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Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
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Hi,
I can't stand the feeling of being abandoned.
I had signed up for an athletics club and we had a WhatsApp group, I marginalized myself by making allusions to suicide and the fact that I had a disability.
I ended up getting everyone annoying despite the fact that I tried to be super nice, courteous, generous (offering donations to the club) In short, I saw after a while that people responded to me less or more coldly.
I therefore excluded myself for fear of being abandoned. This feeling of abandonment is horrible to experience. I don't know if it's due to borderline personality disorder but it makes me suffer.
even people I have seen 2.3 times in my life rejection and abandonment are terrible for me and are a driving force behind impulsive suicide.
Anybody?
I can't stand the feeling of being abandoned.
I had signed up for an athletics club and we had a WhatsApp group, I marginalized myself by making allusions to suicide and the fact that I had a disability.
I ended up getting everyone annoying despite the fact that I tried to be super nice, courteous, generous (offering donations to the club) In short, I saw after a while that people responded to me less or more coldly.
I therefore excluded myself for fear of being abandoned. This feeling of abandonment is horrible to experience. I don't know if it's due to borderline personality disorder but it makes me suffer.
even people I have seen 2.3 times in my life rejection and abandonment are terrible for me and are a driving force behind impulsive suicide.
Anybody?