yeah, but it hurts a lot. i sometimes look at pictures from when i was small, maybe 2-7 years old. i just looked so happy then. i can see my expression change in photos the older i get. it just gets more and more... tired? like i just don't have the energy for any of this anymore, and like the curious spark in my eye was snuffed out. now i'm 20, and i feel that way even more. i wish i could just get to be a child again, back when everything was new and exciting, before the i the world expected me to be productive, creative, happy, well-liked, and low-maintenance all at once and 100% of the time.
i just long for simpler times:/