Please help me cannot take the pain any longer

[Sweet emotion]

Hi I have what's called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, it's the most painful disease in medical history. It feels like someone poured gasoline on you and lit a match. It's my whole body. I also have it in my ears and only leave the house for doctor visits. It's like someone put an ice pick in your ear and is constantly stabbing you, the pain then leads to my teeth, face, eyes and engulfs my entire head to the point where it feels like Im being beaten. I have no quality of life what so ever. I haven't gone anywhere for the last 14 yrs. There is no research for this disease, no funding and the one treatment they tried doesn't work for me at all. If you were to look it up it's actually called the Suicide Disease. I know many who have taken their lives because they just couldn't take the pain any longer or the loliness. I also have extreme constant aggressive loud tinnitus in the ears. I can't hear anything except this noise and I can't sleep because of it. My ears hurt so bad I can't even touch a pillow. I came across an article about a girl from Pennsylvania who was a member and she was given help. It said she was given three day regimen and over the counter items for nausea and a list of drugs and how much to take.
This is what I want, please help me.
I have been on morphine ER 160 mgs twice a day and Percocet 5/325 and Xanax 2 mgs for about 10 years.
I know I have built up a tolerance. Sometimes I have to save extras for when I really need them and I can take 260 MG of morphine ER without feeling anything but of course right now I'm not crushing the pills up.
I have a good amount put away , even muscle relaxers. I also have tons of Zofran.
I am wondering how many morphine ER and Percocet and muscle relaxers I would need to crush up plus the Xanax, muscle relaxers and Percocet so I can just drift off. Even if I have to get alcohol and drink it.
I would also like to know if anyone knows what that girl took for the three day regimen. Please I am begging for your help because I can't do this anymore. I don't want to. I need this to work. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME! This needs to be done right the first time I do it.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I don´t know what to say about the dose I just wanna say damn I feel for you it sounds horrible I seem to remember a guy in the news who had something similar where he talked about euthanasia for people like him because the pain was unbarable.
At the very least with my comment I am bumping your thread.

Are you set on it has to be with these drugs? For example you could use partial hanging

 

[Blackjack]

Your post hurts my heart for you. I'm sorry you're in such pain, it sounds awful.

I'm no medical expert but it sounds as if you may have built up a tolerance to some pretty substantial drugs over the years. Because of that, you may need to consider N or SN.

 

[gingerplum]

I'm horrified. Honestly in a more humane country you'd be medically managed in a Hospice environment.

So, yes, you are going to have a tolerance, but not even close to the worst I've ever seen. 160 mg of ER morphine twice a day is not that much. I know there's the benzos and the percocet, too.

Can you research N (nembutal) using the resources here? Were it me, I would think that might be appropriate. Otherwise, you're looking at a situation where you'd hafta hoard your meds for a really massive overdose.

"I'm so sorry" rings hollow for how badly I feel about your situation, but I really am.

Edit: I can't give you a dosage per se; that makes me nervous. I know it would be a LOT, possibly 2000mg crushed morphine plus Xanax. Alcohol and benzos are notorious for causing respiratory distress.

 

[woxihuanni]

I don't have any useful information to offer, but I am wishing with all my heart that you find your way out of the pain.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Your post hurts my heart for you. I'm sorry you're in such pain, it sounds awful.

I'm no medical expert but it sounds as if you may have built up a tolerance to some pretty substantial drugs over the years. Because of that, you may need to consider N or SN.

Hi can you please tell me what SN is

 

[scorpiooo2]

I cannot even begin to imagine what it must be like for you. I'm sorry you have to live this way, nobody deserves to be in pain all the time.

I don't want this question to come across as rude but, Did it ever get easier to deal with?

 

[Sweet emotion]

I cannot even begin to imagine what it must be like for you. I'm sorry you have to live this way, nobody deserves to be in pain all the time.

I don't want this question to come across as rude but, Did it ever get easier to deal with?

No not al all its unbearable

 

[scorpiooo2]

No not al all its unbearable

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

 

[woxihuanni]

Hi can you please tell me what SN is

Sodium Nitrite. When you can pm, I can send you a link.
Btw, keep posting so you can pm as soon as possible.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Sodium Nitrite. When you can pm, I can send you a link.
Btw, keep posting so you can pm as soon as possible.

