Please help, I feel so bad

[Muse]

Please please, I discovered an horrible thing today and I can't stop crying. My whole body is shaking. I need to ctb as soon as possible. Please help, I feel so bad.
It's the middle of the night here and I am sobbing in my bathroom.

I would kill to have N or SN right now. My entire life is a mess. My pain is so big. I can't live anymore.

 

[cleveland2011]

Me too. I'm so sorry.

 

[Of The Universe]

What happened?? Your post is scarey,we're worried about you!

 

[TheWood]

I'm sorry, if you want to vent what happened?

 

[Muse]

I discovered that my boyfriend will spend 2 days with a bitch. They have booked an hotel room. We had a big argument about that. He would never change. I love that man so much.
I can't stop crying I can't breathe, please please I need to ctb.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

What a horny bastard and typical male !

 

[oziinnz]

I discovered that my boyfriend will spend 2 days with a bitch. They have booked an hotel room. We had a big argument about that. He would never change. I love that man so much.
I can't stop crying I can't breathe, please please I need to ctb.

Don't let him win. He can't be the reason for ctb he's not worth it. I have been cleared on by men I loved and I overcame it.
Think of people who love you who's lives will be ruined by you ctb. Big hugs

 

[TheWood]

I don' t think it's convenient for you ctb in these conditions. Hasty things are worse. However he's a piece of s and don't deserve your displeasure

 

[Lullaby]

OP, I'm so sorry. I went through something similar a few weeks ago.

Trust me, I know how bad you're hurting right now but don't give him the satisfaction. You're so much better than someone who can stoop that low.

 

[LeavingEarly]

Don't let him win. He can't be the reason for ctb he's not worth it. I have been cleared on by men I loved and I overcame it.
Think of people who love you who's lives will be ruined by you ctb. Big hugs

I think she wrote that there is more wrong than just the issue with her boyfriend. OP said that her life was a mess.

 

[Muse]

My life is over. My job is horrible, I can't bear it anymore. I am financially broken. No family. My love life is a nightmare and I am lonely and desperate.

I want to buy SN from i.c but I am afraid to be scammed.
My boyfriend is not the only reason I want to ctb. But he is the cherry on the cake. We had a beautiful relation, for the first time of my life until I discovered the other women. I was very in love with abandonment issues.
Now it is a nightmare. My attachment disorder is atrocious.

At this time he is with that blonde bitch to stay in a beautiful hotel for 2 days.

 

[waitingforrest]

My life is over. My job is horrible, I can't bear it anymore. I am financially broken. No family. My love life is a nightmare and I am lonely and desperate.

I want to buy SN from i.c but I am afraid to be scammed.
My boyfriend is not the only reason I want to ctb. But he is the cherry on the cake. We had a beautiful relation, for the first time of my life until I discovered the other women. I was very in love with abandonment issues.
Now it is a nightmare. My attachment disorder is atrocious.

At this time he is with that blonde bitch to stay in a beautiful hotel for 2 days.

I'm so sorry, people are hard to trust in the first place. And with your life falling apart, that jerk decided to make it worse just for his own pleasure.

I know you love him and finding out what he did only makes it even worse. I don't like to just bash people, but your boyfriend is such a piece of s**t for doing that to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this, some people are just so cruel and awful. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.

 

[Muse]

Thank for your kind words. I think I'm going to order SN from i.c.
Life is just so cruel and things never become easier. I fought all my entire shitty life. I had hope. But I failed.

Thinking of him and her in a bed just kills me. I don't even know what time is it, I spent the day taking sleeping pills.

 

[jimmy7754]

Thank for your kind words. I think I'm going to order SN from i.c.
Life is just so cruel and things never become easier. I fought all my entire shitty life. I had hope. But I failed.

Thinking of him and her in a bed just kills me. I don't even know what time is it, I spent the day taking sleeping pills.

I'm sorry I've known a lot of that in my life too.. as early as high school I was cheated on.. it's terrible and it can be very unbearable.. I'm only partially fucked up from relationships because after experiencing so much hurt I just told myself I had to figure this out ultimately on my own.. then here I am.. I became my own worst enemy.. my greatest nightmare.. I wish I was dead already.

 

[Muse]

I'm so sorry for you. Life is a nightmare. I don't know why we must suffer a lot.

 

[rabbitlinnt10]

I just wanna tell you there's nothing I can say that will change the revoltingly intense feelings you're experiencing because that would be undermining how immense your suffering is right now.

But your feelings are valid, your feelings will always be valid and you deserve so much better. I'm sorry people have let you down while disrespecting you and trampled on your heart. I know what you're going through as this happened to me, you deserve peace, you deserve to be free and you deserve to get what you want and desire and no one should deny that

 

[Zeus35]

Please please, I discovered an horrible thing today and I can't stop crying. My whole body is shaking. I need to ctb as soon as possible. Please help, I feel so bad.
It's the middle of the night here and I am sobbing in my bathroom.

I would kill to have N or SN right now. My entire life is a mess. My pain is so big. I can't live anymore.

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My life is over. My job is horrible, I can't bear it anymore. I am financially broken. No family. My love life is a nightmare and I am lonely and desperate.

I want to buy SN from i.c but I am afraid to be scammed.
My boyfriend is not the only reason I want to ctb. But he is the cherry on the cake. We had a beautiful relation, for the first time of my life until I discovered the other women. I was very in love with abandonment issues.
Now it is a nightmare. My attachment disorder is atrocious.

At this time he is with that blonde bitch to stay in a beautiful hotel for 2 days.

I didn't know you had an attachment disorder. I have one to if you want to talk. So I understand. It's been a while since I've had a boyfriend almost a year ago. The previous one created on me to. I found out on his birthday. If you want a chat I'm here until 1am or 2am. Do you have BPD? Borderline personality disorder? Sorry if I'm over stepping the mark. If you need a chat I'm here. I also have abandonment issues to.

 

[Muse]

Just sent you a pm.

 

[MatthewV3]

Well, I don't exactly know what to say beacause I have never experienced anything like this, I've never been in relationship. But maybe rethink that. Maybe being cheated is not a good reason to CTB. You're under strong emotions now and suicide should be rational decision in my opinion. Any way, sending you hugs

 

[CrazyNihilist]

I feel your pain and am sorry you are having a rough go with life. I get it and as other have said, your feelings are valid. At least on this site, you know your not alone in feeling this way about life in general. Sending you big virtual hugs.