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Dec 24, 2023
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ctb tomorrow night , i have 65 pills vortoxicalm/brintellix(antidepressant), 10 mg (vortioxetine) that was prescribed for me for depression by my doctor but i stopped taking it bc its so weak and it doesnt have any effect on me i lied to my parents that i take them regularly so they kept giving me more ,so now that i have a few i think im going to take all of them , i know that this is a weak method that maybe wont work but im scared and thats the only option i have now and i cant wait any longer , do you know if i survive what will happen? will it cause any health problems on the long term ? im scared i get brain damage or smth ,do you know how its going to feel like while waiting for the effects ?will my stomach hurt so bad while waiting ? is there anything i should know before doing it ? i did my research but i still cant find answers so if anyone knows please let me know, thank u for reading
 
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ctb tomorrow night , i have 65 pills vortoxicalm/brintellix(antidepressant), 10 mg (vortioxetine) that was prescribed for me for depression by my doctor but i stopped taking it bc its so weak and it doesnt have any effect on me i lied to my parents that i take them regularly so they kept giving me more ,so now that i have a few i think im going to take all of them , i know that this is a weak method that maybe wont work but im scared and thats the only option i have now and i cant wait any longer , do you know if i survive what will happen? will it cause any health problems on the long term ? im scared i get brain damage or smth ,do you know how its going to feel like while waiting for the effects ?will my stomach hurt so bad while waiting ? is there anything i should know before doing it ? i did my research but i still cant find answers so if anyone knows please let me know, thank u for reading
I completely empathize with your sense of urgency and wish there was this magical easy way to instantly and peacefully do this. You should definitely read the posts that other user posed. Those mega threads have tons of useful information. OD would be my preferred method as well, but it is just so damn unreliable. I am scared your attempt will fail and you may possibly be found and place in mental health unit. If you are confident, give it a shot, but I feel the odds on this attempt at slim. Please some more research and ask more questions.

I really do feel your pain and wish you the best.
 
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L.D.50

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Oct 13, 2025
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its very unlikely that it'll work out how you want it too. you need way more than you think you need, you also might be experiencing SSRI/SNRI withdrawal which can make you feel agitated and sick. at least in my experience.

like a member here told me when i had a similar question,
you're worth taking the time to make a better decision for yourself, whether you ctb or not.

i hope you find your peace.
 
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The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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Please don't bother, OP. You're wasting your time.


 
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Nov 22, 2024
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Believe me, if ODing was plausible, everyone on this forum would have CTBed already.
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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Been there and tried it😢 This site actually saves lives. I knew the possibility was likely to fail but I was in such mental pain, I took the chance. I fell asleep and woke up grossly sick. My throat felt swollen and I couldn't eat for days. I wanted to go to the hospital so bad because I warms miserable but that meant telling them what I did. I suffered about 3-4 days by this method. Like the writer of the post before me said, if this was so easy, none of us would be here.

I understand wanting to go, trust me, we all do. Your method is highly unlikely to give you the results you are wanting. If you must try it, then I understand. Please take the time to read why OD's fail to give you a better understanding. I hope you can find some peace in all of this🄰
 
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