Plan to ctb at 40

[Intelligent_Panic99]

I finally decided on a date. My 40th birthday. I can't even believe I have dragged myself this far. I know how (N); where (hotel in the city); when. It gives me about four months to get my life in order and to plan the trip (I want to make sure I have a few days where no one will try to contact me). I will tell family and friends (if they ask which they probably won't) that this is a trip to celebrate my 40th I am taking with "other friends". Just having the N has already brought a lot of peace to me. Still I want to be absolutely sure so I plan to really commit to therapy and meds for the next four months (I am bipolar and this is pretty hard for me) so I can be 100% sure. I am on my meds now and my psych thinks I am stable, so I don't think this is me being impulsive.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be such a relief having the option of a peaceful way to exit at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[wearingmyheart]

I can imagine that it must be such a relief having the option of a peaceful way to exit at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

im new here and i see you in every post. how come you have so much time to comment in every post? curious.

 

[Lost Magic]

Me too. I want to be gone before my 40th (drinking N too). Plus I have severe mental illness to battle and I don't want to drag it over to another decade of existence. I hope all goes well for you.

 

[NorseHel]

Whichever path you choose, wishing you all the best. I admire your resolve either way.

 

[FuneralCry]

im new here and i see you in every post. how come you have so much time to comment in every post? curious.

We are not supposed to derail threads, if you want to ask me something then post it on my profile page. Anyway, I do not do much at all. I have a lot of time, in fact too much time. I wish you the best.

 

[Intelligent_Panic99]

I just did the math. 121 days. Can I wait that long? Today I feel it so much. I wrote the dean and dropped out of law school. No point in spending more money if I am going to CTB anyway.