Plan

[Powderedmonster]

Full suspension hanging. Date undecided, but hoping soon. Planning on telling my mom that I'm going to a friend's house overnight (don't have any friends but I had someone over this summer so I'll just say it's the same person) then head to a national forest. Leave the house at around 7 pm, turn phone off (so location can't be tracked), go to home depot and buy rope (my parents keep stealing mine from my room), turn phone back on, wait a few hours for my mom to text goodnight at around 11/12, then turn phone off and head to the national forest. I have the location plugged into my GPS already (national forest) as well as a notecard with directions of how to get from the google maps destination on my GPS to the actual forest area (used google earth to do this and wrote walking directions on my notecard.) Notecard is in a swim bag in my car (parents think it's for swimming), along with my notebook full of suicide notes and journal entries about how SSRIs ruined my life (so my parents know why I died.) Have alcohol packed away in my car for survival instinct as well as a towel to help the pain. Thinking of adding some more padding or a scarf but I can probably deal with a few seconds of pain for eternity at peace. Just in case i can't deal with the pain though-I'm wondering if taking tylenol and kratom would help numb the pain? Kratom is a natural opioid basically. What do you guys think of this? I'm going to test hang myself again as soon as I get another rope and before it gets confiscated again, so i'm going to judge just how painful it'll be, but last time I did this with a thin climbing rope it was like hell so I might need to pack some painkillers.

TLDR: Plan: full suspension hanging, telling mom going to a friend's house, texting her goodnight at around 11, turning phone off so location can't be tracked, heading to national forest using car GPS, hanging myself from one of the trees in the national forest at around 1/2 am so nobody will find me. Packed suicide notes, alcohol for SI, and perhaps some painkillers for the pain in my car. My main goal is not to end up brain damaged and end my life 100%. What do you guys think about this plan.

 

[mk47]

Full suspension hanging. Date undecided, but hoping soon. Planning on telling my mom that I'm going to a friend's house overnight (don't have any friends but I had someone over this summer so I'll just say it's the same person) then head to a national forest. Leave the house at around 7 pm, turn phone off (so location can't be tracked), go to home depot and buy rope (my parents keep stealing mine from my room), turn phone back on, wait a few hours for my mom to text goodnight at around 11/12, then turn phone off and head to the national forest. I have the location plugged into my GPS already (national forest) as well as a notecard with directions of how to get from the google maps destination on my GPS to the actual forest area (used google earth to do this and wrote walking directions on my notecard.) Notecard is in a swim bag in my car (parents think it's for swimming), along with my notebook full of suicide notes and journal entries about how SSRIs ruined my life (so my parents know why I died.) Have alcohol packed away in my car for survival instinct as well as a towel to help the pain. Thinking of adding some more padding or a scarf but I can probably deal with a few seconds of pain for eternity at peace. Just in case i can't deal with the pain though-I'm wondering if taking tylenol and kratom would help numb the pain? Kratom is a natural opioid basically. What do you guys think of this? I'm going to test hang myself again as soon as I get another rope and before it gets confiscated again, so i'm going to judge just how painful it'll be, but last time I did this with a thin climbing rope it was like hell so I might need to pack some painkillers.

TLDR: Plan: full suspension hanging, telling mom going to a friend's house, texting her goodnight at around 11, turning phone off so location can't be tracked, heading to national forest using car GPS, hanging myself from one of the trees in the national forest at around 1/2 am so nobody will find me. Packed suicide notes, alcohol for SI, and perhaps some painkillers for the pain in my car. My main goal is not to end up brain damaged and end my life 100%. What do you guys think about this plan.

All the weight of your body will be on your neck. You will feel as if you're choking, it won't be pleasant, and opiates won't change anything. Full suspension hanging is considered cruel and unusual, if there is no drop to break your neck and kill you. If you really want to do this, get hammered and just do it. Opiates won't give you the just fuck it mentality. Or you could consider long drop hanging.

