Picking a ctb date

[Clowndollie]

I'm thinking about committing when I get home from Canada. My original plan was to do it after my intake with the clinic but honestly I don't even have hope for that anymore. I'm not able to live a normal life due to trauma, I'm incredibly lonely and have no friends, I got out of a relationship with a narcissistic abuser, I suffer from autism and probably bpd as well, I'm not able to work, I don't go to school…. Even though I'm still 18 and people tell me I have still plenty of time to turn my life around, I'm not strong enough to keep living like this. Every day I'm so incredibly tired , everything feels like a struggle. I've genuinely tried to make friends but everything is just too hard. Trauma controls my life now. I think I should wait until my sister's birthday has passed but everything's tells me that I should do it immediately when I come back…..

 

[samicitchka]

I am in a similar situation. I always consider everyone else but I have decided this is about me and no one else now. The ones we leave behind will feel grief and guilt but in time they move past it, it gets easier.