ladolcemorte
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 286
My parents were supposed to come next Wednesday and take me and my stuff back to their place. (I am off work and on disability and I can't afford 1200 a month in rent.)
I had made the decision to drink the amitriptyline cocktail on Friday, and then have a delayed email to police for Monday. That would give plenty of time for me to die and for the police to inform my parents so they could call off their trip. I had all the ingredients for the cocktail. (It took a lot of planning to get them).
Now my parents have advised that they are coming TOMORROW, which means I don't have a big enough window for the amitriptyline cocktail. My mother is even going to call when they leave tomorrow morning, and I'm pretty sure she will call the police if I don't answer, since she knows that I have been feeling on edge. I suppose I could try the cocktail and hope that I die at the very outer limit of the prediction, which is 12 hours, or that I do enough damage that I die in the hospital anyway...but I don't have the guaranteed 24 hours that PPH recommends. Other sources say it could be even two to three days and I definitely don't have that...I had planned for that but now I don't have it.
If I get back to my parents house, I definitely won't have the privacy to do the cocktail, which is why I put so much planning into getting it done this weekend. Now my beautiful opportunity is gone and I have no idea what to do.
I had made the decision to drink the amitriptyline cocktail on Friday, and then have a delayed email to police for Monday. That would give plenty of time for me to die and for the police to inform my parents so they could call off their trip. I had all the ingredients for the cocktail. (It took a lot of planning to get them).
Now my parents have advised that they are coming TOMORROW, which means I don't have a big enough window for the amitriptyline cocktail. My mother is even going to call when they leave tomorrow morning, and I'm pretty sure she will call the police if I don't answer, since she knows that I have been feeling on edge. I suppose I could try the cocktail and hope that I die at the very outer limit of the prediction, which is 12 hours, or that I do enough damage that I die in the hospital anyway...but I don't have the guaranteed 24 hours that PPH recommends. Other sources say it could be even two to three days and I definitely don't have that...I had planned for that but now I don't have it.
If I get back to my parents house, I definitely won't have the privacy to do the cocktail, which is why I put so much planning into getting it done this weekend. Now my beautiful opportunity is gone and I have no idea what to do.