Venting Plans & Frustration

[Jai]

As always the fucking universe manages to get in the way of well laid plans I'm beyond anger.

This isn't the first time either I'll have weeks to initiate and plan my dimise but when I decide to figuratively pull the trigger some unseen obstacle materializes out of thin air and it's becoming a pattern too obvious and far too coincidental.

Example my sure fire no fail next attempt was beautifully planned with all pieces falling into place I just had to buy time to the latter half of November, however I started to show signs of being pysically hindered to the point I ended up losing the use of my legs and arms obviously this merited a ER trip where I was diagnosed with Gullian Barre Syndrome I had treatment and now it's anything from weeks to months and even years for a recovery been in hospital for 3 weeks and still fucked can't walk or stand or have full use of my hands either gods having a laugh or some other malevolent force is just taking the piss it's almost like I'm not supposed to top myself.

Anyone else experience anything like this were the universe works against them are am I'm being punished for my sins and suffering alone or has someone cast a curse on me.

Either way this is fucking pathetic what I wouldn't do for a fag and a pint and a gun.

 

[Xerxes]

Same. Universe works against me often. I don't expect any of my plans to succeed, but it doesn't hurt to go overboard with something. Society loves to see us suffer so they can use us as a scapegoat for every known problem that exists with man. Media loves suicide victims. Hospitals love us because they can test their drugs on us.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I empathize, it is a fucking curse. I just want to get the hell out of here but there's always a barrior in the way. Barriors being mostly people who refuse to mind their business and insist on keeping you here at all costs. What a world.

 

[TiredHorse]

No such thing as sure-fire, no-fail. Ye gods --all the gods! Any gods!-- I sure know that, by now.

 

[Jai]

No such thing as sure-fire, no-fail. Ye gods --all the gods! Any gods!-- I sure know that, by now.

Well if a blast to the brainstem off a extremely high cliff into a body of water in the freezing winter in a area so isolated I'll barely see aNY signs of life I don't know how much sure fire you can be , my local news this morning had a car crash at an intesection a people carrier hit a compact car at about 45 mph 4 people in the carrier died all airbags deployed and all seat belts worn the dead were middle aged I thi k one in their late 20s and a child not a scratch on the people in the other car so what I'm saying is if you can die at moderate speed in a car crash blowing half your head off plummeting to your death from height into almost freezing water were no help will be I'm pretty sure my failure rate is around 0.5% with that being divine intervention as seeing god doesn't exist I'm 100% I'll be dead before my body falls

 

[TiredHorse]

Yes, but when you try and arrange everything perfectly, Fate too often mocks us by sending the best laid plans awry. The phone rings as you're about to pull the trigger, and your flinch means you only blow off your face. As you go to step off the cliff, you slip, twist your ankle, and that's where the paramedics find you.

And then there are those four people who smiled as they buckled their seat belts, drove away confident about their airbags --and died.

It's not that there aren't methods that work, it's that nothing is ever as sure-fire as we'd like it to be.

Chance is a fickle bitch.

 

[Jai]

Yes, but when you try and arrange everything perfectly, Fate too often mocks us by sending the best laid plans awry. The phone rings as you're about to pull the trigger, and your flinch means you only blow off your face. As you go to step off the cliff, you slip, twist your ankle, and that's where the paramedics find you.

And then there are those four people who smiled as they buckled their seat belts, drove away confident about their airbags --and died.

It's not that there aren't methods that work, it's that nothing is ever as sure-fire as we'd like it to be.

Your right to the extent that the universe may intervene but honestly there's no way back from my plan I can't see it failing same as beachy head don't believe anyone's lived anyone who jumps off that is dead full proof fail proof unless superman turns up and swoops in to save them

Chance is a fickle bitch.

Your right to the extent that the universe may intervene but honestly there's no way back from my plan I can't see it failing same as beachy head don't believe anyone has survived who jumps your dead fail and full proof unless superman turns up and swoops in to save them