Please god just kill me

[Iva]

I'm drunk at the moment. Please let the record show that I CTB'd over something so pathetic and stupid. Something so embarrassing that I couldn't even put it in the title. I was circumcised at birth like most males born in the united states. the thought of losing even 1% of sensitivity makes me want to kill myself. Am i wrong to think like this? Am i pathetic or is it justified to feel vulnerable and powerless like this when something was performed on me as an infant? If only my parents chose "no" when they asked them if they'd like to circumcise me. Now it's too late. I'll never know the true joy of sex and it's too late to reverse the injustice done unto me. CTB is the only option in my brain now. I'm an american, obviously so access to a firearm isn't farfetch'd that's it for me. If anyone else feels equally inadequate thanks to their involuntary circumcision, please say something now. It might just save my life. Sorry for typing in such extremes I am incredibly drunk at the moment. FUCK INVOLUNTARY CIRCUMCISION AND FUCK MY PARENTS.

 

[Watlock]

Genital mutilation on infants is fucking vile. I'm so sorry they did that to you. I hope that whatever you decide to do is what makes you the happiest. You did not deserve to be disfigured by the people who are suppose to protect you.

 

[Iva]

Genital mutilation on infants is fucking vile. I'm so sorry they did that to you. I hope that whatever you decide to do is what makes you the happiest. You did not deserve to be disfigured by the people who are suppose to protect you.

thank you. this is the first time in my life someone has said something to me other than: "there's more to life than sex-- get over it." and that truly means SO much to me. thank you for understanding. if i knew you in real life, I know that we'd become great friends.

 

[Watlock]

thank you. this is the first time in my life someone has said something to me other than: "there's more to life than sex-- get over it." and that truly means SO much to me. thank you for understanding. if i knew you in real life, I know that we'd become great friends.

This life is unending torture and filled with remorseless people who are just as miserable as us but try to "high road" as if they are any better. The same people who are judging you for wanting to experience sex how it was meant to be experienced, are the same people who have their own set of vices. If there is something in this terminally ill world that can make you forget the constant suffering, I would say partake as much as you like. Be passionate about whatever it is because unless you're part of a very small subset of people, this world will beat you into unhappiness no matter what unfortunately.

 

[Iva]

This life is unending torture and filled with remorseless people who are just as miserable as us but try to "high road" as if they are any better. The same people who are judging you for wanting to experience sex how it was meant to be experienced, are the same people who have their own set of vices. If there is something in this terminally ill world that can make you forget the constant suffering, I would say partake as much as you like. Be passionate about whatever it is because unless you're part of a very small subset of people, this world will beat you into unhappiness no matter what unfortunately.

The only ecstasy still granted to the race of men is laying flat on your back and staring at the ceiling as you imagine the peacefullness of a life without want. I imagine death is like life but completely devoid of desire.

 

[yyytry]

I'm drunk at the moment. Please let the record show that I CTB'd over something so pathetic and stupid. Something so embarrassing that I couldn't even put it in the title. I was circumcised at birth like most males born in the united states. the thought of losing even 1% of sensitivity makes me want to kill myself. Am i wrong to think like this? Am i pathetic or is it justified to feel vulnerable and powerless like this when something was performed on me as an infant? If only my parents chose "no" when they asked them if they'd like to circumcise me. Now it's too late. I'll never know the true joy of sex and it's too late to reverse the injustice done unto me. CTB is the only option in my brain now. I'm an american, obviously so access to a firearm isn't farfetch'd that's it for me. If anyone else feels equally inadequate thanks to their involuntary circumcision, please say something now. It might just save my life. Sorry for typing in such extremes I am incredibly drunk at the moment. FUCK INVOLUNTARY CIRCUMCISION AND FUCK MY PARENTS.

I had no idea circumcision changes or reduces pleasure

 

[dwindlingfirst]

I had no idea circumcision changes or reduces pleasure

It doesn't. Like he said, he was drunk when he wrote this.

 

[cami]

hey my love. my first partner was circumcised and i can assure you we were very happy and had a fulfilling sex life. there are people out there who will love you, and not care whether you have undergone genital mutilation. this isn't something you're alone in, and i would urge you to not ctb over this, or do anything permanent whilst you're drunk. we're all here for you <3

 

[Aisley]

1. Not gonna tell you sex means nothing, because sometimes it's everything.
2. Something my circumsized husband says, is the last thing the average guy needs is more sentsitivity to his equipment. And most women would agree with that. Guys cum early enough as it is.
3. This one time, years ago when I was a filthy slut with no standards, this guy took me home, and we worked our way naked, and I got down there to start shit up, you know? And I said, "jesus, what is that?" Turned out it was his foreskin, and I learned I did have a limit. Not putting that ... And I'm sorry to all uncircumsized men out there!!! Personal taste is just that, and all I can speak to is my own!!! But I'm not putting that in my mouth. An awkward exit followed, and I'm sure he doesn't enjoy the memory either. But it was fucking gross. Like dicks don't have it bad enough, you know?
That is all, and I'll see myself out once more...

