My thought about this, having attempted several methods I preferred but which did not result in the desired outcome, is to suggest that you do what you want that is your preference and within your capability, but don't be attached to the outcome. If it works, you've accomplished what you sought. If you do not accomplish what you seek for whatever reason, you can then reevaluate and either try again having gained new knowledge; seek another method and once again plan according to your will and your capabilities; or set aside the goal and focus on other things at hand.
All of this supports and maintains equanimity. Passionate emotions and rigid attachment to desired outcomes lead to bad decisions and loss of control in thought and action. Calmness, rationality, and acceptance of any potential outcome lead to self-assuredness and the ability to manage any outcome.
Again, having experienced this, I was calm going into it, knew the method may not result in my death, and I was not thrown off when it failed and therefore did not feel traumatized by the experience. Each time, I mainted awareness of what I was doing, paid attention to what I was feeling physically and emotionally, and remained ever more calm and aware with each subsequent attempt. There are other methods available to me which will require more of me to ensure success, and I have to weigh out risks and what I know I am and am not capable of. If it requires more capability, then I have to do more mental preparation so that I do not feel traumatized by the attempt, even if I am assured that it will have the desired result. I don't want to die a traumatic or distressing death if I can in any way control that.
