People that openly talk about their suicide in real life, why do you do it?

[Nicebuddimtim]

I just want to talk to someone who understands, maybe someone who's been through this or has similar problems but I've found nobody. The people who do talk to me about it I think just want me to shut up. I drag my peers down so they've got up and left now.

 

[DyingAlf]

I can understand this if you are talking to a therapist, but what will you expect to happen if you tell your friends or family? They will stop you; not rationalize with you.

I think you'd be surprised if you could be a fly on the wall in my life.... I have to be a bit careful about who I discuss it with & what sort of discussion I have but realistically no-one can stop me (unless I tell them where & when I'm going to do it) because they can't hospitalise me forever (& if they did I'd find a way to do it in there).
Some people know about it because I have been hospitalised in the past which makes it easier to talk about in general terms.
I have a good friend who is also suicidal so I can talk openly & honestly with them (still wouldn't say where or when because I don't want them to be held responsible for not trying to stop me).
And yes then there's my therapist & my GP who can be good to talk to fairly openly, again obviously not the where & when.

 

[Done at Fifty]

Some people talk about it as a cry for help in the hopes that someone will come to their aid, or tell them they love them.

I used to talk about it as a teen and in my early 20s. I was surprised by how much sense dying because I simply didn't want to live, made to me and I was shocked that society didn't accept it. I'd open conversations with people about how suicide should be available for everyone and doesn't necessarily have to do with mental illness. Some people just know they're not meant to be alive. In fact, my strongest depression and especially my anxiety came after wanting to die.

With time I felt it was cruel to expect family and friends to be my therapist and I stopped talking about it. Over time my perspective changed and I've come to believe the notion that our family and friends have to "be there for you" when you're mentally ill is foolish. I'm a kinder friend and relative if I accept that they may not want hear about suicide or be able to deal with and may be going through their own problems.