Soon4me
Enlightened
- Jun 15, 2018
- 1,591
I am just after waking up so i don't know if any of this will make sense.Probably not :)
I Agree 100% with what anna said It's what's on the inside that counts.
I just made to thread for a distraction.Also i find it interesting to see who other people are attracted to.I understand about depression also.
For over a year i was not able to listen to any music,watch tv.I wasn't able to do anything.For a while i was not even able to get out of bed.
My only escape was sleep and even sleep was ruined with bad dreams.
I refused to take any antidepressants.But i finally had to give in.I don't like taking them,they won't fix my problems,but i can now function a little bit better.Not much but a little bit better.
At times there are certain threads here on this site that i do not even open,because i know from the title of the thread that it will just depress me.
So i leave it,maybe i open it the next day and see,if it does depress me i look for some other thread and maybe come back to that one at another time.
For me anyway anything that can distract me for a few minutes a day,just listen to one or two songs,watch an eposide of a tv series,a documentary.
Even just to smile or laugh one time a day for a few seconds.To give me a break.My life is ruined nothing i can do to fix that but i do what i can to escape for a few minutes a day.
A bit over two years ago is when my life was destroyed.Before that I had friends most of these were punks or hippies.i always had a fascination with anyone that was anyway different to most "normal" people.But i have pushed them all away now.I left my job.I only speak with family now and even that is difficult.
I leave my home maybe one time per week for a few hours.
It's just when i see a punk or a hippie i feel like i already know them,i can relate to them,and i know i will have similar interests and ideas to them.
But if i saw a very good looking "normal" male or female,and i saw a not so good looking male or female but they were a punk or hippie.
I would go straight for the punk or hippie first.
Also i am trapped i can't live and i can't die.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/do-you-feel-trapped.3143/
So i don't know what to do with my time.
I also use a lot of marijuana at first i thought this was really helping me.But if i am to be honest all it does for me is to help me forget about my problems for a while.But they all come back the next day.This was originally going to be a short answer :)
Oh and thank you to everyone who added pictures or commented or joked,it distracted me for a while and the jokes made me laugh also.
Thank You.Time for some coffee :)
I Agree 100% with what anna said It's what's on the inside that counts.
I just made to thread for a distraction.Also i find it interesting to see who other people are attracted to.I understand about depression also.
For over a year i was not able to listen to any music,watch tv.I wasn't able to do anything.For a while i was not even able to get out of bed.
My only escape was sleep and even sleep was ruined with bad dreams.
I refused to take any antidepressants.But i finally had to give in.I don't like taking them,they won't fix my problems,but i can now function a little bit better.Not much but a little bit better.
At times there are certain threads here on this site that i do not even open,because i know from the title of the thread that it will just depress me.
So i leave it,maybe i open it the next day and see,if it does depress me i look for some other thread and maybe come back to that one at another time.
For me anyway anything that can distract me for a few minutes a day,just listen to one or two songs,watch an eposide of a tv series,a documentary.
Even just to smile or laugh one time a day for a few seconds.To give me a break.My life is ruined nothing i can do to fix that but i do what i can to escape for a few minutes a day.
A bit over two years ago is when my life was destroyed.Before that I had friends most of these were punks or hippies.i always had a fascination with anyone that was anyway different to most "normal" people.But i have pushed them all away now.I left my job.I only speak with family now and even that is difficult.
I leave my home maybe one time per week for a few hours.
It's just when i see a punk or a hippie i feel like i already know them,i can relate to them,and i know i will have similar interests and ideas to them.
But if i saw a very good looking "normal" male or female,and i saw a not so good looking male or female but they were a punk or hippie.
I would go straight for the punk or hippie first.
Also i am trapped i can't live and i can't die.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/do-you-feel-trapped.3143/
So i don't know what to do with my time.
I also use a lot of marijuana at first i thought this was really helping me.But if i am to be honest all it does for me is to help me forget about my problems for a while.But they all come back the next day.This was originally going to be a short answer :)
Oh and thank you to everyone who added pictures or commented or joked,it distracted me for a while and the jokes made me laugh also.
Thank You.Time for some coffee :)