
SchrodingerIsDed
Strength fades; Trust Shatters in Shadows of Fear.
- Feb 17, 2025
- 253
Fucking bullshit. I went through all kinds of hell for the last MONTH trying to get this shit, and I can't even tell if it's legitimate or not. Testing strips come back ENTIRELY negative for nitrite for this supposedly 99%. Melting point test is a pain in the ass because it takes so long to get to 271C, I haven't even been able to get it there even with an oil bath.
The nitrite test I have goes up to 25ppm. The test on the forum says to get the 10ppm, but I figured more would be better, but I dumped like 100g into water to get ANY result and NOTHING happens. NO colors.
I'm so fucking frustrated right now. I'm pissed. I need to find a way to get sa. That test is simple. It'll fucking explode if it comes in contact with metal so I just throw a small piece on a tin can and make a small boom, then I'll fucking know. And there's no antidote. But NO ONE sells that shit easily since it is so dangerous to transport.
I, just like many of us I'm sure, just want a fucking "GO TO SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP" button god damn it.
Maybe I should just skip all this stupid shit and just fucking shoot myself in the head. But I've had my gun for awhile now and I just don't want to do it that way. Even though I do. I can't fail again, so I'm not going to leave it to one method. I'm so tired of this. I feel like I'm never going to get this to work, and I feel so fucking stupid and ineffectual.
The nitrite test I have goes up to 25ppm. The test on the forum says to get the 10ppm, but I figured more would be better, but I dumped like 100g into water to get ANY result and NOTHING happens. NO colors.
I'm so fucking frustrated right now. I'm pissed. I need to find a way to get sa. That test is simple. It'll fucking explode if it comes in contact with metal so I just throw a small piece on a tin can and make a small boom, then I'll fucking know. And there's no antidote. But NO ONE sells that shit easily since it is so dangerous to transport.
I, just like many of us I'm sure, just want a fucking "GO TO SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP" button god damn it.
Maybe I should just skip all this stupid shit and just fucking shoot myself in the head. But I've had my gun for awhile now and I just don't want to do it that way. Even though I do. I can't fail again, so I'm not going to leave it to one method. I'm so tired of this. I feel like I'm never going to get this to work, and I feel so fucking stupid and ineffectual.