 

[luci_lived]

I'm 33 but a female. I've had sex with all different kinds— circumcised and not. I had an ex who was circumcised, he loved sex and we had it 3-5 times a day. I also have a gay best friend who got circumcised in his mid twenties and he doesn't feel any different.

 

[ForsakenStar]

It doesn't. Like he said, he was drunk when he wrote this.

Yeah it does. Get your bullshit out of here, thanks.

 

[Iva]

It doesn't. Like he said, he was drunk when he wrote this.

sorry, i was pretty hammered last night and don't actually remember making this post, but now I have to stand by it because my feelings when I made this post are definitely true.
It's more of the fact that something was done unto me without my consent. My father is uncircumcised (born in europe) so they had no reason to circumcise me. It seems almost like a punishment. If I didn't like being uncircumcised, I could go to a doctor as an adult and get circumcised. But they circumcised me at birth and therefore I can't reattach the skin they removed from me if I don't like being circumcised. I am disgusted by the fact a permanent and elective surgery was performed on me without me knowing and I was already an adult when I discovered what circumcision is and that I am circumcised. I want to be uncircumcised but can never be. That fact alone-- that a choice was removed from me is so heartbreaking and insecurities of a sexual nature TRULY EAT AWAY AT YOUR SOUL.

 

[Sweet Tart]

The medical field often does brutality to our bodies in the process of "helping". They often work with incomplete or skewed information based on social conventions rather than actual facts. I'm so sorry you were circumcised against your will.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Have you tried aphrodisiacs? They might be useful in increasing pleasure (I was thinking of getting damiana, although as a substitute for cannabis).

 

[SVEN]

It's a bummer that your parents had this procedure carried out on you not realising just how much it would impact on your later views as an adult.
Most of my circumcised Jewish mates seem to enjoy a pretty good and enjoyable sex life (and yes, of course sex is important) so I'm hoping that you can still achieve some degree of satisfaction. After all, we could have both been born impotent or grotesquely deformed in that area.
Now, that truly would have pissed me off something horrid !

 

[NoLightRemains]

It really hurts when the people that are supposed to be your protectors ruin your body for life just to conform to society's expectations. Just the complete lack of power is hard to grapple with. My experiences are a bit different but I also struggle with sexual insecurities. Sorry you are struggling with this.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm so sorry you were subjected to this barbaric act as a child.
It was an act of utter stupidity and selfishness by your parents to allow this to happen.
Why on earth is this still allowed to happen when it serves no purpose.
It's horrifying.

 

[dwindlingfirst]

sorry, i was pretty hammered last night and don't actually remember making this post, but now I have to stand by it because my feelings when I made this post are definitely true.
It's more of the fact that something was done unto me without my consent. My father is uncircumcised (born in europe) so they had no reason to circumcise me. It seems almost like a punishment. If I didn't like being uncircumcised, I could go to a doctor as an adult and get circumcised. But they circumcised me at birth and therefore I can't reattach the skin they removed from me if I don't like being circumcised. I am disgusted by the fact a permanent and elective surgery was performed on me without me knowing and I was already an adult when I discovered what circumcision is and that I am circumcised. I want to be uncircumcised but can never be. That fact alone-- that a choice was removed from me is so heartbreaking and insecurities of a sexual nature TRULY EAT AWAY AT YOUR SOUL.

I do feel empathy for you, especially since it's against your will, but do you know they circumcise to help prevent some nasty diseases you can end up getting from being uncircumcised?

 

[Iva]

I do feel empathy for you, especially since it's against your will, but do you know they circumcise to help prevent some nasty diseases you can end up getting from being uncircumcised?

How nasty are said diseases?

 

[dwindlingfirst]

How nasty are said diseases?

"Several studies have shown that compared with circumcised men, uncircumcised men are at higher risk for acquiring some sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) including chancroid, chlamydia, gonorrhoea, syphilis,1​–​3​ and lower risk for acquiring genital herpes and genital warts."

I looked it up and this is what came up

 

[Iva]

"Several studies have shown that compared with circumcised men, uncircumcised men are at higher risk for acquiring some sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) including chancroid, chlamydia, gonorrhoea, syphilis,1​–​3​ and lower risk for acquiring genital herpes and genital warts."

I looked it up and this is what came up

I guess that's fairly reasonable... I still would've liked to have been able to make the decision with my own volition.

 

[dwindlingfirst]

I guess that's fairly reasonable... I still would've liked to have been able to make the decision with my own volition.

Yeah, I understand your frustration

 

[Iva]

Yeah, I understand your frustration

thanks for taking the time to speak with me about this, it's actually made me feel a bit better and I am very, very grateful for that.