People who destroyed your life

[noname223]

For me it feels better that i am not the one who destroyed my life. My mom physically abused me since i was 5 years old. I gained a lot of weight and was severly bullied in school. This made me bipolar. And probably will lead to my suicide. I am a failure but at least i do not have to blame myself. How do you think about people that destroyed your life? Would you like to take revenge or that they burn in hell? For some people i wish that. But i do not know. My life demonstrates me how cynic, unfair and cruel this world is. I try to take it with humor at least i can share my living hell with other people.

 

[TheQ22]

At first I hated my ex-wife so much that I wanted her to suffer, but now I couldn't give 2 hoots. I'd rather she lives a long time and suffers.

I think she has NPD, she's certainly suffered anxiety problems and panic attacks in the past, and couldn't stop in one job for more than 6 months. She now has a stressful job that she has no option but to carry on working in, her step dad is at deaths door, and her mother is a nervous wreck and is leaning heavily on her for emotional support. So I expect she'll break down before too long, her and her mother.

Revenge isn't going to gain me anything, what's done is done, I'd rather go out with a clear conscience than people thinking I was vindictive.

 

[InevitablePattern91]

I am the one and the only one who destroyed my life.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

my mom and my dad are a big part of the reason why i want to ctb. i can't bring myself to hate my mom, so i don't really care about getting revenge on her. i would like to punch my dad in the face, though. payback.

other than that? i'm not going to take revenge. it'll only bring some temporary satisfaction and nothing more.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Myself. That's why I can't live with myself. You can't live 24/7 with someone who ruined your life .

 

[CarbonMonoxide]

Me, myself and I.

 

[degeneratewaste]

For me most of the blame falls onto a handful of people that put me through sexual abuse, and one that put me through a lot of mental abuse. My ex boyfriend - the mental abuser - ended our relationship after he raped me. I reported him and he was going to go to jail and be on the sex offenders list, which would have been decent justice I think. But the day before court he drank cyanide and died. I don't think that's justice, he got just what he wanted.
As for the others, I don't want any revenge or anything. I just want to be in peace.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I ruined my own life. By being a complete asshole and screwing up the best relationship and fucking over the best man I'll ever have. I will never be able to forgive myself for it.

 

[Jojo81]

Me, myself and I.

Same here Me, Myself and I

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

My ex destroyed my life with single selfish decision, she pressed me to go to that plastic surgeon when I changed my mind and didn't trust him.
She yelled at me, packed my stuff and pushed in the train. All because she invited her boyfriend to our place.
This is not entirely her fault but I just can't forgive her. This surgery ruined everything for me and made my life hell.

 

[Sinai Silence]

My parents played a big role in the way I am now although I wouldn't tell them that.

My dad called me up drunk the other day saying how he regrets how neglectful he is as a father. I wanted to tell him to go shove that regret where the sun doesn't shine. Instead I said something along the lines of; its in the past so there's no point feeling sorry for yourself. Not that he ever has or will change.

As for my mum she would never admit to any wrongdoing as a parent, she's one of the most stubborn people I know. She would blame me for all my problems, obviously I am responsible for some of it, but I feel like a lot of it was out of my control.

The people who bullied me in highschool made my life hell for over half a decade and that definitely took its toll on me.

Also the doctor who used me like a lab rat for SSRI's when my mum dragged me to the crisis ward. F*ck that guy. They altered my body and and turned me into the walking dead. I'm not the same person I once was.

 

[death137]

I didn't want but mental illness forced me to destroy my life. I know from early on my life will be in mess if I don't die soon. I genuinely tried to ctb few times but for most part I was lazy. My regret is not ctb early.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

I was also abused in childhood and developed mental disorders because of it. It's been destroying my life for years.

How do you think about people that destroyed your life?

I hate them and I don't care what happens to them.

 

[Notme]

My ex has pushed me in to the rabbit hole. I now know there is some past related issue from my younger days as well (before me and my ex got together) I turn everything inwards. But also have alot of self confident issue. To be honest I just hate life I fucking work hard and I mean hard and get fuck all for it. I try with everyone and it's stupid as the front isn't real.

 

[Cry]

It sounds bad but on the one hand it was my family the other part is me

 

[Fedrea]

I take responsibility for my own reactions to things, so me

but I know I would never be suicidal without...a surgeon who left me in a bad state who harmed and lied to many others. several sociopaths, and one person with NPD.

 

[miguel6565]

Myself

 

[rt1989526]

No one to blame but myself.

 

[Life_and_Death]

My mother, my stepfather, my friends, my exs. Basically everyone in my life. I have so many problems now I'm not sure I can be fixed. I had a chance before I think.... I thought..... But I'm not sure anymore. I'm hopeful it's just the dissociation clouding my view. But looking back.... Maybe I was born with these problems and meant for abuse. Maybe suicide has just always been my destiny.

Oh and my bio dad and stepmom waltzing into my life at 18 then not loving me. I have 4 parents and not one gives a fuck about me. If that doesn't say I should die then idk...

