Help Planning to eventually cbt with a train, but question

[ForgiveMeFriends]

So as you have read, I plan on cbt'ing with a train, I'm fully aware it's a selfish way to die, and it was supposed to be a last resort but I've given up. I want to ensure death but I'm worried the cowcatcher/pilot at the front of all the trains I've seen is only going to get my head stuck, injure me and/or massively 'push' me off the train tracks

Is the pilot at the front of the train going to interfere with my attempt?

 

[getoutgirl]

Hi.
Nice to hear back from you. I remember you asking over a month ago how to be sure if suicide is right for you and then not logging back in... Sorry to hear that question has resolved itself that way, not a great one, and that you are in such pain and desperate to be considering that method of all.

I could tell you what I told this person

Going to CTB via train soon, how can I combat SI?

My only worry is that SI will kick in and cause me to fail. I don't know if I'll have to courage to go through with it. I plan on laying my head on the tracks to get decapitated. I can get access to some substances but I fear that'll only hinder my ability to follow through successfully. What...

sanctioned-suicide.net

In regards of its effectiveness, which depends a lot on when you receive the impact. + also the type of train I don't think I mentioned then cos they said theirs was a high speed train. If yours isn't, that lowers the fatality substantially.
Like I said there the train can lower its speed if its sees you, it depends on your positioning, timing and a lot of factors. It's not as easy as it might seeem and there are risks of injury or painful death. Thats just this site's trademark with its methods, best to be honest with risks.

Still
Like I also told that person and you seem to be aware of yourself.
I really really would not recommend you take that method. I understand the desperation. But not just out of its risks, but the trauma it can cause on others. If there are witnesses that messes people up Bad, it's gory, if not just for that pilot. I would never call a suicidal person selfish, because I know you are just in tremendous pain and desperate. I would prefer if you didn't do it that way and I have to say that.
Hold on if you can, maybe to other methods, maybe to anything else that might not involve death. Don't know how your situation is rn or if those doubts and conflict still exist in you. Whatever the case, I cannot recommend this method at all. If you want to vent or chat or anything please do. If not just take these days as easy as you can, It doesn't seem it'll be easy based on what you said, but still all my hugs to you <3