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tpboy

tpboy

No Karma Cafe
Aug 4, 2023
444
Wondering if you all look at pictures of good times with friends and family? Past memories. I have a photo album of parents and friends and family......some of which are deceased now. I want to look at them but am afraid that they will make me even more suicidal.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,693
Looking at pictures of the past when I was healthy makes me feel worse. I try to avoid it.

I do sometimes find it comforting to look at pictures of my mother before Alzheimer's.
 
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tpboy

tpboy

No Karma Cafe
Aug 4, 2023
444
Looking at pictures of the past when I was healthy makes me feel worse. I try to avoid it.

I do sometimes find it comforting to look at pictures of my mother before Alzheimer's.
Mine has it bad now. its awful.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,694
Looking at those pics hurts I don't do it anymore. My dad had Alzheimer's, terrible disease. Sorry about your mom.
 
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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
80
i do. especially childhood photos. i've had mental illness my entire life but i didn't know it yet during my younger years. any photo/video taken before age 18 gets me choked up. i was happy. or at least generally content with my life. i got much sicker when i became an adult and started making very poor decisions. i seem to not learn from my past regrets, as i'm still hurting myself every single day.
 
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SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

Bringing out the Dead and Searching for the Living
Apr 12, 2023
325
I try not to.

I deleted all my pictures of me and my partner when he left me. Recently I was looking through Google Photos for something and I hadn't realized that at some point they all automatically synced/uploaded to the cloud and I saw those pictures for the first time in so long. There were so many, some of them were from moments I didn't even remember. It felt weird and very very depressing. Like a huge weight had suddenly dropped onto my shoulders.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,944
It's bittersweet for me because most of the people, asides from me are now dead. But sure, I wonder how my life would have turned out if they'd lived longer.
 
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imtiredasf

imtiredasf

Member
May 23, 2025
47
I wish I could find more of my childhood photos. Everything went south for me around the age of 9-11, so anything before that point is just a beaming child full of wonder and excitement and optimism for the future.

Some fucking joke that was.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
654
I have also discovered pics in google, but I have very few irl pics.
 
iloveyouihateyou

iloveyouihateyou

probably die before it hurts
Oct 23, 2024
117
i keep basically every picture i take but nowadays it hurts too much to look back at what were basically the best days of my life
 
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ReincarnatedGibbon

ReincarnatedGibbon

seed-sower
May 25, 2025
12
yeah, but it hurts a lot. i sometimes look at pictures from when i was small, maybe 2-7 years old. i just looked so happy then. i can see my expression change in photos the older i get. it just gets more and more... tired? like i just don't have the energy for any of this anymore, and like the curious spark in my eye was snuffed out. now i'm 20, and i feel that way even more. i wish i could just get to be a child again, back when everything was new and exciting, before the i the world expected me to be productive, creative, happy, well-liked, and low-maintenance all at once and 100% of the time.

i just long for simpler times:/
 
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SufferingInDenmark

Mage
Feb 21, 2025
503
Looking at those pics hurts I don't do it anymore. My dad had Alzheimer's, terrible disease. Sorry about your mom.
this reminds me of the fact that in like 30 years, no one will be able to remember which old pics of themselves are Ai or real.
imagine being old in a retirement home with alzheimers... and the only thing that used to be able to spark people's memory, is now gone.
because Ai photo technology has become so good.
so it's like you have zero clue if the picture is even real :(
 
darksouls

darksouls

Student
May 10, 2025
170
I have a photoalbum of my pets
they all left me
I can only look at it rarely
it is very painful for me
 
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imtiredasf

imtiredasf

Member
May 23, 2025
47
I have a photoalbum of my pets
they all left me
I can only look at it rarely
it is very painful for me
As someone who only just became a dog owner in his 30's, I don't know where I'd be without the love given to me by him. Well, I do know, but. The love a pet can give is very valuable, and it's important to remember that they loved you unconditionally.
 
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Ligottian

Paragon
Dec 19, 2021
984
Nostalgia for me is a is very much a double edged sword. I can still enjoy the happy memories. But I grieve the fact that the time, places, and people in those pictures are gone forever.
 
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Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
777
We
As someone who only just became a dog owner in his 30's, I don't know where I'd be without the love given to me by him. Well, I do know, but. The love a pet can give is very valuable, and it's important to remember that they loved you unconditionally.
Well... cats love you conditionally, but if I can love humans, I can love cats.
 
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