 

[Powderedmonster]

All the weight of your body will be on your neck. You will feel as if you're choking, it won't be pleasant, and opiates won't change anything. Full suspension hanging is considered cruel and unusual, if there is no drop to break your neck and kill you. If you really want to do this, get hammered and just do it. Opiates won't give you the just fuck it mentality. Or you could consider long drop hanging.

Gonna probably go get another rope (smh) and test hang myself full suspension a few times (putting noose around neck and lifting both feet off the floor) to really test the pain out. I've only lasted like 1/2 second-a second with this so tomorrow I'm gonna get another rope and really test it out for longer than a second. If it's bearable then all I'll have to do is make the trip to the national forest. If it's painful as hell I'll need to make other arrangements (more padding, find a sweet spot if possible) or simply continue hanging myself like that until I get used to the pain and just do it one day no looking back. I gotta get out of here, if it take 15 seconds of agony I can probably deal with that. I'm more concerned about the psychological aspect of killing myself, idk if my distress tolerance is high enough to be able to get through the anxiety of the whole situation. Even thinking about driving to the forest gives me high anxiety tbh. I hope the alcohol calms me down but it hasn't in the past tbh, I've attempted twice drunk and it didn't really help.

 

[BPD_LE]

Similar to my plan. I'm doing full in a forest too. I'm using a dog slip lead. I'm doing a short drop, jumping into it. You should pass out quickly. I wouldn't worry about pain. If the rope is placed correctly we'll feel very little.

 

[MidLifeCrisis]

Climbing ropes are designed to stretch to break a fall. When I was researching hanging I concluded that they are not suitable, a strong rope with low elasticity is best.

 

[Qverty7455]

Full suspension hanging. Date undecided, but hoping soon. Planning on telling my mom that I'm going to a friend's house overnight (don't have any friends but I had someone over this summer so I'll just say it's the same person) then head to a national forest. Leave the house at around 7 pm, turn phone off (so location can't be tracked), go to home depot and buy rope (my parents keep stealing mine from my room), turn phone back on, wait a few hours for my mom to text goodnight at around 11/12, then turn phone off and head to the national forest. I have the location plugged into my GPS already (national forest) as well as a notecard with directions of how to get from the google maps destination on my GPS to the actual forest area (used google earth to do this and wrote walking directions on my notecard.) Notecard is in a swim bag in my car (parents think it's for swimming), along with my notebook full of suicide notes and journal entries about how SSRIs ruined my life (so my parents know why I died.) Have alcohol packed away in my car for survival instinct as well as a towel to help the pain. Thinking of adding some more padding or a scarf but I can probably deal with a few seconds of pain for eternity at peace. Just in case i can't deal with the pain though-I'm wondering if taking tylenol and kratom would help numb the pain? Kratom is a natural opioid basically. What do you guys think of this? I'm going to test hang myself again as soon as I get another rope and before it gets confiscated again, so i'm going to judge just how painful it'll be, but last time I did this with a thin climbing rope it was like hell so I might need to pack some painkillers.

TLDR: Plan: full suspension hanging, telling mom going to a friend's house, texting her goodnight at around 11, turning phone off so location can't be tracked, heading to national forest using car GPS, hanging myself from one of the trees in the national forest at around 1/2 am so nobody will find me. Packed suicide notes, alcohol for SI, and perhaps some painkillers for the pain in my car. My main goal is not to end up brain damaged and end my life 100%. What do you guys think about this plan.

It's a good plan but the pain is terrible. I don't think there is anything more painful. Maybe bullet to the stomach? But it shouldn't take that long but these seconds or maybe minute or so ? Won't be really pleasant. Good part is once you jump there is no coming back. I tried it so I know how it works and hurts but I did at home and had sofa nearby so was able to climb there.

 

[Johanna94]

Similar to my plan. I'm doing full in a forest too. I'm using a dog slip lead. I'm doing a short drop, jumping into it. You should pass out quickly. I wouldn't worry about pain. If the rope is placed correctly we'll feel very little.

How should the rope be placed, so I do it correct and pass out quick?