OK thanks so much

I'm horrified. Honestly in a more humane country you'd be medically managed in a Hospice environment.

So, yes, you are going to have a tolerance, but not even close to the worst I've ever seen. 160 mg of ER morphine twice a day is not that much. I know there's the benzos and the percocet, too.

Can you research N (nembutal) using the resources here? Were it me, I would think that might be appropriate. Otherwise, you're looking at a situation where you'd hafta hoard your meds for a really massive overdose.

"I'm so sorry" rings hollow for how badly I feel about your situation, but I really am.

Edit: I can't give you a dosage per se; that makes me nervous. I know it would be a LOT, possibly 2000mg crushed morphine plus Xanax. Alcohol and benzos are notorious for causing respiratory distress.

I have 17,540 milligrams of morphine er
I have 2,350 milligrams of percocet 5/325
I have 360 milligrams of xanax 2 Mg's
I have lots of zofran and baclofen will count them

 

[DeathImminent]

I have chronic pain from my ears to teeth on mi right side of face. I can relate, i am choosing SN (sodium nitrite) as my CTB method

 

[Sweet emotion]

I have chronic pain from my ears to teeth on mi right side of face. I can relate, i am choosing SN (sodium nitrite) as my CTB method

I have never heard of this , where would you purchase it and what does CTB stand for sorry, and I'm so sorry you have to deal with your pain

 

[ThriveOrDie]

In my experience you don't get used to the suffering...your tolerance for suffering goes down the longer you suffer. IDK if other people are this way? I have had chronic pain for 15 years, not as bad as OP probably. I feel like I'm doing better than I was a few years ago but the smallest thing could push me over the edge. I feel like I have no tolerance for suffering anymore. Thus my screen name...

I have never heard of this , where would you purchase it and what does CTB stand for sorry, and I'm so sorry you have to deal with your pain

CTB=catch the bus...or commit suicide
SN=Sodium Nitrite...easy to obtain online (Amazon or eBay)

 

[woxihuanni]

I have never heard of this , where would you purchase it and what does CTB stand for sorry, and I'm so sorry you have to deal with your pain

We cannot post shopping links, but pm them. Also you can google it, ebay sells it. CTB stands for catch the bus.

 

[Asta]

Does anyone know about this person that Sweet mentioned? "I came across an article about a girl from Pennsylvania who was a member and she was given help. It said she was given three day regimen and over the counter items for nausea and a list of drugs and how much to take."

Sweet, do you know how long ago you found this article? We could try to look it up here.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Does anyone know about this person that Sweet mentioned? "I came across an article about a girl from Pennsylvania who was a member and she was given help. It said she was given three day regimen and over the counter items for nausea and a list of drugs and how much to take."

Sweet, do you know how long ago you found this article? We could try to look it up here.

Sounds like shawn shatto, although she died from SN.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Does anyone know about this person that Sweet mentioned? "I came across an article about a girl from Pennsylvania who was a member and she was given help. It said she was given three day regimen and over the counter items for nausea and a list of drugs and how much to take."

Sweet, do you know how long ago you found this article? We could try to look it up here.

I found it on https://meaww.com/woman-depressed-p...tions-suicide-assistance-website-parents-warn it said her mother blamed the site, I do not agree with her at all

 

[Asta]

Here's a link to an article entitled, 'Suicide disease' man is pain-free after 20 years of suffering' Don't know if he has the same condition as yours. I'm sorry, I thought the article about the girl told how she found relief or healing.

'Suicide disease' man is pain-free after 20 years of suffering

A man who suffered from 20 years of excruciating agony caused by a medical condition has had his life transformed after treatment.

www.bbc.com

 

[Sweet emotion]

Sounds like shawn shatto, although she died from SN.

Yes that was her, I have never heard of sodium nitrite. I am sorry but I am so naive when it comes to this. So you can just buy it in a store?

 

[Wayfaerer]

Yes that was her, I have never heard of sodium nitrite. I am sorry but I am so naive when it comes to this. So you can just buy it in a store?

