Yea,the manufacturer site has specs sheets and says it's above 96% purity so ig it's fine
Guys could y'all help me out please what's sd and jm, I'm from India too and need a source desperately
yea same
Don't remember seeing any from India. But people have CTB from doing SN seen news articles
I was scrolling around and i hope you got what you needed. I also don't like to beg and or be so desperate. its a terrible feeling and I hope if there is a higher power, it stops putting people in this position
It's awful. I cannot think of a time in my life where I have asked for help before, let alone begged. I pretty much taught myself how to read & write & ride a bike etc so it goes way back - a part of who I am. And yet here, all I do is beg & I literally find it both demeaning & disgusting. It's hard to hate yourself over this when it's supposed to be the last thing you do. And I'm still here. Missing deadlines. Life is worse & I legit cannot believe that either. I ended up with what I hope is DMC but am yet to test. I did not find a verifiable second source - people on SaSu have been so generous with help, I won't complain about what I didn't get. But if it's not legit SN or it's been damaged or whatever, I'm completely fucked. Beyond fucked. I can't stay here forever but I could set up a PO Box if I had a source that was verified & gets to Australia quickly. I'd be over the fucking moon. I cannot cannot cannot believe I'm still here. That I didn't get a backup source & just fucking go. Just life circumstances & a few poor choices. My health is deteriorating. My life is obscenely awful - there are no words.
Be proud of how you lived thus far. You did a lot. I'm so sorry that you are still suffering. I know that feeling all too well. Test the DMC and see if its legit. Take this all a step at a time. Overall I want you to be happy and healthy and find your peace that way but if you can't I hope you get your peace by CTB. The good news is that you have at least once source, a back up would be nice ofc but you have one and that is still a good thing! I hope in the future assisted dying is so much more acceptable but I don't think it will ever be since it doesn't make money. Big Pharma would lose out on the chronically ill. I pray you find your peaceful end to suffering. I think I believe in higher power, the universe. I just don't know how to fully align with it. But I believe some things might be pre-written for us. I honestly don't know tho. Either way, its garbage. I understand. I'm such a different person now. The physical illnesses in my 20s (i'm late 20s now) has really derailed my life and tbh took my spark. Until I hit my 20s my life was good comparatively to be honest. Thank you for being so kind. Also feel free to PM during this journey. I know it can be exhausting. Best wishes for you
Thanks. Mine defs came from Ukraine so that's a start at least
I agree wholeheartedly with what you said about the universe & aligning with it. I think I could potentially live with how shit my life is, I can endure the unendurable, I know that to be true. There's a quote about being trained to expect nothing & then accept even less - that's me. I promised myself I'd break the abusive cycles & I failed. But combined with the physical ill health, & being toyed with like a cat with a mouse, it's too much. Everyone's dying, some faster than others. I know without further medical intervention I'll die sooner anyway - I've completely stopped going to the doctor because genetics lets me know what each step looks like - but I'd still be a fair way from qualifying for assisted dying. I "think" I could speed up the process etc but it's too risky - I don't want to die a protracted death & I don't want to do endless treatments that are futile. So I guess, I want to end the pain I'm in now (physically & emotionally) but it's also about preventing future health stuff that I don't want to go through. As someone twice your age, I'm very sorry that you're suffering health issues. I'm very sorry that it led you here. There has to be a better way. If I could just go to a doc & say end it & they could do it, it's the dream. I would rather that than winning a billion dollars. If I won a billion dollars, I'd still rather CTB. You're so young, I hope there's ways things can improve for you. I can't ever encourage to CTB, that's just wrong. But I also don't ever want to diminish someone's experience - I can't know your pain. So we all have to do what we have to do - yank ourselves up by our bootstraps & choose life or choose death. And that's either bleak as fuck or a hope for the future. I'm not changing my mind but I wish I could speed this up. Every extra day is tearing me up inside. And you're not wrong abut the exhaustion… take care
I'm in the same position as you. I don't want to be on this forum, but I have an untreatable neurological disorder that has irreversibly shattered my quality of life. It feels horrible to beg for help. I'll be on sasu for as long as it takes to build enough trust to be sent an SN source and no longer - straight off to ctb. I can't live like this.
SN is not longer available on JM and SD. I doubt they would come up again. Govt seems to be following its counterparts
Thanks
Acronyms used on here to describe different suppliers of SN - not the real names.
