personal thoughts

[flowerbythewater]

I think about disappearing more often now, yet that despair I would call it, pushes me forward to grow. I find it strange that being presented such immense weight creates an inverse effect internally that drives me to move forward as far as I can. far enough that I will no longer recognize the weak person I was.

to me, despair is hope

 

[JoeFailure]

I think about disappearing more often now, yet that despair I would call it, pushes me forward to grow. I find it strange that being presented such immense weight creates an inverse effect internally that drives me to move forward as far as I can. far enough that I will no longer recognize the weak person I was.

to me, despair is hope

It can be, it kind of was for me when I was at rock bottom in 2019 and I dug myself out of it. But this time it's more debilitating for me. I understand what you're saying though.

 

[The Disqualified]

I think about disappearing more often now, yet that despair I would call it, pushes me forward to grow. I find it strange that being presented such immense weight creates an inverse effect internally that drives me to move forward as far as I can. far enough that I will no longer recognize the weak person I was.

to me, despair is hope

I like your post. It sounds poetic.

I have been feeling desperate, I would say, in recent times. In fact, it has been like this for a couple of years, but the feelings have only been intensifying more and more...
These feelings can be intense, but they also sometimes push me to do things, sometimes crushed, sometimes with anger inside of me.

Are these thoughts connected to something in your life? I don't know you.
You are free to share more if you wish.

In any case, I empathize.
Sending virtual hugs.