MydnytSorrow
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- Aug 9, 2025
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When I first moved out of my parent's house and moved in with some friends, I attempted suicide. I was completely calm that night. I left work early, took a long hot shower, and gathered as much medication as possible from our medicine cabinet and individually pushed out every single tablet. I hadn't thought of a single thing (almost like I was on auto pilot). A few minutes later, I felt like I snapped out of it and called my roommate who then called 911. After years of therapy and rehab centers, I still can't help but think "Why did I chicken out?", and "I couldn't even commit suicide right?", or "I wasn't strong enough to even finish this." You can probably imagine my parents' reaction when I bring this up to them. "That's just the devil talking." Why did it feel like I woke up just in time to call for help? I never understood it :(