You can order it online no problem because it has other practical uses aside from suicide.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Here's a link to an article entitled, 'Suicide disease' man is pain-free after 20 years of suffering' Don't know if he has the same condition as yours. I'm sorry, I thought the article about the girl told how she found relief or healing.

'Suicide disease' man is pain-free after 20 years of suffering

A man who suffered from 20 years of excruciating agony caused by a medical condition has had his life transformed after treatment.

www.bbc.com

I just read it he had trigeminal neuralgia, which is also extremely painful. I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

Yes that was her, I have never heard of sodium nitrite. I am sorry but I am so naive when it comes to this. So you can just buy it in a store?

I ordered mine from walmart website.

 

[gingerplum]

OK thanks so much

I have 17,540 milligrams of morphine er
I have 2,350 milligrams of percocet 5/325
I have 360 milligrams of xanax 2 Mg's
I have lots of zofran and baclofen will count them

Ok, wow. Quite a hoard. That's enough to put you and a couple of heroin-addicted elephants down.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Ok, wow. Quite a hoard. That's enough to put you and a couple of heroin-addicted elephants down.

Yes it is, you made me laugh by saying heroin addicted elephants, that's why I saved them, I assume stop eating the day before, take zofran every 4-6 hours, I'm not sure how much of each med I would need to take though
Thanks everyone will be back on the site later on with more questions

 

[gingerplum]

Yes it is, you made me laugh by saying heroin addicted elephants, that's why I saved them, I assume stop eating the day before, take zofran every 4-6 hours, I'm not sure how much of each med I would need to take though

I'm glad we could share a laugh ;). Yes, fasting for at least 6-12 hrs prior with the Zofran protocol. I'd err on the side of bigger; my God, I would think 3000 mg of Morphine and 100 mg of Xanax wouldn't be survivable in any circumstances, even without alcohol.

I hope it makes you feel better to know you are at least the master of your own fate. You have at least 3 x more than you would need for final dosing.

Edit: Just so you can be assured of how much of an insanely huge buffer you have, here's an article that endorses the lethal dose of morphine at 200 mg. https://www.therecoveryvillage.com/morphine-addiction/morphine-overdose/#gref

 

[k75]

I know this won't help, but I'm so sorry you're dealing with such an excruciating condition. I don't know exactly what you're going through, but I understand how hard it is. I suffer from a different form of incurable chronic pain. It wears you down like nothing else.

 

[s_girl]

I came across an article about a girl from Pennsylvania who was a member and she was given help. It said she was given three day regimen and over the counter items for nausea and a list of drugs and how much to take.
This is what I want, please help me.

I'm sorry to hear about your suffering. The article(s) that you reference are purely media hyperbole... You cannot receive that type of help here.

The help you can find here is a safe place to openly discuss with compassionate others, to help support your decision making process. It's your life and your choice. The only help here is in the form of information and support.

You can find some information to help you here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/

Please read and research for yourself and use the information to make your own choices. Only you can make the decisions for your life. It's your choice and we will support whatever you choose for yourself.

I hope you find the help you're looking for, in whatever form that relief from suffering takes.

 

[spanishguy22]

You remind me of a Guy who had to suicide due to his illness with generalized somatic pain caused by and along other mental ilnesses. Also told about his unrelenting pain behind the eyes head etc especially when he talked.

His name is Adam Maier Clayton he has a YouTube channel with several videos talkin about his condition how he was suffering and he couldnt get eutanasia.
you May relate a lot

 

[Sweet emotion]

I'm glad we could share a laugh ;). Yes, fasting for at least 6-12 hrs prior with the Zofran protocol. I'd err on the side of bigger; my God, I would think 3000 mg of Morphine and 100 mg of Xanax wouldn't be survivable in any circumstances, even without alcohol.

I hope it makes you feel better to know you are at least the master of your own fate. You have at least 3 x more than you would need for final dosing.

Edit: Just so you can be assured of how much of an insanely huge buffer you have, here's an article that endorses the lethal dose of morphine at 200 mg. https://www.therecoveryvillage.com/morphine-addiction/morphine-overdose/#gref

I forgot I also have 360 Mg's of Klonopin , I read that long acting benzos are brother to take along bwith short acting such as xanax which I already said I have