 

[alexit]

A Gold's Gym staff trainer I hired for 1-on-1 sessions who ended up not even being licensed. It wasn't like his license expired; he never trained as a trainer! He had me do squats incorrectly one day, and the next day my lifelong agony with chronic pain began.

And also my mother, not only was she my abuser as a child but when I filed a case against Gold's Gym (easily an open and shut case; they even had an opening offer to settle) I used my mother's law firm, where she kept track of court dates, and she couldn't even be bothered to keep track of her own son's case. So the court date came and went, I didn't know about it, my lawyer didn't show, they dismissed the case and I was left with lifelong chronic pain and in debt.

As a rule I don't want anyone to suffer, but I will be glad when both are gone.

 

[SipSop]

For me it feels better that i am not the one who destroyed my life. My mom physically abused me since i was 5 years old. I gained a lot of weight and was severly bullied in school. This made me bipolar. And probably will lead to my suicide. I am a failure but at least i do not have to blame myself. How do you think about people that destroyed your life? Would you like to take revenge or that they burn in hell? For some people i wish that. But i do not know. My life demonstrates me how cynic, unfair and cruel this world is. I try to take it with humor at least i can share my living hell with other people.

I feel the same.
In my case is my father who gaslighted me lied and exagerated things to scare me and keep me in a state of perpetual fear of him and other things. Kept repeating me how I was retarded and that I will be on the streets when I will grow up, that I ruin everything I touch. And also scared od him beating me. My mom could have left him but she choose the easy path of comfort. She was telling herself that we need to finish out schools first then she can escape. Bs, she was to comfortable to do it, I have some friends wich their mother left their father, it was possible. I had a hniversity degree now but at what purpose if I was raised in fear as a man. Called stupid, nobody paid attention to me or nurtured my curiosity. At what good the diploma if I am gonna kill myself at 25? Also I fell in love with somebody who used me for attention and lied to me at all time. I trully loved honestly but I was left like a piece of garbage.
I do not feel ashamed of saying this that they are responsible of fucking me up. I wish I was normal like others, to live more, but is just not possible. People will not understand, they judge based on their life experience and feelings.
Do you k ow how it is to know that you are not retarded but a voice in your head to belittle you at any time? To have to use energy to keep that voice at bay. Is not fair... for me is not worth it. I know if I was given a proper environment I could have been better, productive. They made fun of my life.

 

[alexit]

My mother, my stepfather, my friends, my exs. Basically everyone in my life. I have so many problems now I'm not sure I can be fixed. I had a chance before I think.... I thought..... But I'm not sure anymore. I'm hopeful it's just the dissociation clouding my view. But looking back.... Maybe I was born with these problems and meant for abuse. Maybe suicide has just always been my destiny.

No one deserves abuse. I don't wish that on my enemies.

 

[Life_and_Death]

No one deserves abuse. I don't wish that on my enemies.

Sadly I do. But I think that's because they took everything from me. I can't finish school. I can't live alone. I can't have a family. I can't get a job. And I hate them all for it

 

[SipSop]

Sadly I do. But I think that's because they took everything from me. I can't finish school. I can't live alone. I can't have a family. I can't get a job. And I hate them all for it

I know how it feels.
And they go on with their lifes like nothing happened!

 

[Life_and_Death]

I know how it feels.
And they go on with their lifes like nothing happened!

yeah, i check up on them every now and again through facebook (not healthy yeah yeah yeah lol) and they are all doing just fine and happy as fuck with their life. who would give a shit about how they made my life

 

[alexit]

Sadly I do. But I think that's because they took everything from me. I can't finish school. I can't live alone. I can't have a family. I can't get a job. And I hate them all for it

I will straight up destroy anyone I see abusing someone. I've never gotten into a fight for myself but have knocked out people harassing others.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I will straight up destroy anyone I see abusing someone. I've never gotten into a fight for myself but have knocked out people harassing others.

thats how i got rid of my bully in middle school. she would pick on me and i didnt do anything. i found out she and a bunch of my friend were picking on a girl i hated (but that was mostly because she was annoying and thinking shes better then everyone) and i told them all (my friends included) to fuck off and i never heard from my bully since. althought i completely forgot what i did so the next day i went to school and the girl hugged me and i had no idea why. turned out no one stood up for her before. i was also being bullied in front of my friend and he felt like shit for doing nothing. i told him it was best he didnt because i would have gotten kicked out of school by the time i was done.

i dont take to kindly to bullies lol

 

[SipSop]

yeah, i check up on them every now and again through facebook (not healthy yeah yeah yeah lol) and they are all doing just fine and happy as fuck with their life. who would give a shit about how they made my life

Well, the worst part from my point of view is that we are smart enough to figure out that something is not right with us, that somehow they damaged us and not powerful enough to change that!
Maybe it helps you but I accepted my faith. I endorse revenge on them. Given that you pay the price for it.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I endorse revenge on them. Given that you pay the price for it.

yeah i kinda wouldnt mind a murder/suicide. what are they gonna do arrest me? ill be dead lol

 

[Blueman]

Only myself to blame, definitely nobody else