesses OP is dealing with?

 

[S like Siren]

Have you read the list of physical illnesses OP is dealing with?

Actually no:( ... I just replied to the thread trying to comfort him in some way. Would you be kind enough to let me know about all his physical illnesses?

 

[Pluto]

Im just inpatient to go .it may beed moths for me to go. I have to plan it well and then the suicide attack comes .i just wanna go so badly that i want to go in the strrets yell .i likw really want it RIGHT NOW . JESUS I WANNA GO SO BADLY. I dont wanna wake up again i cant carry on anymore .and i know i have to gather strength move on in order to plan it keep it firm organise it and do it .i have to stay focused every day for it but i can't .feels like im losing my mind . please help what do i do?

Try to focus and watch this (15 mins).

 

[motel rooms]

Try to focus and watch this (15 mins).

Your signature is more comforting to me

 

[Pluto]

Your signature is more comforting to me

Ironically, I am only familiar with that quote because it is referenced in an Eckhart Tolle book!

 

[motel rooms]

Ironically, I am only familiar with that quote because it is referenced in an Eckhart Tolle book!

So, you're a big ole fake who quotes famous nihilistic lines while worshipping New Age prophets

 

[FuneralCry]

I know what it is like to reach the point where you are desperate for a way out, life can be very cruel. I would do anything for a peaceful easy way out honestly. Physical illnesses can make the body into a prison. I wish you well, it can be really tiring. I hope there is a way for you to find relief.