Hi, Thank you so much for this sweet reply. I am so sorry for your loss as well, our fur babies are like loosing a part of us because they are truly family. Loosing my sweet girl is one of the biggest reasons I am pushed this far and my Im making peace with ctb. I have suffered horrible abuse by my ex and he stole from me and then 2 months ago my sweet girl died. She was my heart and soul, the light of my life truly the only thing keeping me alive.Everyday was horrible and I was being treated so badly by my ex ( i have now left him) but she comforted me.
She got cushings disease. I do feel lucky I had her 16 years. I got her as a puppy at age 10. She saw me thru my darkest times. I made sure to wait out her death before I made any plans to ctb. Everything you wrote I can relate to so much. I so badly want to put up a pic of my sweet girl but they are all on my old computer plus my ex is a psycho stalker so im a bit afraid. Maybe I can find a pic though. I do have another dog but he is only 3 and if i go he will be well taken care of by my parents.
Hugs for you <3 May we both be re-uninted one day with our fur babies..our best friends <3
I know we are DM'ing but I'm so sorry I saw this so late!
I would love see your baby girl if you have a photo but please do not put yourself in danger !
I know how crazy ex/SO can be so please do not put your safety at risk!
It breaks my heart to reading your story because I know how much your heart is hurting... there are so many parallels to your journey and mine that have lead us both here.. from the shitty SO (though I'm still trapped in my situation), our heart dogs with illness, and the indescribable pain of losing our best friends..
Please know that you're not alone through this painful journey, wherever it may lead-- Your best good girl is with you always.... and I'm here too.. With Watson. <3
Our hearts may never heal but we will at least learn how to tolerate the pain together until we are reunited with our heart dogs <3
So many hugs, and so many tears and so many more hugs for you & your good girl <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3