People make me want to die

[leopard_gec]

I'm always stuck in this cycle

feel lonely, decide to interact with people > they do or say something horrible > feel horrible > isolate myself > feel better > feel lonely again

Am I just too sensitive?? Idk I feel like so many people are just horrible, justefying harm done to others...

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that humans are the worst species in general, it's truly awful how humans create so much suffering and harm, to me it's certainly understandable why that would make you wish to be free from everything.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

"they do or say something horrible"

Sorry to hear that, that sucks. Try to minimize interactions with others or only interact with people that you know won't do or say something horrible.

 

[leopard_gec]

Sorry to hear that, that sucks. Try to minimize interactions with others or only interact with people that you know won't do or say something horrible.

It's pretty much impossible. I live with my family and have no choice but to interact with them. Some of my own friends have said horrible things too. Which hurts even more because I trusted them. I know in general I'm able to ignore it/ deal with it, just fine but right now I'm extremely sensitive (idk why) and all I can do isolate myself almost completely which I know is unhealthy for me

 

[todiefor]

I also feel terrified what my parents would say to me half the time and I've not lived in the same country as them for a very long time. It hurts the most when it's people you trust the most.

Do you know what in particular they say that's very triggering to you? Do you think they would be receptive if you told your parents hey when you say x, it really hurts me because it makes me think xx? It's never worked for me but I did try, might work for you?

 

[leopard_gec]

I also feel terrified what my parents would say to me half the time and I've not lived in the same country as them for a very long time. It hurts the most when it's people you trust the most.

Do you know what in particular they say that's very triggering to you? Do you think they would be receptive if you told your parents hey when you say x, it really hurts me because it makes me think xx? It's never worked for me but I did try, might work for you?

Most of the time it is just ignorant, bigoted or hatefully stuff, so they really wouldn't be receptive towards it. They are also against "being weak" and sensitive, so me telling them that something emotionally hurts me won't go well. I know there are good people out there, famely that is supportive and stuff, they just aren't in my life :(

 

[020x]

If I find something unappealing about a person, I never offend them or say horrible things about them, cause I know that it will hurt them. I don't understand why someone would feel the need to hurt another person that didn't even deserve it in the first place. I'm sorry you had to go through this :(

There's people that need others to be happy and there' ones that don't feel lonely at all, even when they have absolutely nobody with them.

Regardless of what people make you feel, remember that this is also your home. No one has the right to hurt others or make them feel less important than others.

Sending hugs, hopefully you'll feel good soon!

 

[todiefor]

Most of the time it is just ignorant, bigoted or hatefully stuff, so they really wouldn't be receptive towards it. They are also against "being weak" and sensitive, so me telling them that something emotionally hurts me won't go well. I know there are good people out there, famely that is supportive and stuff, they just aren't in my life :(

Argh, I'm sorry that really sucks that your family sound like the kind of people who definitely wouldn't understand how to be empathetic to you. It must be horrible to be made to feel weak or sensitive just because you have emotional needs and need their emotional support. I understand, every time I mentioned anything even remotely emotion related to my parents I get very blank and uncomfortable looks, my dad probably runs away or throw some money at me, and my mum suggest that maybe I'm hungry or something, or they will just flat out refute my feelings.

I don't know your exact situation but I don't get the sense you are too sensitive, perhaps more sensitive than your current environment and people around you like to cater for. Being sensitive is not a bad thing at all I hope someone in your life can show you that. Have you spoken to any therapist about this? I am also very sensitive and I wish I had spoken to a therapist earlier in life.

People also make me want to die, honestly people are terrible, but also people can be good like many on this forum. I really wish I was better at telling which is which.

 

[blue_muse]

You're not too sensitive, instead you've just reached your limit. There's only so many times you can pick yourself up and start again, until cruel people keep doing the same thing over and over.